Hi Jesslyn-
I waited overnight before I responded. Why? Because I have sense enough to calm down when I see someone doing something that's entirely self destructive. We had three teens this week absolutely DESTROY their reputations on this site by doing things that were stupid. You've repeatedly done these types of things, and each time you have backed off, changed handles, and came back with a fresh start and an innocent smile. I wonder, though, if your parents saw your post, what they'd think about it. I noticed as of this morning, you've removed it. But the problem is, you can't erase actions. You can't undo what's already been done. Once you say something to someone, everyone remembers it regardless of how much you might want to take it back.
Now, in your post was a personal attack against me buried in a self affirming 'I'm good enough, smart enough, gorgeous enough, and gosh darn it people like me." type post. That's fine. You didn't actually use my name, but I'm sure everyone knew who you were talking about. Why? Players here are, I feel, of above average intelligence. I would have really liked to further discuss the issues, but you didn't seem to want to wait for my PM reply. In my defense, I sent you multiple replies in one day and when I didn't keep responding, it might have possibly been because I'm an adult with a real job and I sometimes have to scurry off to work and do adult things. I know this probably doesn't fit into your schedule, but if you want to verbally spar, we'll have to do it when I have time. Now, lets discuss this. And since you want to take it public, lets go for it.
YOU APPROACHED ME.
You dictated to me how I should feel about your online art and then asked me to give you my thoughts on it. Now at this point, everyone on this site probably knows I have an opinion on everything and if asked I will gladly share that opinion. This runs the gauntlet from which brand of mint chocolate chip icecream is the best, to why Monsanto is evil, to politics, religion, and my favorite things - art and roleplay.
When you ASKED me, I told you my thoughts. You argued with my thoughts and told me I was wrong. No... I'm not wrong in how I feel about things. They are how I feel about things. How can you tell someone how to feel about something? You can't. Then, you demanded to know why or have me justify my thoughts. I felt like I did. But you wouldn't ACCEPT it. And I had to run off to work.
Anyone can feel anything they want about things. It's like how some people LOVE the smell of gasoline and turpentine, and others gag at it. Its called an opinion. Turp lovers often come in the form of painters and artists and equate the smell to pleasure. Trup haters can't convince Turp Lovers that Turp isn't something loveable. It is what it is. All of that is the same whether you are talking art, religion, anything... if you solicit an opinion, you have to be prepared to accept it for what it is. An opinion. It doesn't have to be RIGHT in your eyes, but it deserves to be allowed to exist.
Lets review shall we? The art in this case was your Box Codes you started doing as Samantha. You opened up a thread - I'm sure people here can still find it since its still up - where you advertised that you did Box Codes. That's cool. We love artists who volunteer to help other people here. We really do. We even GIVE THEM MEDALS for it. But hon, you used another artists' code to advertise the type of work you did. This was code the artist did for you and posted in HER OWN THREAD as a finished project for you. Seriously? So your a box code artist but your using another artists' work to advertise and get folks to ask you for boxes? Really? That was not okay with Jules back then, and it certainly wasn't okay with me.
From there, it really went downhill. You copied other box code artists code VERBATIM and just changed the colors and images. You copied Elysium, Jules, and even myself. And while we don't have any corner on the market on codes, when you do this and ask me to give you a shining review - one you already dictated to me before even letting me state my opinion - I'm going to laugh in your face little girl.
I seriously am.
And I'm not going to even go into your stint as Amora where we gave you a chance to volunteer to help the community in the limited capacity young people often can. I don't need to go into the trouble you've caused mods in areas you've been in including your beloved Avanthal. And normally when people post things in their scraps, I just ignore it, because its their scrap and they can do what they want. However, by your own admission you are fifteen years old. You are a child. And now you are posting your breast size in this scrap and trying desperately to validate yourself to others in some weird teen angst I can't even begin to understand? There's a time and place for drama, and Mizahar isn't really your time or place.
Now, I've also had several storytellers forward me PMs from you where you are openly soliciting them for favors and assistance in getting back on the staff. What? These people felt very uncomfortable by your approach which felt sneaky and underhanded as if you reached out to staffers who had absolutely above par credibility in a way that seemed you wanted to piggyback on their amazing site credibility to get on staff and what... spread your narcissism and self absorption?
No, just no.
Normally I would write this sort of thing as a private PM, but I've reached my teen drama limit this week and want everyone to understand why this is happening as it is and why you are not completely innocent in what I'm about to do.
I feel like Mizahar isn't the site for you. I think we've been more than fair and given you multiple chances for polite wonderful interaction. By your own admission most of your posts are ooc and very little of your activity is actually IC. A great deal of this is scrapbook material too. Much also is art or chatter in ooc threads. Mizahar is for RP. If you want drama, that needs to happen IC. You've been given that opportunity to do so repeatedly. You've failed to have that occur. I feel its best for this community for you to move on to a site more suited to teens and this sort of behavior. I am not going to promote nor allow teens to put themselves out on the net for exploitations.
Your name will go gray after I post this. I'm confident you will be able to read it even though you will no longer be welcome here. It's unfortunate, but I'm seriously tired of folks subjecting this pbase to things that just distract us from writing and steal our joy. You have NO RIGHT to infringe on our pleasure or make people comment in a manner that claims they wish they could UNREAD what you wrote.
That is a gross violation of morality, regardless of how you spin it. And though you have erased the post you put up that was so heinous, I have spoilered it below for posterity so people can understand (who missed it the first time) why this needs to be done.
Please do not return to us. Go focus on your sports. Go focus on your studies. Go be the great kid you want us to think you are. And please by all things sane go work on your personality. That needs the most help of all.
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by Jesslyn Skyglow on July 25th, 2013, 4:06 am 
I haven't posted anything other than that rant that should have been disgusting to be honest. And I don't know if that face is a good thing or a bad thing..... 
