He listened to her words with a quiet hunger, wanting so badly to know that her cousin might be his and that she might be that perfect piece to add to the puzzle to his life. A man had to be as self-sufficient as possible, of course, but true happiness came from the fellowship of his peers, and the growth and prosperity of the family unit, wide and sprawling as that could be in Drykas culture. Finally, he smiled, a bit sheepish. "I've spoken to her some," he admitted. "Not as much as I'd like. But it's difficult to know her. It seems like she's trying so hard to impress me, and I am, and I appreciate it, but I want to know who I'm marrying, you know? Dymphna... I knew her..." His eyes went a little sad, the amputation of that part of his heart not clean and cauterized. "I'm sorry. I know women don't want to be compared to others... "I do wish I had someone to advise me. My pavilion is gone, my cousin Eldon left for Syliras... It feels like such a big decision to make, and how can I know I'm making the right choice?" He squared his shoulders, leaning his cheek against the toddler's. "I like her, I think. Enough that I've come to meet the family... I just wish I knew her." He met her gaze for a moment. Sometimes a moment was all it took. "You know?" |