After Lenz had spilled the little she would about her history, she sat back and waited anxiously. The man leant in as if waiting for her to hand him the secrets of the world, but she didn’t say anything else. His sigh was most unnerving. She felt bad for not telling him more, but what was he hoping she’d say? It’s not like she’d tell him she was a goddess’s earthbound servant or anything.
Looking around the room as if trying to find some sort of object to start a conversation with, she couldn’t help but sigh too. This sucks. she thought, taking her index finger and running it through her curly hair. She wound a strand of the scarlet locks around her finger and played with it, trying to amuse herself by any means necessary.
This is so stupid. Why do I have to be the one to get stuck inside a building for who knows how long with two complete strangers. Why couldn’t I have listened to the common sense I had and stayed in the tent? It would have been better snowed inside the tent with Ipisol than alone here.
No matter how much she pleaded inwardly or outwardly, for that matter, no good came to her. She was stuck in between a rock and a hard place, with no escape route.
An uncanny silence hovered above the two. They were sectioned off in their own little corner of the room, as if trying their best to get as far away from the out casted man as possible.
Her eyes couldn’t help but land on him again. He was freaking her out, his clothing torn, his muscles stretching against the fabric. His eyebrows were too bushy, probably making him seem much more ferocious than he really was.
Although Lenz’s eyes had adjusted to the darkness of the room, shadows from out of the corners started to creep up on her. They seemed to crawl closer and suffocate her as they wrapped their black claws around her neck tightly.
She couldn’t breathe and was feeling rather claustrophobic. Questions gnawed all over her, affecting not only her breathing, but other vital organs as well.
Her stomach began to hurt, the saying of having butterflies in your stomach being an understatement. Her head began to ache, her temples throbbing in rhythm to her heart which had now picked up pace.
It was a feeling of longing that she continued to sense. She longed to be safe and sound and she longed for all of this to never have happened. Of course wishes were never made to come true, so a dark mood was cast upon the woman.
Darn it all, she screamed inside her head. Darn being the closest she’s ever come to mentioning a vulgar word. But she happened to be angry and angry people did stupid and irrational things.
She hadn’t realised that she was still looking at the man. She didn’t know what her facial expressions showed, but when he raised his lip slightly and then licked the fronts of his teeth, she started to feel a little queasy.
He was starting to really freak her out again, so she quickly shook her head and pinned her eyes on something else. Thankfully another unavoidable awkward moment passed as Roy’s interest in Lenz continued.
“Tell me about the outside,” he said, his eyes locked on her again. “I’ve never been out of Sunberth. Well, I mean I’ve been out to the surrounding forest once, but nothing farther.”
The man seemed to tense up a little as if asking her questions would somehow send her over the edge. He looked like she was possibly going to attack him.
“What’s it like out there?”
It seemed like she was being forced under a really bright light, the heat causing her to sweat. She wasn’t one to be interrogated and although Roy had asked her a few simple questions, she wasn’t in the mood to answer them.
It took her a few chimes to finally come up with a reasonable answer. She made sure her voice sounded patient and calm and not crazy and afraid like she was feeling right now.
“Honestly, it’s really boring.” Her answer might have surprised him, but if it did she didn’t notice. She had her mind reeling out words and the words played into sentences already done up and at her disposal.
“When I was travelling, all I kept seeing was trees; trees and shrubs and snow once winter had come around. It was rather scary actually, being out there all alone besides my horse and…”
She not dare speak about Ipsiol shall she? What if someone got ahold of this information whilst Ipisol was still alone and went to do something indescribable to her? Lenz couldn’t bear thinking that, so she avoided the name entirely.
“…and myself. The nights were dark, the mornings were tiresome. I’m sorry this doesn’t sound as exciting as you would have thought, but it wasn’t like some other people’s tales.”
As if by habit, she began to play with her fingers again, her front teeth biting down on her lip harder than last time. What else should she say? This man was obviously trying to start a conversation, yet she wasn’t being helpful in keeping it flowing.
It wasn’t like she was antisocial or anything, and this man seemed really nice, but there was just something that didn’t let her talk. Whether it was fear or not, confusion took ahold of her quickly thereafter.
It was like a dream, the way her mouth moved without her knowing. She continued to tell him things and similar to a nightmare, she had no control over what she said.
“It was hard for the first few days. Ipisol and I, we were still new to each other so it took a while for us to fully trust one another. We were paranoid most of the time, afraid that someone would take us again. We spent so many days on edge that we lost sleep. Travelling was difficult and the memories from back then are still too hard for us to handle.”
Like reading from a book, all the words already written down for her, she rushed on, spilling most of her secrets just to clear the air while she was still absent from her mind.
“I lost so much, so I kind of just let my horse lead us through the wilderness. After a few seasons, we finally made it to sea. We finally made it to Sunberth, of all places right?”
Once she had finished and once she had regained control over what she said, she leant her head back against the wall behind her. A sad smile crept up onto her lips as she sighed softly. She felt tears starting to well up, but she held them back.
She wished she could take back everything she had just said to Roy, for he was still a complete stranger to her! At least she didn’t mention anything else about her past. She might have left little hints here and there, but it was a puzzle without all the pieces. It would be impossible for him to connect all the dots.
She shrugged.
“Sunberth wasn’t all what I expected it would be, but it’s better than nothing,” she finished, concluding her sob story. She made a vow to herself to never speak about her life that way again.
What was wrong with her?
Looking around the room as if trying to find some sort of object to start a conversation with, she couldn’t help but sigh too. This sucks. she thought, taking her index finger and running it through her curly hair. She wound a strand of the scarlet locks around her finger and played with it, trying to amuse herself by any means necessary.
This is so stupid. Why do I have to be the one to get stuck inside a building for who knows how long with two complete strangers. Why couldn’t I have listened to the common sense I had and stayed in the tent? It would have been better snowed inside the tent with Ipisol than alone here.
No matter how much she pleaded inwardly or outwardly, for that matter, no good came to her. She was stuck in between a rock and a hard place, with no escape route.
An uncanny silence hovered above the two. They were sectioned off in their own little corner of the room, as if trying their best to get as far away from the out casted man as possible.
Her eyes couldn’t help but land on him again. He was freaking her out, his clothing torn, his muscles stretching against the fabric. His eyebrows were too bushy, probably making him seem much more ferocious than he really was.
Although Lenz’s eyes had adjusted to the darkness of the room, shadows from out of the corners started to creep up on her. They seemed to crawl closer and suffocate her as they wrapped their black claws around her neck tightly.
She couldn’t breathe and was feeling rather claustrophobic. Questions gnawed all over her, affecting not only her breathing, but other vital organs as well.
Her stomach began to hurt, the saying of having butterflies in your stomach being an understatement. Her head began to ache, her temples throbbing in rhythm to her heart which had now picked up pace.
It was a feeling of longing that she continued to sense. She longed to be safe and sound and she longed for all of this to never have happened. Of course wishes were never made to come true, so a dark mood was cast upon the woman.
Darn it all, she screamed inside her head. Darn being the closest she’s ever come to mentioning a vulgar word. But she happened to be angry and angry people did stupid and irrational things.
She hadn’t realised that she was still looking at the man. She didn’t know what her facial expressions showed, but when he raised his lip slightly and then licked the fronts of his teeth, she started to feel a little queasy.
He was starting to really freak her out again, so she quickly shook her head and pinned her eyes on something else. Thankfully another unavoidable awkward moment passed as Roy’s interest in Lenz continued.
“Tell me about the outside,” he said, his eyes locked on her again. “I’ve never been out of Sunberth. Well, I mean I’ve been out to the surrounding forest once, but nothing farther.”
The man seemed to tense up a little as if asking her questions would somehow send her over the edge. He looked like she was possibly going to attack him.
“What’s it like out there?”
It seemed like she was being forced under a really bright light, the heat causing her to sweat. She wasn’t one to be interrogated and although Roy had asked her a few simple questions, she wasn’t in the mood to answer them.
It took her a few chimes to finally come up with a reasonable answer. She made sure her voice sounded patient and calm and not crazy and afraid like she was feeling right now.
“Honestly, it’s really boring.” Her answer might have surprised him, but if it did she didn’t notice. She had her mind reeling out words and the words played into sentences already done up and at her disposal.
“When I was travelling, all I kept seeing was trees; trees and shrubs and snow once winter had come around. It was rather scary actually, being out there all alone besides my horse and…”
She not dare speak about Ipsiol shall she? What if someone got ahold of this information whilst Ipisol was still alone and went to do something indescribable to her? Lenz couldn’t bear thinking that, so she avoided the name entirely.
“…and myself. The nights were dark, the mornings were tiresome. I’m sorry this doesn’t sound as exciting as you would have thought, but it wasn’t like some other people’s tales.”
As if by habit, she began to play with her fingers again, her front teeth biting down on her lip harder than last time. What else should she say? This man was obviously trying to start a conversation, yet she wasn’t being helpful in keeping it flowing.
It wasn’t like she was antisocial or anything, and this man seemed really nice, but there was just something that didn’t let her talk. Whether it was fear or not, confusion took ahold of her quickly thereafter.
It was like a dream, the way her mouth moved without her knowing. She continued to tell him things and similar to a nightmare, she had no control over what she said.
“It was hard for the first few days. Ipisol and I, we were still new to each other so it took a while for us to fully trust one another. We were paranoid most of the time, afraid that someone would take us again. We spent so many days on edge that we lost sleep. Travelling was difficult and the memories from back then are still too hard for us to handle.”
Like reading from a book, all the words already written down for her, she rushed on, spilling most of her secrets just to clear the air while she was still absent from her mind.
“I lost so much, so I kind of just let my horse lead us through the wilderness. After a few seasons, we finally made it to sea. We finally made it to Sunberth, of all places right?”
Once she had finished and once she had regained control over what she said, she leant her head back against the wall behind her. A sad smile crept up onto her lips as she sighed softly. She felt tears starting to well up, but she held them back.
She wished she could take back everything she had just said to Roy, for he was still a complete stranger to her! At least she didn’t mention anything else about her past. She might have left little hints here and there, but it was a puzzle without all the pieces. It would be impossible for him to connect all the dots.
She shrugged.
“Sunberth wasn’t all what I expected it would be, but it’s better than nothing,” she finished, concluding her sob story. She made a vow to herself to never speak about her life that way again.
What was wrong with her?