83rd Day of Spring
There wasn't a time where Khiara could remember being happy, not any more. Years had gone by since she'd felt just...happy. Sure, Pygmy made her life vastly better and she did make the woman laugh, but she had still been mourning. Then Vanator had come...with his golden skin and his warm eyes and soothing words. Khiara had felt a new part of her open, she'd found her heart again, but she wasn't happy. She was hurt, still hurting. There had been pain, then feelings, then realisation...then the knowledge she couldn't act on those feelings. They had spoken, kissed, spoke of regrets before they could even occur.
Then Pygmy had come to her yesterday...and torn her heart apart. And she couldn't even tell her. Vanator was getting married. He had already known he would have a matching..a meeting. Pre-arranged or something. But he hadn't told her, and she'd held everything back for the sake of her dear kelvic companion. For what? She'd poured out her heart, opened her soul, sealed it up again...only to have it crushed by a single word.
Marriage.
Ironically, she had missed out on her wedding...and he was onto his second. The Goddess must really have something to teach her.
And then there was Orion, the vantha from out of the darkness. The violet eyed woman hadn't been able to get his face from her mind. He'd haunted her dreams and stalked her day...his blue eyes flashing through her mind. How coincidental could it be that she had met the only vantha she'd seen since leaving Avanthal - just after she'd said goodbye to Vanator. Was Queen Morwen telling her something? Was she guiding her after all?
Watching the last of the sun disappear over the grassy horizon, Khiara leaned against the wooden fence of the coral, letting her thoughts swirl around. She couldn't think straight any more. Endrykas was a blessing and a curse, and the brunette found herself looking forward to escaping. Closing her eyes, she breathed in deeply and sighed.
"What more do you want from me, Goddess?" She whispered into the slight dusk breeze, keeping her eyes closed...perhaps waiting for a response.