36th day of winter, 512 AV
"Damn this life and the next!" suddenly shouted Tatiam with a deep exasperation, as she violently threw the brush she held to the ground, splatters of paint sent about in bizarre patterns. Her left hand went to rub her cheek, smudging the blue liquid rather than removing it in the process.
Her voice muttered faintly "Come on, Lhex, give me a break..." as she contemplated her painting, as if looking into a mirror. With a sigh, the young woman realized that she was most likely expecting too much out of her exercise. Falling into a sitting position in the middle of her room, exhaling the frustration, the tan-skinned girl let a much sadder, desperate emotion invade her. The foreigner never knew what to do with what she was given. She thought there was something to work with, but perhaps she hadn't learned to use the tools properly, perhaps she wasn't the right person for this task, mischosen, imagining all of it, or simply mad?
There's got to be a meaning behind all of this... she thought, but why can't I remember? Her finger traced in the small blue pool of paint, the symbols as she remembered them, the scenery of her dream immensely simplified into childish marks on the stone. "I'm incapable and helpless, Krysus take me," swore Tatiam without conviction.
Mechanically, she stood up and cleaned herself by a large pot of water, leaving her apartment in that state when she headed straight to the taverns, ignoring everything on her way. What she needed was simple, and clear, effervescent, bitter even. Tatiam's stomach complained for attention, but she gave it none, ordering a strong ale as soon as her bottom found a stool that wasn't swaying too much, by the bar.