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The player scrapbooks forum is literally a place for writers to warm-up, brainstorm, keep little scraps of notes, or just post things to encourage themselves and each other. Each player can feel free to create their own thread - one per account - and use them accordingly.
So, I've found myself exploring the subject of Sybel in love.
Since I've been playing her, it was difficult to see love in her future. I could never ascertain why I felt that way. After all, she's not hard to get along with. Sybel's snappy humor and patient approach lends itself well to her interactions. Yet I realized she's never really formed strong attachments. Her mighty shield of humor is an insidious defense mechanism. Even I didn't realize how furiously she utilizes it - and I write her. The casual approach she takes with others allows her to detach from them just as well.
Of course - what a dichotomy. The poor girl constants wars with herself on the subject of loneliness. So why? How can she overcome it? What is it heading toward?
I can't necessarily answer all of those questions yet, but I can endeavor toward addressing some. I'd say that the main issue she wrestles with is acceptance. The world is filled with people who inadvertently place expectation on her without realizing it. Her whole life philosophy was formed around the rejection of that idea. Whether or not one views her as "special," is completely subjective. It stands that she is different; Sybel is compelled to travel and experience to an unknown end, and that is something that others have difficulty comprehending. It seems like a simply lifestyle choice. But to her it is so much more. The fact that people refuse to level with that idea repels her, pushing her further into isolation.
The answer of course is, absolute freedom. It's a clever way of reeling her in, but its nonetheless true. Anyone who gives her to the ability to leave will find her wanting to stay. Sybel has never had an intimate relationship with anyone who accepted her words at face value, who loved her for what she was rather than what they wanted her to be. That sort of dynamic would nail her down permanently.
Of course, love is never enough.
The unfortunate issue that stands beyond all of that, is her current aimlessness. With a more concrete goal, Bel could work around whatever plans they shared. It might mean her going and them staying or vice versa, but the fact that there is nothing to work with... That also presents a distinct challenge.
For your information though, Sybel is a true lover. The hidden darkness in her heart lends her to be incredibly amorous and in ways that are not appropriate for this forum. *cough* Let's just say, she is a giver. Bel's love language is quality time, demonstrating her affection with time spent. More on that in a later installment.
For now, this is what you get.
Last edited by Sybel on December 9th, 2012, 1:52 am, edited 1 time in total.
"I am wild, full-blooded and a trifle reckless." - Ser Arthur Conan Doyle
So I just wanted to freak about how excited the fact you have a cat named Ser Pounce A-Lot made me. Does this mean you enjoy Dragon Age as well or was this name given to him by another?
I first want to say that if I haven't responded to your thread, I'm sorry.
I've been sucked into Eosi. Even with all the effort I've poured into her thus far, its a slow-going process. In fact, her to-do list makes me a cry a little on the inside. I have all these dreams and goals, but it's going to take at least a hundred hours of my life. I really don't see that as an exaggeration, either. I want to make her fantastic. Because I really can't live with anything else.
So, I posted some character influences for Eosi. It's time to the same for Sybel.
Mumford & Sons
Silk from the Belgariad
Arya Stark from a Song of Fire and Ice
The Bends by Radiohead
Americana by The Offspring
Deadwing by Porcupine Tree
Queen
I'm completely blanking right now. I blame my ADD. Anyway, I'll add to this pitifully short list when my brain decides it wants to be on task.
Last edited by Sybel on December 9th, 2012, 1:49 am, edited 1 time in total.
"I am wild, full-blooded and a trifle reckless." - Ser Arthur Conan Doyle