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What is your Name? Ildiko. My mother's name was Bey'ani, from the tents of Yemuel, of the sons of Hirem. I can still hear the pride in her tone as she told me, over and over again; hushed whispers before bed as I curled to sleep next to her.
Do you go by a nickname or pet name? Neither. Don't even try it.
How old are you? This is my eighteenth winter.
What is your height? 5'
What is your weight? As of early winter, between 82 and 85 lbs. Ildiko is not at a healthy body weight; for her frame, she should be at least 10lbs heavier. Her bones seem very angular through her skin, adding to her offputting appearance.
Aesthetics :
Describe yourself as you see yourself. I see the caramel skin and the large, dark eyes of my mother's people. I see the high cheekbones and dark, thick hair of the Benshira. I see the small body of a woman who entered puberty later than she should have; I feel like it had something to do with my weight. I don't consider myself particularly attractive, though I know that I'm carnally desirable enough to have men want to bed me.
I try to avoid looking into the mirror.
Describe yourself as others typically see you. Wild hair. Wild eyes quickly darting back and forth. Small bones, pointed teeth. Something ugly enough to be considered a monster and talked down to. My nails are always too long.
What is your favorite body feature? My... hair. And my eyes. My eyes, because I see my mother every time I look at my reflection. My hair, because I can hide my face.
How physically fit are you? I would be fitter if I had more fat/muscle on my body. For now, I'm as fit as I can be. My energy level is fairly low, but I push myself to keep going. I can't die this winter.
How do you typically dress and what is your style? ...What kind of question is this? I find a shirt, I find pants, I wear them. If it is warm enough, clothing is optional. If it is colder, I wear more clothing.
Family :
Who are your parents and what are they like? Both of my parents are deceased. My mother was a slave. She did hard farm labor in the day, and weaving at night. My sperm donor was a Zith. I say that because I was not raised by him. The only reason that I was not killed at all was because they respected him enough to not defy his choice to save my life.
I remember that my mother liked to sing. She was always kind to me, though she was also frayed at the edges and broke down often, emotionally. Sometimes her words were biting.
My Zith father was harsh and expected me to be like his full-Zith children. I was placed in constant competition with my "kin", and I almost always lost.
Do you have any brothers or sisters? I have many half-brothers and sisters from my Zith parent; more than ten, though we have no relationship. He went out and sewed his wild oats, so to speak. That was not unusual for our colony.
What is your extended family like? I cannot answer that. I have never met my Benshira relatives. I doubt that I will ever. My Zith relatives regard me as something slightly above "food" status, but below "Zith". Perhaps "Slave", or "toy".
Do you consider close friends as important or more/less important than family? Seeing as how I don't have a family, I cannot answer this question. I prize loyalty over blood ties.
Do you treat animals like family? No. Animals are either beasts of burden, or food. I share no special bond or affinity with them.
Location :
Where were you born? In a Zith colony.
Where do you live now? Syliras, though I pray that these are merely temporary arrangements.
If you could live anywhere in Mizahar where would that be? Somewhere where people wouldn't gaze upon me as if I am a wolf...
Do you have a favorite place to vacation or spend leisure time? By myself, near an ocean or watching the moon. Both at night.
Where do you fear to be? Oddly enough, it is not in the dark. I don't fear the dark, anymore.
I fear being in a vulnerable position. Being around people who claim to care about you. Because it makes you lower your guard. And when you lower your guard, you get wounded. Wounds can kill.
Traits :
Do you have any physical weaknesses (disease, scars, and missing limbs?)
Are you right handed or left handed? Left.
What languages do you speak? What do you sound like? Do you have an accent? Common is my native tongue, although I seemed to have picked up a mix of the the lilting accent of the slaves, and the smooth enunciation of the Zith.
My accent is hard to place, so I hear. People often
Do you have any odd mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics? ...? I don't truly 'act like a Zith', like people expect me to, unless I'm pushed to that point. There are a few 'triggers' that will set me off. And then I lose myself.
I'm very solitary. I feel that I have been forced to trust no one but myself.
I don't wear clothing to sleep? I don't understand the question.
Do you have (or want to get) any tattoos or piercing? Why do you have them (or will get them) ? I do not have them, and unless it is a mark from the gods, I doubt that I will ever get them intentionally.
Occupations :
What is your occupation? I don't have one. I'm just trying to live day-to-day. Sometimes I manage to sell some things. The money I make pays for the next day.
I cant really see me having a career. I have no specialized skills besides...
Ah. I suppose you can say that I sell animal skins. And various other animal body parts.
Do you like/dislike your work? Why?
I like it because I can set my own hours. I don't like it because I have to sell the very things that I could be using myself.
If you could be anything you wanted to, what would you be?
Alive.
I don't want to have to hunt my entire life for others. Maybe I could sell fish in the spring. That seems practical.
When I was younger, I wanted to be an acrobat. Or a weaver. I know better now. Acrobats and weavers can't survive in harsh environments.
What occupation do you admire the most? Why?
Hunters and survivalists.
What occupation do you least like? Why?
Prostitutes. All they do is lay there, and they get paid for it. Artists and entertainers. I see no need for them.
childhood :
What sort of child were you?
What is your favorite memory from childhood?
Sitting near my mother as she wove fabric at night. She made clothing that the Ziths sold and traded with other colonies.
What is your worst memory from childhood?
Most of my childhood falls under this category.
One time I said an off-hand remark to a young Zith that he interpreted as disrespectful.
He backhanded me so hard that I knocked the slaves standing behind me over.
I'm lucky that he wasn't fully matured, or I wouldn't be here right now.
What sort of relationship did you have with your parents?
Not a great one. My mother often had fits of hysteria, but she was the key nurturing figure in my life. I had no relationship with my Zith parent. That's just how things were.
Who was your most influential rolemodel?
There was a young half-Zith that pitied me and taught me how to hunt. The half-Ziths that lived were always much stronger than me. He couldn't protect me from everything, but he made sure that I knew enough to keep alive.
Taught me how to walk with my head down. To keep my mouth shut unless I was asked a question by a Zith. And if they came for me at night, well... fighting would only make it worse.
I don't know what happened to him after the Djed storm. He's probably dead.
Education :
What sort of education do you have? I know how to read and write in Common. I can speak poorly in Shiber, and I recognize my name in their language. That's it.
Do you like/dislike learning? I don't dislike it, but I favor learning with a purpose.
Where or how did you learn most of your skills/abilities? From others, or through trial and error.
How do you learn best? Mostly directly from others. I'm a fast learner. I also like experimenting to find out what works with me and what doesn't. Everyone has a different way of doing something.
What are your educational goals for the future? I secretly want to learn how to weave like my mother knew how. But that's slave labor. I doubt I'll be learning it anytime soon, except to save money on clothing myself.
Relationships :
Do you form close bonds with people? Why? Why not? No. The closer you bring them, the more power they have to hurt you.
Do you trust people easily? If not, why not? Only as much is necessary to live. I really don't. But I recognize that if I cast away everyone that's ever felt sorry for me and tried to help me, I wouldn't be here right now.
Do I trust them with my life, all of my secrets, and all of my past? No. But sometimes 'trust' is as simple as 'I trust you to not kill me right now'. That's a start. That trust can only be earned.
Do you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Something else. Sex is sex, and I don't care who it's from.
Have you ever been kissed? If so, describe the first time. Rough. Greedy. Dry-lipped, and they didn't care if I was into it. Felt like I was being violated.
Have you ever had sex? If so, describe the first time. Thank the gods, my first time wasn't with a Zith. There was no love in it, just two lonely people seeking comfort and pleasure in one another for the night. Afterwards, we both went back to our separate hallways for the morning. If we had been caught in each other's rooms that night, when everyone woke up, someone could have died. We worked side by side in the fields later and it wasn't awkward for me. I felt no attachment to him.
Drugs and Alcohol :
Have you ever been drunk? If so, describe your first time. Never been drunk.
Do you like to drink on a regular basis? When I can get my hands on alcohol, it's always a treat.
What sort of alcohol do you prefer? Something that makes me feel good immediately. I don't like fruity drinks.
Have you ever tried drugs (mood altering substances)? If so, which kinds and what did you think of them? No, never.
What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Be specific. They're good escapes from the pain of life, even for a moment. I don't like losing control of myself, though, so it would be a rare sight to see me indulge in anything to excess.
Likes and Dislikes :
What are your hobbies? I have no time for hobbies right now. If I did, I would probably want to learn more about the gods or different civilizations.
Do you like to read? I rarely have anything to read. Books are expensive. If I did, I might like it; I don't really know.
What annoys you more than anything else? Being talked down to, as if I am a dog and not a woman. I don't really know what else.
What do you find the most relaxing activity to do? Watching the moon and the stars at night. Sometimes I feel so displaced until I see how lonely the moon itself is, hovering alone in the black of the night. The stars are with it, but the stars are different. I can relate.
What kinds of things embarrass you? Why?
Anything that shows my weakness or inadequacies to another person.
Last edited by Ildiko on December 14th, 2013, 6:45 pm, edited 10 times in total.
I'LL BE GONE FOR CHRISTMAS BREAK. I'll be back and posting more reliably around Jan.
spend the night at someone's house visit a shop/store two flashback threads make money
be helpless / dependent on another character for something have another character be dependent on her for something
bonus: 1 thread where Ildiko has to behave in a civilized manner 1 thread where Ildiko behaves in a wild, uncouth, carnal manner
Character Progression goals:
gain some weight gain social circle gain competent in two skills learn 1 new skill learn more about the gods learn more about humans learn how to behave in a more civilized manner
Lore wants (silly): - For the love of Leth - Raised by a pack of wild Ziths - Medhozic, a child of the Sun - Straight for the Jugular - Don't eat the yellow snow - Why yes, you may sit there - Inserting herself into a conversation
I'LL BE GONE FOR CHRISTMAS BREAK. I'll be back and posting more reliably around Jan.
Power: Fear/intimidation + would shape her tremendously + power hungry. not well-liked but well feared + egomaniac with few friends + cool, calm, collected...scary. intimidating. threatening + lion on a leash connected to the goddess
- doesn't give a shyke about who fears her, for now - would completely drown the little sensitivity she has left
what it would take: something to make her break down and get rid of all of her 'weaknesses' facing her fears. claiming power and influence above all else.
+ loyalty + emphasis on honor and personal growth, growth of community + almost reverential, tribal yet civilized by her own code of living + live by her passions and yet restrained by wanting to please her god
- blood debt and cost of life
god of blood and bloodshed both: would take some self-sacrificial moment, possibly one that would endanger her life for another or a greater cause value of life and value of all beings (or could turn elitist)
by Ildiko on December 9th, 2013, 9:41 pm 
