When it Rains, It pours.
I wasn't initially sure I was even going to make a scrapbook. However, I had somethings on my mind I felt I wanted to share to let go of.
So here I go.
I just found out that my eldest cousin was murdered. He was gun down while just standing on a street after leaving a girlfriends house. You see, I have an eldest and younger bro making me a middle child, and my now departed cousin had two siblings and the six of us were a thick as thieves as children. We all grew up with each other, went to school with each other, and shared a lot of memories during family vacations and many life events such as birth days and holidays. Honestly, my mind still can't seem to grasp the concept that he is gone. It is a closure I won't feel for some time due In part to the fact I won't be able to make it to his funeral.
Now, I found all of this news out after getting out of the hospital where I stayed for about seven days due to gastroparesis; when the stomach stops working and you can neither eat or drink anything. So while my body was dealing with the after math of that, my mind struggled with the loss of my dear cousin. But, as a writer my I ended up falling into writing to relax my soul. I enjoy writing and it is my favorite form of stress relief. The fact it all started when Nano started was a happy coincidence.
I worked towards being productive and thought about all the good memories with family. I have reached that stage in grieving where I feel good about the life my cousin lived rather that not want to think about it.
I think I have weathered the storm and come out of it even stronger. I'll be posting more here with my other Alts: Nayato, Quzon, and Baylin.
So here I go.
I just found out that my eldest cousin was murdered. He was gun down while just standing on a street after leaving a girlfriends house. You see, I have an eldest and younger bro making me a middle child, and my now departed cousin had two siblings and the six of us were a thick as thieves as children. We all grew up with each other, went to school with each other, and shared a lot of memories during family vacations and many life events such as birth days and holidays. Honestly, my mind still can't seem to grasp the concept that he is gone. It is a closure I won't feel for some time due In part to the fact I won't be able to make it to his funeral.
Now, I found all of this news out after getting out of the hospital where I stayed for about seven days due to gastroparesis; when the stomach stops working and you can neither eat or drink anything. So while my body was dealing with the after math of that, my mind struggled with the loss of my dear cousin. But, as a writer my I ended up falling into writing to relax my soul. I enjoy writing and it is my favorite form of stress relief. The fact it all started when Nano started was a happy coincidence.
I worked towards being productive and thought about all the good memories with family. I have reached that stage in grieving where I feel good about the life my cousin lived rather that not want to think about it.
- Now I am working on having a book published.
- Returned to my daily martial arts training regiment.
- Finishing up my film making projects. The most recent being a documentary I have to edit. It just needs a few voice overs to be done as its only 85% done.
I think I have weathered the storm and come out of it even stronger. I'll be posting more here with my other Alts: Nayato, Quzon, and Baylin.
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