by Isolde Seibold on June 15th, 2013, 1:20 am
The boy was visibly improving, gaining in confidence and style, and the Nuit had to admit that whatever he was, the teacher seemed to be well worth the price of his... lessons. The Nuit had to give him that, despite his anger, despite the bitter fear flavoring her mouth; even as an untrained observer, the Nuit could see the boy molding his style, shifting it, altering it subtly, and it had to be due to the teacher's influence, his constant flow of pointers. But there was one lesson offered by the teacher already today that the boy had not followed. Namely, not to provoke the man's rage. The boy needed to learn not to press his luck.
When the boy hit the dirt the Nuit watched very carefully, trying not to seem too concerned, gnawing on her lower lip. Her muscles were all tensing up, despite that strange look the teacher had thrown her way... because this was sort of what had happened last time, directly before the man had gone incandescent. He had grabbed his other student's leg, pummeled him --this time it was two sharp, quick slashes from the wooden ax, thunk thunk!-- and then dropped him in the dirt. And then, when the first student had been trying to get back up... that was when the teacher had really frightened her, with his kicks to send the younger man back to the ground, to subdue him. The Nuit couldn't help but see the same thing here. Sure, the teacher did not look angry, not anymore. But here was his student on the ground in his shadow, and Isolde was just waiting for the first strike to come, her nerves jangling and jittering upon the man's every movement. She found herself leaning forward, settling her chin and hands upon the railing once more, trying to extend her hearing to catch the words that the teacher was offering out, waiting for the tone to turn sour, waiting for the man's mood to shift. But all seemed well.
Until the boy tried his little sneak attack, kicking out a leg, catching the teacher in the shin, bringing round his long sword. But even the Nuit --who was almost getting used to the flow of the melee-- could see that it was coming in a little too late, and sure enough... The teacher's ax swung down, shattering the boy's momentum, casting the tip of the monstrous wooden sword into the dirt, stamping on the flat of the blade to keep it down. And then--
The blow that the teacher delivered to the boy's face was answered with blood. The Nuit gripped at the dagger more tightly, waiting, waiting for more punishment, for the beating to begin. But the teacher backed off, swinging his wooden training ax through the air much as the Nuit had earlier with her little dagger, and she breathed out a short hiss of relief from between her teeth. The teacher really did have it under control this time, it seemed. And though it felt harsh, the Nuit found herself... approving of his actions? She suddenly found herself wondering what the boy had really expected for his stunt. He should have learned from the other student's mistake-- you don't make such a move lightly, expecting no retaliation. She turned her eyes to the blond-haired boy, with one of his hands clutched to his face, the blood bright against his skin. And then for a moment, for just a tick or two but altogether too long, the Nuit looked at the boy and saw a girl a whole lot younger, sitting with the same posture, her clothes covered in dirt, her knees torn. Her wooden play sword lay broken behind her, snapped maliciously in two, and she clutched at her bleeding face as the tears rolled out. She wouldn't say what had happened but Isolde had just known from the anguished look, from the deep purple betrayal brimming in the girl's Vantha eyes. Those petching boys--
And then the moment passed, and Isolde turned her face abruptly down, letting out a low, distressed noise, pressing a hand to her mouth, unable to get the picture of Wynry from her mind, completely shocked. Why had that happened? That boy... it wasn't like he looked anything like Wynry, he wasn't the right age, he wasn't even the right gender. So why? Why? The image frightened the Nuit, she hadn't just imagined it, she had actually seen Wynry out there, in the dirt with her bleeding face and broken sword. But that is not this, she told herself, and the thought was berating and sharp. Her hand was still pressed to her mouth, and there was a sick feeling deep in her gut and a haunted feeling, too. That is not this. That was a long, long time ago. It doesn't belong here. So don't let yourself do that. Not again. She wanted to scream at the memory, to scream at herself for letting that happen again, but all she did was keep that hand pressed very hard to her face, head bowed, eyes tightly closed. Doesn't belong here, that is not this, keep it away. Running the words through her mind until the memory faded back into its proper place, folded neatly and harmlessly. Then she had to contend with the other memory which was rearing itself angrily within her, and that was worse still: the girl she had found, so small and alone and trusting, and the Nuit could still remember her eyes, and the sweet little dimple in her cheek when she had smiled. But no, now was not the time for that. There was never an appropriate time. That was better left untouched, forever, and the Nuit didn't want to ever, ever go near it again. Wynry was one thing. That other girl --Isolde couldn't even remember her name, had it been Margo, or Marnie?-- she was something completely else.
With a huge effort of will, exhausting, the Nuit forced the memory away, gone. With another effort, she looked slowly back up, dreading what she would see, would it be Wynry there, no, no, no-- And her eyes fell on the blonde-haired boy, he had wiped the blood from his face and was standing again, and his sword was too big to be the other and it was not broken, and the Nuit simply stared at him with a hard expression. Making sure she knew what was real, that boy was real, and that Wynry was long buried, her Wynry was gone.
Painfully, the Nuit tried to focus her mind once more to the teacher and student.
There was the tiny grave holding the tiny body, and another right next to it where hope had been buried.