Hadrian had never been a demonstrative boy, and now that he was, technically at least, a man, he remained somewhat aloof, distanced from his emotions. But he was not a monster, not unfeeling. He pitied Nugget, and felt compassion for the faithful servant he had been even after his master's probable death. His mind swam with this new information, all the details, and all the possibilities, but the part of his mind he was honing at the university, the cool, analytic part, was trying to put everything together so he did not make a misstep, did not ruin this opportunity. He thought he could be happy here, living and learning with the help of a trustworthy Pycon likely built for just such a purpose, going into Zeltiva when he wanted to speak to one of the ivory tower intellectuals or for supplies.
Wild hope and joy welled up within him, but he kept it down where it was manageable, not wanting to lose control of himself.
"You've done a good job, Nugget," he said, absolutely sincere in his admiration. He looked around briefly as if to confirm his conviction, then back at the Pycon who was not so small when Hadrian was kneeling more at his level.
"No, I don't know what happened to Vic, but I could try to find out. There might be clues elsewhere. Threads to the mystery... I can't promise anything, but I could bring you fresh books for copying if you think the lady won't return. And I'm sure I could find a glassblower to make you a proper magnifying lens, and have it fitted into a bit of iron for a handle.
"But if the bell did not work, then you are probably right that he is gone and not coming back. I mean, I could be wrong, but the probability is not high. But if you wouldn't mind me visiting sometimes, maybe letting me read some of his books when I bring you supplies, that would make me... very happy. But if you don't want me to return... I'll respect that too."
It would kill him to walk away from this place, and its presence would be like a strange canker or cancer on the edge of his awareness while he lived in Zeltiva, if he was not allowed to return. But he was Syliran, whether people thought him amoral or not. He had grown up believing in Tyveth's idea of integrity as practiced by the Knights of Syliras. He would keep Nugget's secret to keep him safe, even if it drove him mad with desire.
But he had hope. Even a Pycon might want for companionship, and he seemed to be the sort of easygoing creature who would not place too many demands upon Hadrian. Gods knew Hadrian could use a friend.
"What do you say?"