Her heart twisted a little at Fiora's brief mention of Bice, whom she knew by reputation alone to be a controlling and hot-tempered man. When Inari and Fiora had first met many seasons ago, it had been difficult to get the wary Benshira to confide in her, but little by little the the truth of her troubled, private life was revealed. Now, Fiora confessed her feelings concerning Bice with little to no hesitance, although she still refrained from blatantly insulting him. Her husband, it seemed, genuinely loved her and the children, albeit in his own, brutish way. Occasionally, he would appear thoughtful or affectionate, which made things even more confusing and complicated than they already were.
It was not enough, though, the momentary glimpses of humanity, the brief, shining lapses of caring and kindness. It couldn't be for any kind of woman. The young Lorak could see it in the way Fiora's eyes absorbed the simple pleasures of her shop hungrily; the mother of two wanted nothing more than a simple, peaceful life, away from her quick tempered and sometimes violent husband. Yet, she was unable to leave, despite the countless encouragements on Inari's part.
It was not, however, a result of weak will. Though the Benshira looked small and delicate, Inari knew she was by no means easily broken. If anything, the young mother acted upon bravery, not cowardice. Even after everything she had been through, she remained strong, doing what she believed was best for her children and enduring her husband's anger with unflinching resolve. A true coward, Inari had long since realized, would have escaped, leaving everything behind, and a coward Fiora was not. She stayed, and she endured. And, somehow through it all, she still kept the flame of her spirit burning brightly, never letting it fully extinguish.
Inari had yet to meet Bice in person, but judging from her friend's past descriptions it was probably for the best. Besides, she doubted he would much approve of his quiet, obedient wife hanging around babbling Balrogs and eleven year old, female knights.
"Pfft, as if," Inari scoffed, leaning against a counter."You know how Dynasty men are. If they aren't absolute trouble, then they're absolute bores. Some of them were pretty talented, as always, but you should've seen how fast they went from lofty artist to sleezy scumbag. And I swear, some of the women are no better. As soon as the show was over it was like a tank of cannibalistic fish all over again. Honestly, I don't think I shall ever find a suitor who's only concern is whether he should go for my money first or the insides of my stockings."
Actually, there was one such man who seemed interested in neither her money nor her stockings, as he seemed to have plenty of both. But that obviously did not make him a suitable candidate whatsoever, and the very thought of him tended to make her teeth grind. Maybe she should just forget the whole notion of marriage altogether. She was certainly happy enough with the way things were. Or, at least, that was what she told herself.
"But enough of that. What's this of needing a new slave? If you'd like, we could go to the Auction House together. The children could stay here; I know you hate to leave them alone, but it shan't be for more than a bell or two. Besides, Pina would take good care of them, and I can bring one or two other servants who do well with the little ones. What do you say?" |