Summer, Day 46th, 514
After passing through the gates, the man fumbled his way through the streets of Syliras. As far as first impressions go, it seemed to look more decent than Sunberth. Actually, anywhere was better than the horrid pit of Sunberth. But Syliras reminded the man of his home in Zeltiva. It was safe. Or at least it was supposed to be. Looking over your shoulder at every moment, the fear of suddenly being ambushed, and the constant threat of your purse suddenly disappearing was implanted in Zane's mind. It wouldn't go away lightly. After spending years living in a den of thieves and murderers, even the "protection" of Syliras Knights sounded like a fiction.
Zane's teeth clattered together as he walked. There were several people passing him by, and none of them were Shiress. What if she doesn't even remember me? Or worse. She could remember how I failed to rescue her. She might have become disfigured or had a tragic accident since then. No Zane. Think. Positive. This is your sister. The one that...that... All of the memories were riddling the man's brain. He needed his fix. If only to divert his attention away for a short while. I just need enough to get my bearings together. Just wait for me. A little while longer. I'll find you. I'll save you this time.
Zane's addiction overpowered him, slowly weakening his mental state. But this was Syliras. Where would he go? Sure there were many shops. But which one, was the right one? Zane walked, and read the signs as he did so. None of them were a clear indicator of which would be the supplier of the items that he so desired. That being the case, desperation took over and the man found himself gazing at the flowers through the window of The Flower Stand. But he couldn't actually bring himself to walk inside. This seemed like the right place to go to, after all the luminescent products seemed to already induce the effects that he had intended to experience, though it was only via sight and lacked the actual feeling.
"Ugh! It looks soooo good! Oh I'm sure that once I get it inside of me, everything would be okay again. It would be simply magnificent. Everything would make sense again and I wouldn't feel so...empty! All I have to do is indulge! But in the off chance that this is not it, what if it's even worse? It could be a did. A fake. A phony. False products are the worst! Separating me from my...my...p..."
His knees buckled under his weight, causing the man to fall in front of the display window. He grabbed at his head and began rolling on the ground. It had been too long and the symptoms of withdrawal was beginning to take its toll. At this point, there was nothing he could do but to wait it out.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! Zane you are pathetic for thinking that you could have saved your sister. You can't even save yourself. You, I, WE deserve this punishment. We know that begging for punishment won't save us.
OOCThe weird inconsistencies portrayed in Zane's thoughts and speech are used to show his mind playing tricks on him. This can be attributed to the negative effects of the drugs he used combined with withdrawal symptoms.
Zane's teeth clattered together as he walked. There were several people passing him by, and none of them were Shiress. What if she doesn't even remember me? Or worse. She could remember how I failed to rescue her. She might have become disfigured or had a tragic accident since then. No Zane. Think. Positive. This is your sister. The one that...that... All of the memories were riddling the man's brain. He needed his fix. If only to divert his attention away for a short while. I just need enough to get my bearings together. Just wait for me. A little while longer. I'll find you. I'll save you this time.
Zane's addiction overpowered him, slowly weakening his mental state. But this was Syliras. Where would he go? Sure there were many shops. But which one, was the right one? Zane walked, and read the signs as he did so. None of them were a clear indicator of which would be the supplier of the items that he so desired. That being the case, desperation took over and the man found himself gazing at the flowers through the window of The Flower Stand. But he couldn't actually bring himself to walk inside. This seemed like the right place to go to, after all the luminescent products seemed to already induce the effects that he had intended to experience, though it was only via sight and lacked the actual feeling.
"Ugh! It looks soooo good! Oh I'm sure that once I get it inside of me, everything would be okay again. It would be simply magnificent. Everything would make sense again and I wouldn't feel so...empty! All I have to do is indulge! But in the off chance that this is not it, what if it's even worse? It could be a did. A fake. A phony. False products are the worst! Separating me from my...my...p..."
His knees buckled under his weight, causing the man to fall in front of the display window. He grabbed at his head and began rolling on the ground. It had been too long and the symptoms of withdrawal was beginning to take its toll. At this point, there was nothing he could do but to wait it out.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! Zane you are pathetic for thinking that you could have saved your sister. You can't even save yourself. You, I, WE deserve this punishment. We know that begging for punishment won't save us.
OOCThe weird inconsistencies portrayed in Zane's thoughts and speech are used to show his mind playing tricks on him. This can be attributed to the negative effects of the drugs he used combined with withdrawal symptoms.