Breath animated his chest, sending it swelling and falling in unconcious rhythm. Sable and her sister accompanied him toward the island, oar by oar, stroke by stroke. He followed as best he could, his mind in different places. Inexperience wore at the edge of his confidence, breaking through the calm he'd wrapped around himself and shredding his composure. The little otter at his feet, unknowingly dancing in plague, seemed happy. Wrenmae looked away from it, swallowing his heartbeat and worry.
Sybil had breached the wave like some story-goddess of sea foam and spray, water running in rivulets by the wrinkled paths in her shirt, past her natural endowments and away, leaving little to imagination.
But how expansive his imagination spun.
He said nothing during the explanation, remembering the stone-shaped oysters he'd seen peddled on the docks, rounded stones passing by the bucket, by the net full between calloused hands. Personally, he never saw the appeal in the ugly things, cold and inert. But the inns wanted them, cut the things open with a curved knife and scraped the meat into thick soup, or left them out raw to be supped.
Wrenmae offered a small smile to Sable, taking a breath before climbing over the boat. It rocked when he upset the balance, hurling him into the sea sooner than he'd planned. For a moment, the storyteller panicked, thrashing in the water before something scaly bumped him back to the rough wood of the boat. His hands breached the waves and he caught the edge gasping, his heart a hammering concert of fear. Consciously he tried to quiet his breathing, if not for Sable's sake, than for Sybil. He didn't want those eyes judging him again, a lack of confidence seeping into them like a stormy judgement. Disapprovals for Sable's choice, his potential. Part of him didn't want to handle rejection on that scale again.
"I can do it," he whispered to Sable, quiet out of shame, not secrecy, "I need to do this myself."
Ducking under the waves, he forced his eyes open. Everything was a blurry mess of color and shapes, from the bobbing bottom of the boat above him, to the form of Siller, dancing effortlessly through the waves. He held his breath in his chest, centering the air there while he grabbed the rough rope and pulled himself to the sandy bottom. It was harder than he'd expected. Unlike the time at the docks, the water could not grab hold of him. He felt the air within him, the Zulrav within him tug at his body to return to the surface. This was not where he belonged, and maybe Laviku knew that.
Putting it out of his mind, Wrenmae drove a hand into the sand, tugging handfuls free in swirling clouds of color. He looked for shapes, rough patches in the darkness beneath him, grasping at the familiar round stones he'd seen in Alvadas.
At first, there was nothing. Sand and shells with speckled surfaces. He hurled them aside, uncaring, even desperate. The air within him burned to be released, his lungs stuttering at the lack of circulation. He needed to find at least one, just one.
As black dots spun at the corners of his vision, shards of the Void pushing into his conciousness, his hands settled on a shape that sunk into the sand even as his fingers brushed it. Frenzied, possessed he tore it from the sand and burst to the surface, gasping and dropping the oyster into the bottom of the boat.
It hit the wood with a clunk, and the storyteller hung off the edge, red faced and gasping.
Looking up at Sable, Wrenmae offered her a weak smile, shaking his head slowly. "Is there an easier way to do this?" |
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