OOCHey everyone… I know its been a while, but since starting the new job I have been working doubles a lot. Most of the time I am exhausted and my mind is in overload. For instance, the whole phasing of light from energy and matter came to me in a dream. Which tells you how crazy and mixed up my life is right now. I promise I will try to start posting on the weekends, but I am not sure about the quality that will come out. Thanks for understanding and Xalet thanks for not giving up on me.For a brief moment Torc felt blood rush to his face as he looked at the Nuit. Of all the petching things to say! Torc, had the overwhelming feeling of walking over to Jiliste and putting his half-Isurian fist through her face. The vivid image of her face caving in like some kind of rotten pumpkin, made him all the more angry. He had come here to give Priskil’s hope a reality. What did it matter his reasons? For all her years, Torc felt like Jilitse was some kind of young girl trying to get all the attention. Look at me! Look at me! I think your ideas are horrible and aren’t even well thought out! Everyone I am a great thinker because I can tear down a new idea, and not replace it with one of my own! Don’t worry, I will make sure that he doesn’t do anything, because my whole job will be to tear him down and do no work at all! Torc thought in a high whiny voice. Just as he was about to finally break down and yell at Jilitse, Priskil spoke up. Torc turned to the goddess with anger in his eyes and as he looked at her, the message that Lhex had given him came home. There is no way of around it: for you would make and therefore you must risk your own unmaking. I must risk my own unmaking…
Lhex voice sounded again from deep in his mind. If you should stop being true to yourself, this ‘two’ will invariably catch up to you. Anger was not his way, logic was not his way. His true self dealt with knowing and belief, it dealt with meaning and understanding. All the good things he had ever created had come from feeling the very thing that he made. Knowing its essence in his mind and then bring it out through creation. The material construct of his creation was imperfect just like everything else, yet when he held it in his hands, when he felt its presence in his mind, it was his ideal come real. Aquiras cared little about destinations, he had cared for the journey. Torc looked down at his feet and felt the restless energy in them. Aquiras knew all roads lead to one place… home. Where ever Priskil was Aquiras was home, for all roads had connected her to him, and as he walked them and absorbed the stories of fellow travelers, he found her in the meaning of them. Aquiras traveled because in his life the meaning of the journey brought him home. Within Torc mind he felt the spread of thousands of lines spread out from him. He was separate of these roads, links, events. Just like Lhex was separate and apart of every connection. Everything was a traveler, and Priskil felt lost without her guide, friend, and lover by her side. For her, the meaning of the journey was lost behind her. She had become stalled in hope for his return, and yet knew no way back to him.
She had surrounded herself with hope, with people who were searching and doing their best to bring back meaning to something that had been lost. Torc felt some pathways lighten and slowly rise, the thought had brought them in harmony with his mind. Torc began to feel them stretch onward, Kelwyn was present in some of them, for the god and goddess of lost causes treadled the roads of hope. Yet, down some of those pathways, darkness and evil could be found, just as light and goodness could be found else. Yet as people made their way down those pathways Lhex had brought some of them together in a strange crossroads of sorts. The god of fate, cared not how one arrived at his crossroads, because he waited and shaped the landscape to bring many paths to him. Nor did he care about the decision that one made when they left the crossroads, his power was to bring those things together for one instance and allow them freedom to choose their own path afterward. That was why Aquiras didn’t want worship, because he wanted the people to enjoy the journey and find their own path to him.
He looked back at Jilitse and realized that she was focus on the result and making sure the path they took was the right one for everyone. Torc had believed in the meaning, knowing that whatever path they would take would be filled with imperfections. Be true to yourself… what was the meaning behind the ingredients? It was beyond a doubt that each ingredient added power to the heart and yet what was the meaning behind them all. The first ingredient had been to melt a thousand mountains, the size of Mt. Skyinarta or greater. Though it sounded very logical to find a material world that contained such a thing, and yet what was behind it? If Torc needed only five pounds why lay waste to a mountain range? Yet it wasn’t just about the power it took, nor the release of it, it was about the meaning behind it. Torc scanned the crowd again. Each person here had a will the size of a mountain and faith in there goddess just as big. Torc had planted a seed in them just as he had planted a seed of hope in the goddess. Their mountains of will melted as their goddess spoke her command, and yet they had to choose the right five pounds of faith and will that would carry them to their destination in which the meaning translated into reality. Torc took a cleansing breath and inhaled the scent of the room. Heat from the crowded bodies had been to build in the room, just as the smell of meat and humanity mingled. Yet with it he felt that connection rise back in him. The pathway that Torc wanted to take also lead to Lhex’s fated crossroads.
At the thought of the road before them, Torc turned his head to see the doors burst forward by energy. Had Torc not been so in tune to feeling the world he would have wondered if it was a fate or random chance, that made him turn his head and eyes to the doors before they had opened. Instead if felt right, because a part of him felt the watchtower energy pulse and then solidify. Light was a wave of energy and reality, Torc knew this like he knew his arm contained bone, blood, and yet also molded the energy of his self. When Aquiras appeared and began to speak, Torc began to understand the problem that he was having as he faded away. It wasn’t just that Aquiras spiritual being had been dying for five centuries, but it was also because he was using light to convey his message. It’s power needed to hit in different waves to carry the full meaning. Aquiras was dying and the roads that he could have used to channel the light into reality and then back into energy were slowly become lost. Torc felt that if Aquiras had taken countless thread of light and had them insect at the place he wanted, they could have moved in the wave that was their nature, but he would have presented an solid image. Torc felt the meaning of what was happening, Aquiras couldn’t use multiple pathways to send his message through, so like a bunch of rolling hills Torc and the rest of the group only saw brief moments the god and heard fragments of his message. The entire message was there, just out of phase to all of them. Time, roads, and light were fragmented and therefore gave them a fragmented message as the rest of its energy transitioned and was lost to the shadows. For light was like a man running and then walking again on a road. Get enough people together doing it in an orchestrated moment and it looked like everyone was running. Only have a few people doing it and many different roads and you saw them running and walking.
The meaning behind the message was clear, the roads of choice would bring them to a crossroads of fate. The choices they would face would undo their meaning of the journey. When he spoke of the Platform, Torc began to have a vague uneasy feeling, and then when a huge crashing sound occurred the feeling began to rip through him and shatter the intense feeling of the world around him.
“Priskil?! Did we just lose the watchtower outside?” Was it because Aquiras was using the road of light to reflect his image? “Priskil, was it because of something reflected from this platform that rippled out? Or is someone trying to use or attack the roads of light?” Torc didn’t really know how he knew, but his feeling was that the Platform was not just a big junction point for all the watchtowers, like some weave of cloth entwining all the roads of light together, it was also the place where the material could keep physical presence without dispersing, allowing the travel by the watchtowers to be safe. It made sense because the meaning of Priskil words brought it out of Torc’s mind. Aquiras was linked to the platform because it provided stability for this being to exist and still phase out of existence at the same time. Torc, also began to feel a massive headache starting to come into existence over his left eye.