Timestamp: 50th Day of Summer, 509 AV
Mood: Determined
She was newly born. That's what it felt like, thrown out, told not to come home until you've found yourself. What does 'finding yourself' mean anyhow? Her parents lived in the northern part of the Cobalt Mountains, hundreds of miles from where she was near Syliras. Their only advice was 'head south' and 'go find a city full of people'. Nya trembled at the thought. At home it was fine and safe to be herself, to be human, but out here it was frightening. She was stronger, faster, and had keener senses as a forest cat. No one bothered her, well perhaps only a bear or two that could be far more determined and cranky than she could ever be. Badgers gave her pause too. And sometimes a pair of determined crows could throw her off her kill and make her look for easier feasting if she happened to take something down in their territory. But otherwise, she felt a great and lasting peace in the Bronze Wood, one that allowed her time to contemplate the breezes, follow their teachings, and roam.
She missed people though, and longed for companionship. But most of the companionship she had known was the kind that was untrue, based on lies or falsehoods. She couldn't reveal her nature, couldn't be something she actually was or people were afraid. And she hated pretending to be human. It was painfully obvious after just a short time that she wasn't, not fully, and that left her lacking, and longing for a deeper understanding. If Nya had a choice, she'd stay a forest cat, stay wild, and retreat from the scattered remains of civilization altogether. But Marcus Kelvic had taken that choice from her. She was neither one nor the other of her natures... and in some ways she hated him for it.
It was in this confusion and hurt that she explored, stopping occasionally as a cat to scent mark a tree or scratch claws into the wood of a sentential conifer. And finally, tired of her cat shape, she took a human form near a wide stream to take a bath in the summer sun.