The voice of the priestess sliced through Addy’s awareness like an impossibly sharp blade, severing the self-pity that had started to gather in the woman’s thoughts as she allowed herself to be swallowed by the seemingly impossible task. Auburn locks flew every which way as Addy whipped her head around, wide green eyes searching out Suequortie’s face; the woman had been a commanding voice of reason in all the chaos, one that Addy clung to in those desperate moments.
Having slowed from its initial flood, the power that Addy poured from within herself and out towards the birds had weakened until barely anything ebbed outwards. Already she could feel the pangs of hunger beginning to eat away at her insides, the fatigue that the god had kissed away earlier sinking its fingers back into her flesh; shivers began to crawl up and down her spine, goose bumps raising across all of her exposed flesh. Frustration embodied itself as a growl that slowly climbed from her throat, lips pulling back into a grimace as she tried to push all the physical distractions away; now was not a time for her body to fail her. But that didn’t chane the fact that she did need help. If Eywaat or the Priestess couldn’t help her, well…
Praying was not something that Addy did everyday; it just wasn’t something she thought about. Her Healing mark from Rek’keli had been there for as long as she could remember; some of the nurses that cared for Addy as a child said that she’d had it from birth, but there was no way for the woman to know if this was true or not. Rek’keli had chosen the fiery Inarta, not the other way around. It didn’t lessen the devotion that Addy felt for the Goddess in the slightest; instead, she had been blessed with something magnificent and devotion just simply fell to the back burner. Not everyone was instantly or devoutly religious.
When her strength began to fail, Addy turned to Rek’keli. Allowing her mind to brush up against the power within her, her fingertips brushing against the inside of her left arm, upon the swirling mark there, the little woman did her best to shut out all outside distractions- including the lovebird that shimmied up her leg. My Goddess, Give me Strength to help these creatures, to continue on. The words sounded awkward, even within her head. Wrinkling her nose, Addy continued to forge ahead. I have been chosen for this task and I am in need of- Oh, petch it. Throwing formality to the wind, the healer instead let her frustration flow forth. I don’t know how to do this on my own, damn it. I don’t know if I can do it on my own. I need your help. It would have to do.
Shaking her shoulders as if to loosen them, Addy opened her eyes, glancing around to reorient herself; not much had changed saved the little mutant on her knee- well, her thigh now. Frowning down at it, Addy tilted her head to mimic it’s own curious expression, Suequortie’s words echoing through her mind: Let them have her.
Gathering her will, Addy touched again that golden power within her, gently urging it back into the flood that she had previously sent to wash over every creature within her immediate vicinity. This time, however, she focused the most on the bird before her, funneling some of her power into it directly as they locked gaze. It was only an instant before she felt the birds latch back onto her gift; it was an uncomfortable feeling, as if they were trying to pull more out of her than she was willing to give. Instead of pulling back as she did before, Addy simply gave more, pouring herself and everything that her goddess had given her towards the birds, the creature on her knee.
The images of the not-lovebirds dying mate flickered before her minds eye once more, the little creatures head twisting to tilt the other direction and suddenly Addy understood. Not even a bell ago she had heard Sira and her daughter screaming, possibly dying, overwhelmed by her need to go help them and stifled by her inability to do just that. Her hunger to be by their side.
And it clicked.
Without thinking, Addy reached down and scooped the mutated creature up into her hands, bringing it upwards so that it was mere inches from her face. “You’re alone.” A whisper was all she could manage as her heart thudded painfully in her chest. Quite unsure how exactly she was going to do this, Addy simply closed her eyes and, after picturing the little bird she held before her in her minds eye, began to thread all of the love she held for Sira and Natalie, her desire to be with them, her joy at their company into the power she allowed the birds to suck from her. She twisted her need for companionship in there, her remorse for the mate that the lovebird had lost, the sympathy she felt for the poor, poor creatures. She gave it all to them.
Addy didn’t noticed that she had begun to cry, tears flowing freely down her cheeks as she let herself go and opened her heart. It was the only thing she could do, she realized. She had, by way of her very profession, love for every living creature- mutated or otherwise. She let these creatures see that, feel it, and gave them what they- hopefully- desired.