Asay helped Sheaya pick up the boy and carried him for the young mother so she could see for herself the damage of their camp. Someone from their tents had started the fire pit once more and were attempting to burn the bodies of the assailants as the last thing they needed was wildlife sniffing around trying to salvage a meal while they were all here.
Shea followed her cousin close, looking at the blood stained sand all around them. You could tell from the unmoved sand where people had fallen and bled out easily from the color of the stains.
"Who all is dead?" Shea asked as she kept finding red sand but non of her kin laying out like the men Bethar was tossing onto the flames. Asay kept quiet and shook her head slowly as if she was struggling to find the words; instead she chose to lead Sheaya into a tent that their cousins had lit up with lanterns, tending to two of the men who were alive and breathing, but their wounds looked as if they were bleeding too fast to dress, and both looked as if they were in great pain.
"Mercy upon us Yahal." She whispered under her breath seeing the men. She glanced around the tent to see if they had any more hurt, but she saw none in here. For a moment she found herself hopeful that their other kin were alive and well, that Iisar was repairing what had been undone by their visitors as she had yet to see a body. "Is this all who was hurt?" she asked out loud as she looked between the women in the tent.
"Don't be naive Shea." Naia spoke up from their kin she was tending to, trying to help him drink some tea to alive his pain. "You're not doing yourself any favors doing that, you know deep down that's not true." Asay choked back what sounded like a sob as she hugged Sheaya around the shoulders with one arm. "Behind the curtain..." She whispered in Common, sending chills down the young woman. She stared at the woven blanket that divided the tent, usually used to separate the children from the parents for when the husbands felt particularly hungry for his wife, but staring at the tent she felt a sense of cold dread wash over her. Goosebumps formed up and down her arms, regardless of the personal little radiator she held in her arms.
"I'll take him." Asay offered as she scooped up Gabriel from his mother's arms before she could even argue, "They can sleep with their cousin." She said before leaving the tent.
Sheaya turned her head to watch her leave finding herself repeating back the part that struck her odd. "Cousins?" She said, knowing that there had been five children traveling. Naia shook her head, "No, it's cousin now. Asay's child and your two are all we have left now."
"I don't want to look." She whispered as she looked back to the blanket, hugging her arms. Her legs felt like wights now, making her even question if she could walk now towards the curtain to look behind it.
"You'll regret it more if you don't." Naia said with a tight voice, unable to even look towards Sheaya as she knew what was behind.
Shea hesitated for several moments before she found how to control her feet again. Slowly she forced herself to walk forward and to place her hand on the blanket. Her hand trembled as it lingered on the edge, steeling herself to pull it back. The sight took her breath away.
Laying before her were two men, Zior laid on one side on his back with his hands folded over his chest. He almost looked as if he was sleeping if it hadn't been for the fact his neck had been sliced almost in two. Laying beside him though was Iisar, his yellow tunic stained with red as he laid much like Zior, on his back with his hands folded.
"No! NO! Yahal don't let this be true!" Shea cried out as she dropped to her husband's side and cupped his cold hand in his. The tears started flowing as she placed his hand to her cheek as he use to, as if the gesture would snap him out of this. "Iishar..." She cried, her voice faint as she was straining to speak from fear of letting out a large sob. Nothing she said or did stirred her husband; he did not stroke her cheek and tell her everything would be okay as he use to. Squeezing his hand Sheaya bowed over his body and pressed her head to his chest, allowing her tears to flow freely, thankful her children could not see her like this. Her whole body shook as she silently sobbed for the great loss she felt. Iishar had been such a big impact on her life, he was the man she loved and who she had given her purity, body, and soul to when they wedded. This was the man who held her in his arms and night and kept her feeling warm and safe when sandstorms were raging and she felt so small and terrified. He was her life, he was the one she was to spend her life with and raise many children with and yet hear he laid lifeless before her.
She had no idea how long she cried over his body, once again time had passed by at such an unusual rate she couldn't trust her own body to tell. Her eyes were swollen and red, paining her from all the tears she had shed, yet more continued to fall like an endless river. At some point the blanket was pulled back and Naia's voice interrupted her mourning as the older woman placed her hand on Shea's back.
"You are not the only widow here tonight, Sheaya. You can't stay here all day and mourn him." She soothed, refusing to look up where her husband laid resting.
"Leave me be Naia," She somehow managed to say with her throat closing up on he.
Naia just stroked Sheaya's back for several moments, letting the woman have a few more moments of tears before speaking again. "I wish I could, but you are part of this family and we need your help too. We have wounded men, bodies to send off to the next life, and mouths to feed." She waited until Sheay's sobbing lightened and she sat up, the tears still flowing. "You have two children looking up to you, Iisar's children. They need you just as much as ever, maybe even more now with their father gone."
Sheaya nodded and wiped at her tears, her breathing was still erratic as every breath she tried to take was threatening to make her crumble with tears once more.
Naia hugged Sheaya tightly, allowing her own sadness to shine through as she spoke once more."We can't cry now, not until we can rest. Let's just hold ourselves together until then, okay? Because if you keep crying I know I'm going to cry too."
The two held each other in silence until the tears stopped and the two felt they could face one another with tender expressions. Neither one had to say any more to one another as neither knew what to expect if they tried to speak again, but they did know they just needed to keep holding on a little longer for the sake of their family.
Splitting up, Sheaya left Naia to tend to the wounded once more as she went to check on the children and to see what help she could be. As her tears dried on her cheeks she made a silent vow to her and her god that she would hold strong from now on. Her husband was dead, but she did have her children still as some of her cousins no longer did. She would be strong for her sons, and she would be strong for her family, she would just have to hold on one day at a time to fight back the tears her broken heart was filling with as right now she knew she did not have the time to let them all flow out.
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