25th of Summer 513 AV Ironworks and Ethan’s Room
Ethan woke up once more to darkness, his small room called out to him with loneliness. There were times that Ethan had woken up in a girl in his bed, the smell of her filling his nostrils The feel of her body pressed against his as he woke up, it was in those moments that Ethan didn’t feel alone, almost as if his mind could trick himself into believing that for a brief moment the girl in his arms was there because they were together, not because of a night of passion. Often it was because of that false hope that Ethan stayed away from such encounters. Ethan tossed the blanket on his bed off his naked form and walked over to his chest. He opened it an briefly looked through it for his money pouch. There in the corner of the musty chest, in his spare right boot Ethan found his savings. A bad night of drinking and chasing women could empty his savings to nothing. Even now Ethan went over to the pot in the hearth and opened the lid. The food was getting low, and he could only afford so many more vegetables for the pot to spread the stew/gruel till pay day. It was time to gamble. Ethan picked up the spilt wood by the heart and placed it in the fireplace, he knelt next to the table in which four worn wooden figurines no bigger than his thumb stood. Ethan picked up a figurine with long hair and flowers about her feet. The symbol of Cheva’s rose was carved upon the pedestal and as Ethan enclosed his hands upon the figurine in a lose embraced. The head of the figurine was above Ethan’s enclosed hands and he brought the worn face to his forehead in a position of piety Ethan felt the emotions within come to the front of his mind. “Cheva… Goddess of Love, every day I feel alone, filled with the want to have someone in my arms. Filled with the desire to know that person is in loved with me and me with her. At times my hands fill so lonely without her hand to hold. I do not know her name, or her face. All I can tell you is that I yearn for her daily, that I look upon my room and only see what it is missing. At times I have fallen to this loneness and sought the embrace of women. I do not feel that I have betrayed her by doing so, I also only showed the women I have been with kindness and joy. I pray to you not to ask for greatness or the face of the woman I am to love, for that is not my path. I pray to have the strength to get up and face the people who are in love and be happy for them. Cheva, I pray that their happiness strengthens the world. Please know that my own desires for love were spoken to leave the poison of loneliness in the air, and for it to be replaced with hope that I find her. Praise be to the Cheva.” Ethan kept the figurine to his forehead, while the feeling of loneliness fled him, it wasn’t replaced by new found strength, but calm came over him as his emotions were purged. He kissed the face of the figurine of Cheva and placed her on the table. Ethan picked up the figurine of Izurdin the feeling of strength spread through his arms and chest. Ethan paused for a moment as the head of Izurdin rested against his own forehead. Ethan focused on the feeling of strength in his arms and spoke his prayer, “Izurdin, I go forth today with my savings to bid on a job. I ask that the strength of my arms do not fail me, that I have the patience to plan well and embrace the vision of my own creation. I may not be a child of Isur, but today and the next I seek your patient inspiration. My hand will fall with hammer to create from iron a piece of my upmost skill, I pledge that as I create this piece I will seek the strength within for as you teach we your children have the gift of creation within us, and I praise you for that spark.” Ethan felt the strength in his arms spread to his heart and mind, it was not supernatural but as if by praying his own mind, body, and heart aligned. Ethan placed the figurine back amongst the others. Some quiet had come over Ethan soul, and for the moment he didn’t feel the need to eat or want of something more. Softly he got dressed and removed his savings from the chest and left his room allowing the words to hold in the air as he went to work. Ethan was able to go into the Ironworks earlier than normal having missed his morning meal. However, though his stomach was empty his was ready for work. Ros’ clerk was putting up orders on the gray slate outside near the forge, but Ethan knew that today he wouldn’t be filling the order’s on the list. Today he wanted something of skill and effort, today he wanted to purchase the materials from Ros and make something his own for private sale. Ethan entered the workshop office that Ros used to review orders, the Isurian was behind his desk reviewing slips of paper, while behind him a slate board and chalk designs with notes were scribbled. Ethan waited for Ros, feeling the strain of his own patience to interrupt. Ethan stood still allowing Ros to merely feel his presence, not to be alerted by scratching or coughing. Ros put down a piece of paper and as if he was going to look up and address Ethan, he stopped and picked up another paper. Ethan closed his eyes and let that feeling of strength and inner patience come back to him. Ethan choose this time for inner reflection, he didn’t know if Ros was testing him or if he was simply choosing a technique to rid the man of a what he could consider a nuisance. Ethan allowed the thoughts to drift away and he focused on the feel of hot iron under his hands. The feeling was familiar and the vibration of iron, as well as, it musical note when he struck it came to him. |