Fall 90, 511
Twenty bells
Winter’s shadows had risen early, sending their grey fingers across a scanty rug. The room’s single light burned on a table beside an unmade bed where a diminutive white frame was crumpled over itself, chest-bare and still. Seven’s fingertips pored over the lined and yellowed pages of an absurdly thick tome that sat between his knees.
She was beautiful, he had to admit; dressed in sable and slashed cloth-of-silver and adorned with the darkest of onyx to compliment Her deeply hued skin. The painter had embellished Her raven locks with a swath of stars that formed a crown above Her head. In one hand, She held the new moon in its entirety, plunged into blackness of its monthly transition; in the other, a set of midnight fingers wrapped the thin stalk of a vildani. The significance was not lost on its audience. Seven laughed through his nose, tracing the prop that would seem out of place had the book once sat in the library of any other city.
“Look at you. He’s made you into a bloody coat rack for spiritual symbols.” His head tilted. “I suppose he could not have people confusing you with all of the other blue-skinned Goddesses in the pantheon.”
The halfblood dipped to gather a glass of red from the floor. It was sour, but he swallowed it all the same and smacked the warm tingle across his lips. Alongside a bottle of house wine was a sprawl of cheese, stale bread, and grapes, fresh from some merchant ship from one of the Eastern ports that morning—or so the pig-nosed fruit monger informed him. Seven bent further to rip apart the crusty loaf of bread. He chased the wine with musky wheat until the glass was empty, and so were his hands.
Why now? Why after so many years being disenchanted by the intangibilities and disappointments faith offered did he go crawling back to suckle on some divine teat like a coddled child? It was different. But was it really? Of course; this teat was blue. Seven laughed again, refilled his glass, and settled back into the warmth of his feather mattress.
“I’m once a kinslayer and twice a murderer,” he began, as if expecting a pair of ears to be listening and documenting his sins, “In vengeance and in mercy I took the lives of others. I donnot regret killing my father, but the Kelvic died before her time. Even if she died at someone else’s hands an hour, a day, a year from then—I robbed her of her life; the very reason I saw fit to end another. I am no better than him.
“So I’m also a hypocrite, in a backward and convoluted sort of way.” He huffed, drew more of the sour to his pale lips, and shook his head. “No, I am what I am; no need to fuck around with words when I’m by myself.”
Seven turned a rumpled page. The book’s spine protested, having been ravished by countless hands before his, but he smoothed the leaf and it rolled over in relative silence. “I feel I should thank you. Nightfall has been one of the only constants in my short life. I could always depend on you to give me a few hours to think and stare at the sky. The sky is hardly interesting during the day. A rainbow, an oddly shaped cloud;” his brows quirked in concession, “but under night’s mantle I learned so much more than I could have during the day.”
His chin dropped to regard the book, falling into silence. The halfblood listened for the shuffling of feet, or the iron slip of an unlocking door, but after a short assessment it seemed he still had the second floor to himself. If Seven wasn’t careful, Victor would never let him forget the time he’d caught him getting introspective with a book. The Ethaefal was apt to better understand the blind comfort that came in talking to ears that would never hear him, and though he feared his intrusion less, he had no stomach to talk to the man after their curt exchange a few days prior.
“So I’m not the type of person to throw my hands into the air and bend the knee for faith,” Seven argued no one in particular, “my faith was tarnished a long time ago, when I was a stupid child, and expected Zintila to whisk me away from my shyke life to—live some fantasy, I guess. I wanted to guard Her. ‘No Widow’s bastard will ever be a Shinya acolyte’.” Seven rolled his eyes. “He was right, of course. I was as repugnant to them as a Zith. A Zith! Can you imagine that?”
He turned the page.
“I should not have blamed Her.”
Twenty bells
Winter’s shadows had risen early, sending their grey fingers across a scanty rug. The room’s single light burned on a table beside an unmade bed where a diminutive white frame was crumpled over itself, chest-bare and still. Seven’s fingertips pored over the lined and yellowed pages of an absurdly thick tome that sat between his knees.
She was beautiful, he had to admit; dressed in sable and slashed cloth-of-silver and adorned with the darkest of onyx to compliment Her deeply hued skin. The painter had embellished Her raven locks with a swath of stars that formed a crown above Her head. In one hand, She held the new moon in its entirety, plunged into blackness of its monthly transition; in the other, a set of midnight fingers wrapped the thin stalk of a vildani. The significance was not lost on its audience. Seven laughed through his nose, tracing the prop that would seem out of place had the book once sat in the library of any other city.
“Look at you. He’s made you into a bloody coat rack for spiritual symbols.” His head tilted. “I suppose he could not have people confusing you with all of the other blue-skinned Goddesses in the pantheon.”
The halfblood dipped to gather a glass of red from the floor. It was sour, but he swallowed it all the same and smacked the warm tingle across his lips. Alongside a bottle of house wine was a sprawl of cheese, stale bread, and grapes, fresh from some merchant ship from one of the Eastern ports that morning—or so the pig-nosed fruit monger informed him. Seven bent further to rip apart the crusty loaf of bread. He chased the wine with musky wheat until the glass was empty, and so were his hands.
Why now? Why after so many years being disenchanted by the intangibilities and disappointments faith offered did he go crawling back to suckle on some divine teat like a coddled child? It was different. But was it really? Of course; this teat was blue. Seven laughed again, refilled his glass, and settled back into the warmth of his feather mattress.
“I’m once a kinslayer and twice a murderer,” he began, as if expecting a pair of ears to be listening and documenting his sins, “In vengeance and in mercy I took the lives of others. I donnot regret killing my father, but the Kelvic died before her time. Even if she died at someone else’s hands an hour, a day, a year from then—I robbed her of her life; the very reason I saw fit to end another. I am no better than him.
“So I’m also a hypocrite, in a backward and convoluted sort of way.” He huffed, drew more of the sour to his pale lips, and shook his head. “No, I am what I am; no need to fuck around with words when I’m by myself.”
Seven turned a rumpled page. The book’s spine protested, having been ravished by countless hands before his, but he smoothed the leaf and it rolled over in relative silence. “I feel I should thank you. Nightfall has been one of the only constants in my short life. I could always depend on you to give me a few hours to think and stare at the sky. The sky is hardly interesting during the day. A rainbow, an oddly shaped cloud;” his brows quirked in concession, “but under night’s mantle I learned so much more than I could have during the day.”
His chin dropped to regard the book, falling into silence. The halfblood listened for the shuffling of feet, or the iron slip of an unlocking door, but after a short assessment it seemed he still had the second floor to himself. If Seven wasn’t careful, Victor would never let him forget the time he’d caught him getting introspective with a book. The Ethaefal was apt to better understand the blind comfort that came in talking to ears that would never hear him, and though he feared his intrusion less, he had no stomach to talk to the man after their curt exchange a few days prior.
“So I’m not the type of person to throw my hands into the air and bend the knee for faith,” Seven argued no one in particular, “my faith was tarnished a long time ago, when I was a stupid child, and expected Zintila to whisk me away from my shyke life to—live some fantasy, I guess. I wanted to guard Her. ‘No Widow’s bastard will ever be a Shinya acolyte’.” Seven rolled his eyes. “He was right, of course. I was as repugnant to them as a Zith. A Zith! Can you imagine that?”
He turned the page.
“I should not have blamed Her.”