Fallon shuddered, the lacing of venom within her tone as she released the juddering words into the air, "Yes. The brother, the Hound. Bloody Hound. Bloody Brother. Bloody Wrenmae. Bloody..." She trailed off, her thoughts sporadic and unable to come down to a single level point. A bubbling wrath beneath the skin, something no doubt noticeable by the way the words started to gain that rougher, growling edge, "Just a liar, just a trick. Just a sick, petching joker. Just looking to have sick..." her fist clenched, trembled and then relaxed, whilst her head remained where it was. At least until she worked at burrowing it in deeper. The woman was right in so many things in this instance, it was the fine line between acceptance of what it was and then obsessing over it.
Weight shifted, the dull throbbing within resting there. She clung tightly as possible, refusal almost to let go of the woman beside her, the rough inhale as she sucked in the scents. It was strained, the nagging, heavy weight from within pulled. Exposed, she pulled herself back hands shaking as she cupped the woman's face. Lips pursed into a line, the sore orbs darting about the woman's face. There was only a long sniff and a definite nod to her question, her throat had sealed up and made the formation of words a difficult one. They had been tried and burned, but they had gotten out the other side of the flames together. They had fought the dangers that chased them, and relished in each other in too many ways. It took willpower to stop the arm from trembling and to force the gaze to lift.
Meeting the other's, she let her lips curl. A sense of safety solidified, that brush away of that insecurity in such an easy motion. There was another nod, the finalising of the trail of thought followed by a deep inhale. To acknowledge and put to one side, to make the partner instead of to find and to begin the long delayed cleansing instead of letting it fester. It would be a hard and dark path, she knew that as she stood upon the mental cusp of traversing it, but it would be worth it in the end - right? A nervous chew upon the lip, a moment of hesitation before she quickly kissed the woman on the cheek and returned to her burying against the folds. It was only there that she mumbled, finding the resolve that had been buried beneath the confusion, "I... I will make my own. And choose who to give it to. Knowing it's for someone who won't leave."
She knew what she meant to say, but whether or not that came across was another situation all together. With the arms pulling in closer, with the promise of comfort reached her. She snaked in, form curling up almost in reflex and the eyes resting shut. It was a familiar feeling, deep set and sealed tight somewhere within. When the woman flinched she simply held, her hand reaching up to the back of her head and the fingers gently rubbing there - an impulse to sooth where she could. It came to a moment where she was uncertain on who was trying to help who, both seemed to lean and prop the other up within the dark world before them - somehow.
Calm, they both needed it. She could feel it in the air, that heavy feeling necessities and closeness. Slow words, calm ones to help face those inner demons that haunted her so. Ones that had only just begun to grow apparent and visible to her. A deep inhale, another flicker - tiny fists and gnawing fangs - but they were slowing now in speed, and with it that claw of panic begun to retreat to back where it belonged. It was reassurance in its simplest form, and whilst it did not remove those memories or the sting of words from her youth, it did give that slight glimmer of some hope. A much needed salve for a wound. The was the faintest of a grimace, a creasing of the brow before she released a snort in humour. A pin cushion she was, her last few bouts of combat proved that many times over - as did situations before that. It was the definite belief that she was what she was called and the consequential lacking self worth that no doubt was the cause of such actions.
"I'll try and get better at being less of a pin cushion," she finally brought herself to speak, "And try my best to remember. Might have to remind me a few times though, just in case I forget." There was only a curl of the lips at that point, followed by a firm nuzzle, "Not sure how to do that though. Going to have to learn."
"No! No no, no!" she exclaimed as she jerked back to Zandelia's question. Eyes blinked, her head shaking from side to side an almost look of horror that such a thought had been suggested. Her hands clenched and unclenched, the expression changing as she met the woman's gaze once more. With her voice raised in sincere protest, she brought the hands to grasp upon the other's fingers "No, you're not monstrous! Not at all..." Her shoulders slumped, her thumbs idly running over the knuckles, "I think... you're wonderful. A lot kinder than you actually think you are." Her better hand pulled away at that point, finger tips lifting to trace across the forehead. There was a brush around the socket and to the cheekbone, the digit brushing away a strand of hair, "And, I think sometimes, you forget that you're also not only your mother's daughter, but... also yourself and who you are as an individual. Your own person outside of blood." She gave a frown, the hand tracing down her cheek to her chin now, "You're no them after all. You are you, and you're..."
Fallon lost her words at that point, the once frown easing off and the hand sliding round to the back of the head. There was purpose in her gaze, the look of action over expression. She pulled the head in a reach forward a gentle lean in followed by a brush of lips, the resting of the forehead upon the other's. There was a sniff, "You're the one I chose to open up to. No one else." The blue-green met the emerald, a gentle exhale and a final calm hum trembling from her throat, "And... it's you that I'd like to help me fly. Please?"
Weight shifted, the dull throbbing within resting there. She clung tightly as possible, refusal almost to let go of the woman beside her, the rough inhale as she sucked in the scents. It was strained, the nagging, heavy weight from within pulled. Exposed, she pulled herself back hands shaking as she cupped the woman's face. Lips pursed into a line, the sore orbs darting about the woman's face. There was only a long sniff and a definite nod to her question, her throat had sealed up and made the formation of words a difficult one. They had been tried and burned, but they had gotten out the other side of the flames together. They had fought the dangers that chased them, and relished in each other in too many ways. It took willpower to stop the arm from trembling and to force the gaze to lift.
Meeting the other's, she let her lips curl. A sense of safety solidified, that brush away of that insecurity in such an easy motion. There was another nod, the finalising of the trail of thought followed by a deep inhale. To acknowledge and put to one side, to make the partner instead of to find and to begin the long delayed cleansing instead of letting it fester. It would be a hard and dark path, she knew that as she stood upon the mental cusp of traversing it, but it would be worth it in the end - right? A nervous chew upon the lip, a moment of hesitation before she quickly kissed the woman on the cheek and returned to her burying against the folds. It was only there that she mumbled, finding the resolve that had been buried beneath the confusion, "I... I will make my own. And choose who to give it to. Knowing it's for someone who won't leave."
She knew what she meant to say, but whether or not that came across was another situation all together. With the arms pulling in closer, with the promise of comfort reached her. She snaked in, form curling up almost in reflex and the eyes resting shut. It was a familiar feeling, deep set and sealed tight somewhere within. When the woman flinched she simply held, her hand reaching up to the back of her head and the fingers gently rubbing there - an impulse to sooth where she could. It came to a moment where she was uncertain on who was trying to help who, both seemed to lean and prop the other up within the dark world before them - somehow.
Calm, they both needed it. She could feel it in the air, that heavy feeling necessities and closeness. Slow words, calm ones to help face those inner demons that haunted her so. Ones that had only just begun to grow apparent and visible to her. A deep inhale, another flicker - tiny fists and gnawing fangs - but they were slowing now in speed, and with it that claw of panic begun to retreat to back where it belonged. It was reassurance in its simplest form, and whilst it did not remove those memories or the sting of words from her youth, it did give that slight glimmer of some hope. A much needed salve for a wound. The was the faintest of a grimace, a creasing of the brow before she released a snort in humour. A pin cushion she was, her last few bouts of combat proved that many times over - as did situations before that. It was the definite belief that she was what she was called and the consequential lacking self worth that no doubt was the cause of such actions.
"I'll try and get better at being less of a pin cushion," she finally brought herself to speak, "And try my best to remember. Might have to remind me a few times though, just in case I forget." There was only a curl of the lips at that point, followed by a firm nuzzle, "Not sure how to do that though. Going to have to learn."
"No! No no, no!" she exclaimed as she jerked back to Zandelia's question. Eyes blinked, her head shaking from side to side an almost look of horror that such a thought had been suggested. Her hands clenched and unclenched, the expression changing as she met the woman's gaze once more. With her voice raised in sincere protest, she brought the hands to grasp upon the other's fingers "No, you're not monstrous! Not at all..." Her shoulders slumped, her thumbs idly running over the knuckles, "I think... you're wonderful. A lot kinder than you actually think you are." Her better hand pulled away at that point, finger tips lifting to trace across the forehead. There was a brush around the socket and to the cheekbone, the digit brushing away a strand of hair, "And, I think sometimes, you forget that you're also not only your mother's daughter, but... also yourself and who you are as an individual. Your own person outside of blood." She gave a frown, the hand tracing down her cheek to her chin now, "You're no them after all. You are you, and you're..."
Fallon lost her words at that point, the once frown easing off and the hand sliding round to the back of the head. There was purpose in her gaze, the look of action over expression. She pulled the head in a reach forward a gentle lean in followed by a brush of lips, the resting of the forehead upon the other's. There was a sniff, "You're the one I chose to open up to. No one else." The blue-green met the emerald, a gentle exhale and a final calm hum trembling from her throat, "And... it's you that I'd like to help me fly. Please?"