23rd Day of Summer, 514AV
The Docks
13th Bell
The Docks
13th Bell
Look down, look down, just do the fucking job...
Nate repeated his bitter mantra inside his head as he hoisted another hundred-pound bag of meal onto his shoulders, joining the short human ant line that was unloading the ship from Zeltiva. The Jaunty Pile - Nate reminded himself to ask about that one - stank of meal and corn and rat shit and vomit and all the wonderful scents of a ship long at sea. The crew were hardly any better, with the added aroma of unwashed sweat and scurvy-ridden teeth.
The big human barely noticed it. His face was set in a stoic mask, bearing the load on broad shoulders, torso bare and scorning Syna's merciless rays. It was getting too much to even wear a shawl or scarf now. Nate's only compromises to decency were his boots, his breeches and the neckerchief fastened around his head after being soaked in water.
And if it goes on more like this, the sodding breeches are going, too.
"C'mon, you lazy fucking whores! What are you, working men or fucking children?!"
Strabo roared and cussed at them from the shade of his office, but the sweltering dozen on the pier worked at their own, attainable pace. They knew from experience that rushing hard for a few chimes and them being too exhausted to unload more than half the boat wasn't a smart idea. No, much better to go at a pace, spare their muscles.
Do the job well in two bells rather than fuck it up in one.
But the old bastard needed to be placated, so they put their backs into it a little more, sacks and crates moving down the plank faster, smoother... until he turned away... and with a communal sigh and a round of truly inventive Sunberth curses, they slid back into their rut.
Nate winced. Damn. That term was far too appropriate.
Nigh a season had passed, and his melancholy had not. Grief had been alien to the man throughout much of his life: just another weakness he needed to quash so it could not be used against him, like compassion and hope and loyalty. But he'd committed a great treachery against himself. He had all those things and more, bound up in the woman who was now nothing but ash, vanished into the quiet bay east of the Docks, no sign left in the world of her physical form but what particles of scorched matter a minnow couldn't find.
He was alone again. The thought seized him like a midnight mugger and it pierced his resolve, made the bag wobble-
"Fuck me, Nate-!"
-and Jekzun was there, at his back, one black hand jerking up to brace against the bag, another at Nate's back. Teeth flashed like a lighthouse against the dark of his face and he shook his head, deep Eyktol accent rumbling and stilted as it spat out Common.
"Hold good on that, boy. Jek behind you."
"Yeah... yeah..."
It was the closest he'd get to camaraderie that day, as well he knew. Friends? What did Nate have call for friends? The only one he needed was... gone. Now his center and his purpose had been ripped out and all he had was the grey routine of the harbor, the Docks, his job, this ceaseless, paying toil...
"Oi, you fuckin' deaf or wot'?!"
Fuck it, he'd done it again.
He blinked and Strabo's various chins were nearly purple with indignation. Some little street rat was hurrying behind him on skinny legs, wide blue umbrella bouncing over them both and finally coming to a halt above Strabo. The plump little merchant glared up at Nate, apparently heedless to the fact he was holding up the fucking line, and nearly a dozen other men equally burdened... in the hot rays of Syna.
"What is your problem today, Nate?!"
"Just... the heat, sir. Nothing more."
"Well, get over it, damn you!" He cast a quick look at the chuckling sailors watching them through pipe smoke. "You're making my firm look foolish."
Nate chose to bite back "You can do that all by yourself, you dandied up pile of sheep shit", and instead nodded until the bastard waddled back to his shade his his icy water. He concentrated instead on planting one foot in front of the other, coarse material of the sack chafing his shoulders with every grind and shift of weight.
Little more... little more...
Until he was close enough to heave it up over his head, bracing both hands under it and feeling his biceps and shoulders strain, scream, snap inside his tanned flesh and then-
-the sack thumped onto the rest of the pile, the wagon half-full. Not waiting to check or hold up anyone else, Nate was already walking back to the ship, rolling his shoulders and shaking his arms. Forcing his world to shrink to the simple task of making the Full Boat and Empty Boat.
Look down, look down...
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Five hours later and Nate was watching whirling tendrils of blue smoke dance across the Dock, then melt into Syna's glare. Her final descent was still some time away but the Pile was unloaded and that meant the crew could relax for a little while. They were spread out around the pier - some dozing, or chugging water like parched fish, or throwing dice - but Nate had taken his favorite spot.
Not far from the water, propped up by a couple of old sacks, with a worn, cracked pipe at his lips, and some cheap, strong baccy burning his throat with every hffffffff-
"KKfffffffffffgods and fuckin' daemons..." he sputtered as a red-hot chunk escaped the stem and hurtled down his throat "... shyke's like a visit from fuckin' Krysus..."
Once his fit had lapsed, he went back to... well, just watching, really. Tall shadows were about the water, gliding on the glistening surface, rising as they hit a swell or plunging down as a wave rolled under them. Galleys and brigs and schooners and fishing boats and all of them capped with crowns of white against the blue sky.
Nate preferred coming here. It calmed him. He knew that he should be with the boys, throwing himself into... something social, but he preferred it by himself. He used to come here with Kay-
-and like that, his calm vanished. Grief like a lead weight crushed his shoulders down and his eyes glazed over, staring down now at the water lapping just below his feet. The noises of the Dock vanished and he wasn't there, not at that time...
It was twelve years ago and he'd been a big, rawboned kid with hard eyes and callused knuckles, but he didn't dare refuse when Kay wanted to go to the festival. It had ended up at the Docks, with food given out and booze flowing and music pounding from the band echoing off the walls and the cobbles.
She'd danced. Gods, she'd had such life, such love just for living. She could have made a Yahalite out of a miser; a saint from a Rhysol-junkie. She'd whirled in her red dress and everyone whirled with her, as if they didn't want to be left out.
The pipe sputtered to nothing without his breath to stoke it. By the time he'd realized, there was more to be noticed that the dead bowl of burned tobacco. Loud creaking made him blink, a vast shadow fell over him and a stench that made his stomach do flips and say "no mas".
Sahova. The ships always smelled like that.
Graveyards with fucking sails.
"Wonderful," he said with a grumble, getting his his feet and stretching tired, naked limbs without a care to who was watching, unseen to his eyes since Syna was blinding him from above the deck, "More sodding work..."
Nate let his disgust take the place of his grief and tramped over to the work gang, already assembling, with Strabo in the lead, quibbling and clucking over them like a mother hen, wanting his brood presentable for the captain of...
Shit. They didn't even know the name.
Like it matters, Nate thought, taking his place next to Jekzun and rotating his wrists, limbering them up. Just another boat of robe-covered corpses and fucking slaves and...
And someone else, apparently.
A dozen very, very male Sunberthians sucked in their guts all at once. Aside from Strabo. That was just a lost cause and besides, he had money.