The cook seemed to find something amusing although Caela wasn't sure what he could have found funny about what she'd said unless there was something that wasn't privy to in his head that he found amusing. He didn't leave her in the dark for long though, pointing out that the orphan's ability to look out for herself was an apparent problem. Just because she was confused over this so-called problem didn't stop her from noticing his nearly addressing her formally again. At least he'd corrected himself.
So the girl could look after herself so he'd been smiling about what? That the dancer hadn't known that the girl he was talking about was a vicious little thing? So she could stab a grown man; that was a good thing. A woman in Sunberth should be able to look after herself and if she was getting a head start before she hit womanhood then good for her. So what was the problem?
His initial grin was replaced with a more serious expression, one that served to show her that he took this favour from her seriously. The dancer might not have understood the reason why initially but he was endeavouring to spell it out to her. It quickly became something approaching a rant aimed at her rather than to her. It wasn't her fault after all that orphans - or any person for that matter - died in this city but it was obviously something that he felt strongly about. As Noven told her about the boy, Thomas, she began to realise that she might have been a little hasty in her judgements. The man was really invested in the lives of the little brats and the anger in his eyes seemed to attest to that. He wasn't trying to hide it either. He actually cared and he didn't seem to care if she knew it.
The dancer frowned. She was beginning to see the problem. The girl was too spirited, too obvious in her way of thinking. In Sunberth, you couldn't mess with the wrong people and by the sounds of it, the girl didn't know when it was a good time to shut her trap. Caela was all too familiar with how a woman could be broken, perhaps not the exact methods that could be employed but rather the effects. Her mother hadn't been quite right. Sure there had been a time when she'd covered up the cracks in false humours but there had come a time towards the end, the last year or so of her life, when the cracks had grown too wide to hide. She'd become like a zombie and the dancer had often wondered if she might have lost her living if Dira hadn't taken her. The blonde did have faint memories of her mother from when she was a young child when the prostitute had been more lively, more spirited so she knew the extent of her degradation. Her mother had had protection though. No man had been able to break her in the way that Noven was talking about whereas this child...
The cook couldn't have known the chord he'd struck in her, images of her broken mother flooding her mind. Regardless of the how if that girl was tormented as he was suggesting the result would be the same. Her mother had died before the age of forty but had probably wanted to die by the time she hit her thirties. Would Amira hit that age? Would she reach Caela's? Hai, the dancer doubted that she'd even get out of her teens if what Noven said was anything to go by. The thought of it was horrific. Images of her mother and that child merging, becoming one had her teeth near to gouging a hole in her lip as her eyes shut in an effort to hold back tears.
She just breathed during the silence, letting herself recover. He cleared his throat, drawing her back into the now from some combination of past and future. The dancer's eyes snapped open, the green orbs perhaps a little misty as they fixed on him. Selfish cow, self-centred bitch, she reprimanded herself bitterly as she had an attack of conscience. If the cook had been some paedophile who'd wanted the girl groomed, Caela would have handed her over on a silver platter. Whatever the reason, the young woman had been more than willing to put herself ahead of the girl's even if it had meant her ruin or her destruction. Now though... she couldn't do it. He'd had to make her think of her mother! Not that he'd had any idea how to get at her or which nerve to strike. Perhaps that was worse.
She had survived thus far - for the most part - in one piece so the man had a point. The dancer could teach the youth what she knew, maybe teach her what she knew about men and how they could be manipulated. Although she might be a little young for that kind of thing. Caela would have to think about that one.
The cook had entered uncomfortable space and the dancer couldn't blame him. His words made her want to cringe. She could see all of this being dumped upon her, anything girly, womanly or whatever. She'd agreed before she'd really realised what she was getting herself into. Shyke! Noven certainly expected her to handle it. Well there was no point having this Amira growing up innocent. She hadn't been sheltered anyway so she'd probably be aware of certain things already. She frowned in remembrance. The orphan had been in the kitchen, presumably so had Noven or he wouldn't have come out armed with a frying pan. Those two children had probably been in there when Caela started screaming and that had obviously drawn the cook out to her rescue but they'd heard. Of course they knew. That flyaway comment about her being an extra bit of fun wouldn't have gone over their heads she was sure. It sent a shiver of horror through her. Ignorance would have been far better.
Her future teacher seemed to have gotten a weight off his chest. Once the subject of Amira was passed he seemed more at ease, better somehow now that that wasn't weighing on his mind. Her training was on his mind now and she was eager to get that started as soon as possible. "Can now count as any time?" she asked as soon as the words were out of his mouth. Her eyes rolled at the mention of changing her clothes. "Way to state the obvious." The young woman took a step back, ready to turn to head straight back to her room when a thought struck her. She turned it over in her mind, viewing ways of voicing it from different angles. If said straight out then it might be taken the wrong way. Just because he was going to train her and he'd been kind enough to rescue her didn't mean that she would give him certain... liberties.
"You might need to know where to find me in the future and you might want to carry some reports back to Jillene. On the body count on her turf, I mean. So are you coming with me? You won't be coming into my room obviously." The look she gave him seemed to suggest that if he thought otherwise that he'd be sorry for it. She shrugged, not waiting for a reply and headed back towards her apartment. He was a big boy, he could work out how to tag along if that was what he wanted.
So the girl could look after herself so he'd been smiling about what? That the dancer hadn't known that the girl he was talking about was a vicious little thing? So she could stab a grown man; that was a good thing. A woman in Sunberth should be able to look after herself and if she was getting a head start before she hit womanhood then good for her. So what was the problem?
His initial grin was replaced with a more serious expression, one that served to show her that he took this favour from her seriously. The dancer might not have understood the reason why initially but he was endeavouring to spell it out to her. It quickly became something approaching a rant aimed at her rather than to her. It wasn't her fault after all that orphans - or any person for that matter - died in this city but it was obviously something that he felt strongly about. As Noven told her about the boy, Thomas, she began to realise that she might have been a little hasty in her judgements. The man was really invested in the lives of the little brats and the anger in his eyes seemed to attest to that. He wasn't trying to hide it either. He actually cared and he didn't seem to care if she knew it.
The dancer frowned. She was beginning to see the problem. The girl was too spirited, too obvious in her way of thinking. In Sunberth, you couldn't mess with the wrong people and by the sounds of it, the girl didn't know when it was a good time to shut her trap. Caela was all too familiar with how a woman could be broken, perhaps not the exact methods that could be employed but rather the effects. Her mother hadn't been quite right. Sure there had been a time when she'd covered up the cracks in false humours but there had come a time towards the end, the last year or so of her life, when the cracks had grown too wide to hide. She'd become like a zombie and the dancer had often wondered if she might have lost her living if Dira hadn't taken her. The blonde did have faint memories of her mother from when she was a young child when the prostitute had been more lively, more spirited so she knew the extent of her degradation. Her mother had had protection though. No man had been able to break her in the way that Noven was talking about whereas this child...
The cook couldn't have known the chord he'd struck in her, images of her broken mother flooding her mind. Regardless of the how if that girl was tormented as he was suggesting the result would be the same. Her mother had died before the age of forty but had probably wanted to die by the time she hit her thirties. Would Amira hit that age? Would she reach Caela's? Hai, the dancer doubted that she'd even get out of her teens if what Noven said was anything to go by. The thought of it was horrific. Images of her mother and that child merging, becoming one had her teeth near to gouging a hole in her lip as her eyes shut in an effort to hold back tears.
She just breathed during the silence, letting herself recover. He cleared his throat, drawing her back into the now from some combination of past and future. The dancer's eyes snapped open, the green orbs perhaps a little misty as they fixed on him. Selfish cow, self-centred bitch, she reprimanded herself bitterly as she had an attack of conscience. If the cook had been some paedophile who'd wanted the girl groomed, Caela would have handed her over on a silver platter. Whatever the reason, the young woman had been more than willing to put herself ahead of the girl's even if it had meant her ruin or her destruction. Now though... she couldn't do it. He'd had to make her think of her mother! Not that he'd had any idea how to get at her or which nerve to strike. Perhaps that was worse.
She had survived thus far - for the most part - in one piece so the man had a point. The dancer could teach the youth what she knew, maybe teach her what she knew about men and how they could be manipulated. Although she might be a little young for that kind of thing. Caela would have to think about that one.
The cook had entered uncomfortable space and the dancer couldn't blame him. His words made her want to cringe. She could see all of this being dumped upon her, anything girly, womanly or whatever. She'd agreed before she'd really realised what she was getting herself into. Shyke! Noven certainly expected her to handle it. Well there was no point having this Amira growing up innocent. She hadn't been sheltered anyway so she'd probably be aware of certain things already. She frowned in remembrance. The orphan had been in the kitchen, presumably so had Noven or he wouldn't have come out armed with a frying pan. Those two children had probably been in there when Caela started screaming and that had obviously drawn the cook out to her rescue but they'd heard. Of course they knew. That flyaway comment about her being an extra bit of fun wouldn't have gone over their heads she was sure. It sent a shiver of horror through her. Ignorance would have been far better.
Her future teacher seemed to have gotten a weight off his chest. Once the subject of Amira was passed he seemed more at ease, better somehow now that that wasn't weighing on his mind. Her training was on his mind now and she was eager to get that started as soon as possible. "Can now count as any time?" she asked as soon as the words were out of his mouth. Her eyes rolled at the mention of changing her clothes. "Way to state the obvious." The young woman took a step back, ready to turn to head straight back to her room when a thought struck her. She turned it over in her mind, viewing ways of voicing it from different angles. If said straight out then it might be taken the wrong way. Just because he was going to train her and he'd been kind enough to rescue her didn't mean that she would give him certain... liberties.
"You might need to know where to find me in the future and you might want to carry some reports back to Jillene. On the body count on her turf, I mean. So are you coming with me? You won't be coming into my room obviously." The look she gave him seemed to suggest that if he thought otherwise that he'd be sorry for it. She shrugged, not waiting for a reply and headed back towards her apartment. He was a big boy, he could work out how to tag along if that was what he wanted.