Spring 512. Day 23
"No one can see the dark side of me. This is the song of my heart that will keep beating till the end. I know i have no fortune, no money. But at least I know I'm alive... If the sun shines tomorrow, I know that life won't break me. I'm alive, these days, these seasons make me older all...the...time..." Mishani sang out loud, as she watched out to the seas. She sat on her favorite place, at the docks. The looked down in the grey water. The water flowed kindly against the stoned pier. The wind blew kindly against her soft skin, and she sighed. The loved the ocean. It was always so free and lawless. It could go anywhere it liked. It fed the creatures of the ocean. Gave food to the people. Oh how she wished to be a person with the freshness of the sea.
The sun was setting. Mish heard people talking and laughing. She just sat there, gazing to the horizon. She started to hum the continuation to the song she just made up. She loved singing. It was her way to escape her loneliness. She sang a lot of songs. Every day. She started to think about going to the city and make some friends, when her fright overtook her. She choked to her own voice and started to cough. She was afraid of crowds. Of course, she could sing for them for a little of money, but that wasn't much. She was betrayed by her own voice. Once again, she dropped a few tears to the ocean. A warm, southern breeze came by, and she spread her arms. She wished she had wings. She could fly to other lands, be free to fly wherever she wanted. A dream come true.
"I can't see the gloss of the ice in the mountain range. I can't feel the wind under my wings. I can't see our beautiful land high from the sky... I'm just a human, i can't do spectacular things. But i can trust you this word, of the promised lips. I promise, i will find someone to love. But this time is not... just... yet..." She ended her song with a smile on her face. Songs always made her happier. She was happy now. For a little while.
Of course, day turns to evening, and evening turns to night. It was evening. People started to walk back to their homes. It was getting colder. Mish had no place to go. She sold her home for some extra cash. Now she wondered why. She looked down at her bare feet. She barely reached the water. She hugged herself and hummed something not-so-smart and wagged her feet. It was getting later and later, but she just sat there. Alone.