33rd Day of Spring, 514AV
Sunset Quarters
Just before noon
Sunset Quarters
Just before noon
He'd learned to tell a lot from her coughs. High and thick with water and phlegm, he didn't generally worry about. She was hydrated and probably active and the fits didn't last for more than a few minutes. But when each report was less like a crack and more like a dying rasp, dry and ragged as a funeral shroud, Nate listened a little closer.
But not too close. Kay's ears worked just fine, and any squeaking boards by her door would invite one of her canes battering the wood next to Nate's ear or just her bellowing at him. Neither sounded pleasant to him.
So he moved carefully across the kitchen, bowl of bread mix crooked in one bulging arm, watching where he placed his feet and cocking an ear...
The big man wasn't known for displays of grief or horror; perhaps that was why when his face fell and a hunted, haunted, horrified look crushed his busy features into despair, it was all the more frightening.
She's getting worse. This is happening every other day now. Something with her lungs... and Spring's here already. It can't be the cold. Fuck...
"... need to take her to the sawbones."
"What was that?!"
Instantly the brooding hulk became a guilty kid again, especially at the sound of her frantic clicking-clacking back to the door. Nate strode swiftly back to the kitchen and turned around casually as she opened it-
"Hmm?"
"You said something."
"Did I?"
"Nate?!"
"I said... need a cake a sticky buns." One perfect eyebrow quirked and Nate felt half his size. "For... the new year. We didn't do much for it, did we? You deserve a little treat."
"Could have sworn-" she limped ably over to the table and her eyes closed to suspicious slits "-you said 'sawbones'."
"Nonsense. You've already been this season, and he said you were fine."
"And fine I-UHKKKUFFKUUFF-!"
Kayleah then went ahead and showed him just how "fine" she was for the next ten minutes. Even Jorka took notice, getting up from her bed with a concerned whine and padding over, nuzzling the shaking fellow female's hand with her snout. Kay patted her with her trembling fingers and batted Nate's own away when he tried to put an arm around her.
"I'm f... kff!... fine, damn you! Just... a little out of breath."
"Yes, because your bedroom is such a bog, hmm?"
Brown eyes like melted chocolate became the dark pools of tigers in a flash. Nate took the look, quelled the urge to bow his head. Instead he just spread his big hands on the table and took a breath.
"... just the weather, is all."
"Bullshit-"
"Nate?!"
"You're getting worse!"
The simple, painful, unavoidable truth shut them both up for longer than expected. The only sound was a softly bubbling pot and Jorka's swishing tail banging into the table, until even she realized the situation was too tense even for her charms and she padded back to the safety of her bed, watching it all unfold from under a ratty blanket.
"I am not."
"Kay, for the gods' sake-"
"We can't go to the sawbones again!" Kay shot back, and just the hint of a tremor was in her voice now. She was strong, so strong... but strength didn't last forever. Even gods weakened and died; mortals just didn't take as long, even those with hearts and wills as granite-bound as Kayleah. "The rent is only just getting paid and even without that, well... it wouldn't be enough."
"I could find a way."
She inhaled sharply through her nose and her back straightened, lips pressing into a tight white line that offset her still jet-black hair. Nate struggled not to roll his eyes, knowing that any moment-
Yep. There it is. The jutting chin. Shyke.
"I don't want that money. I don't want you going back to that life."
"Kay, I'm hardly smashing in the heads of babes for coppers, it wouldn't be that-"
"Not this time, but what about the time after that? Or after that? How long before you were doing those awful things and excusing them away, hmm?"
"This is The Berth, Kay. There's no legit, you know that. It would just be... some work on the side. Nothing too bad-"
She stood up too fast for a woman with her legs as broken spindles... and as a result, nearly fell across the table. But Nate sprang up just as she did, beefy arms sliding smoothly under her armpits, a movement born from years of practice. The warm, fragile softness of her body pressed to him and he felt his heart wrench inside his chest.
I can't lose her. I'll be alone again. No, no, no, I can't... I can't let that happen. We need more money for the sawbones. That's... that's just how it is. He'll fix it, but he'll need the-
"Please, Nate." She said against his chest, and he clenched his eyes shut and prayed that she - not the gods; callous, uncaring bastards all - would forgive him. "Don't do this. There's other ways."
"... OK, love. We'll find something else." The moment was too sad, too hopeless. He couldn't bear it and finally defused it the only way your knew how. "... don't press too close to me. I may be excited, y'know?"
"Nathaniel?!"
"Soft, nubile body flush with mine, well, what can I say? I am enamored-"
She slapped him but there was no strength or ire behind it, and the smile she was desperately trying to hide told him even more. Jorka barked playfully, tail nearly a blur now the humans were done being silly and stinking of fear.
"Finish the bread and bean pies, you bloody damned deviant. I'm going for a lie down before Missus Delaney comes by with the laundry from the knocking shop around the corner. That'll be good for a few gold rims..."
"Whatever you say, love."
He watched her go and his jolly face was crushed again, but he turned away before she could see it, glancing at him one more time from the door.
A look he would never see. One brimming with patient grief and helplessness.
Few things are worse than knowing you will cause such terrible pain to those you love. To know your body was slowly betraying you and you cannot turn it in or cease it's treachery. Kayleah's lip trembled and she clenched her teeth hard.
No. Don't do this to him. Go to bed, you silly woman, and get some rest so you can work later.
Nate finished his chores in silence and then went out, strapped with his weapons and giving Jorka the usual "watch the place for me" before he went out the door. In the past he would have been hesitant to leave the place empty, but Jorka handling the first burglar that tried to take advantage of an old lady and her pooch told him he needn't worry.
He saw him now and then, begging on the streets. Voice much higher than it had been before...
Nathaniel marched swiftly through the crowds and often times they parted for him, his past reputation or present size and glower doing the job well enough. His eyes were a set, sullen mask but his mind whirred, trying to find a way around the words, her desperate pleas... and at the sight of a train of scrawny kids scuttling by, a lightning bolt struck his brain.
Hmm... we'll see if Jilene and her brood needs any help. What could be more above reproach them helping orphans? Then he added his own mercenary addendum: Let's hope they're in trouble and need some skulls smashed... and are willing to pay for it.