Clyde thought a bit on her question? Did he in truth? He was not quite sure... It was not an easy question to answer... "I am not sure yet... You have done nothing to prove untrustworthy yet... So for know I suppose I do trust you, at least more than most people... But trust is another thing we will have to develop, which is not an easy thing for me to have. Perhaps it is due to how I grew up or lived, but trusting someone is not easy for me, or natural." Clyde smiled at her, bashing her own skills. "You may not be the strongest, but neither are you weak. And I believe in time, you will grow to be strong and capable. If nothing else, out of necessity by being around me. As I require someone who will grow to be strong. Else you will not last long around me. For all my strength, the foes I attract tend to be all the stronger than those of average people." His words so recently spoken, seemed to be filled with a new strength and conviction, that had been absent before. Perhaps this was the truth of Clyde, this bold spoken person, with strength in his words. Surely he did have conviction, and knew how to be bold and stick a choice. It was one reason he did not make decisions lightly. But as he finished speaking this second bit, his eyes glanced down, and saw her bare flesh before his eyes, and he was distracted, and back to his speech style of before. He let out a cough, and was a bit saddened to see her pull her skirt back to its previous position. Reminded of how he had been acting unconsciously, he pulled his hand that had been wandering back to sit in his lap, a small blush coming to his face. He was a bit surprised by her next words, she thought of him without fear? Perhaps then he was successful, in putting up his false fearless front necisitated by Ravok, while in reality, he was usually scared out of his whits. A fear he could not show, lest it got him killed for weakness. Smiling at her, he coughed again, and then decided to tell her a small fact he usually hid, as a sign of him trusting her. He had to start somewhere. "Fear? I am completely filled with fear, though I hide it. You would not believe all the things I fear. I simply do not let my fear stop me. If I did, I likely would not get out of bed in the morning. No I think only a fool has no fear. A fool who wishes to die, and who does not fear even death, will be quickly greeted by her. It is my fears that push me. Out of my desperation to overcome them and not let them beat me, that I am all the stronger. My fear to die and need to live, pushes me, and forces me to do what it takes, so that I can continue living. A man with no fears, would not be as driven as I." Done saying with his rant, Clyde looked away again, red coming to his face. He looked back, and began talking, only to cut himself off, and stop... Finally, after a bit of silence, he pushed on. "I tell you that in confidence though. Perhaps I do trust you enough to keep it to yourself... And by keeping it, you will gain a bit more of my trust... In this city, and in my line of work, that information could prove dangerous to me. So I hope you do see well to keep it to yourself." At her last words, a smile came back to Clyde's face, and he leaned over and kissed her once more. Glad to hear she did not find him distasteful, or would cringe at his touch. Though from her words, it did make him wonder a bit... She said she would not turn him away, if she was what he desired... But that did not tell him, whether or not she actually liked him, or was attracted to him... That thought, made him fall back into a more contemplative mindset. |