Hrair took a sip of his tea. He nodded. Giving blood was not going to be a problem. In truth he doubted the idea would work in any event. He had been seeking her for so long now. His hopes were high but at the same time Hrair was more than prepared to have them dashed yet again by this young scholar.
That said, Hrair liked his new found friend. Although he had seemed quiet and reserved in the social context of the bar he seemed to have taken on a new confidence when discussing the blood amulet. He was obviously keen on his subject and had evidently spent a lot of time thinking about the subject. Hrair could not help fear his confidence was misplaced.
Hrair was begining to build a trust in this chap and wondered whether he should tell him how he had lost his sister. Hrair closed his eyes as he let the warm tea flow down his throat and cast his mind back to the day when they had landed on the rock and taken his sister.
It was his fault. He knew it. Had he just been there. Moments sooner and he would have been..."dead like his brother" resounded the thought throughout his brain. He chose to hide rather than fight and face the men who had landed on the rock. Did it make him a coward? Would he have been better to have died?
What was his sister doing now? Where was she? The thoughts that flowed through his mind a thousand times a day flowed through his mind again and he pinched the bridge of his nose. He felt a sudden urge for more ale, for kelp beer to numb the thoughts and kill the pain.
As he closed his eyes he could see his sisters face, smiling at him as they ran from the waves on the rocks. All of a sudden the picture in his mind changed.
He could see himself peeping from behind the grass where the men and THAT MAN pulled and pushed his sister. As he delved deeper into his own thoughts he coulds see his brother, being hit and punched and kicked and stabbed...he could almost taste the sea, and he could feel. Feel that feeling of complete and total futility as his brother and sister were tortured by the men, whilst his mother and father lay dead on the floor. He wanted to help them but his legs would not move. He knew to rush them with his spear would have meant death but death was deserved for his cowardice.
Hrair realised he had begun to gently weep, and he looked up to see Hadrian staring at him. Dare he share his cowardice with his new found friend?