23rd of Fall, 502 AV Ulric sat astride a heap of detritus, watching the breakers crash upon the rocky, forlorn shore, as he unraveled the strands of a brine-soaked rope. He was scarcely aware of the winds that tugged at his matted hair, nor did he feel the rough fibers that chafed at his hands, smearing them with blood. It was peaceful here, in the calm before a storm, but Ulric could find no respite from his demons. He was haunted by shades from his past; the whore, the fisherman, the seamstress, and the bastard who'd left him with naught but curses and debts. He rejected me, and then he destroyed my life, Ulric scowled and reached for his knife, which he used to scrape at a blob of tar, flicking it upon the shingle. He still had nightmares of the wasted corpse sinking into the murk of the canals, of the cold stare and the fists that had once cuffed away his tears. He can’t have blamed me for what she did. He was a bitter man, with nothing to live for, but he was still there for me. He was my father. No, he spurned that role, a scornful voice cut through his remorse, its tone laced with hatred and impotent fury. He didn’t want you. He never wanted you, same as the whore that brought you into the world. “Petching cunt,” Ulric snarled. He stared out to sea, allowing the din of the breakers to drown out his memories. It was hard to leave the past behind, and harder still to explain how he felt inside. He was troubled but alone – weary, bitter, and despondent. Letting the rope slide through his fingers, Ulric rose and peered at the bleak expanse of coast, from the pebbled shore to the cliffs upon the horizon, remembering why he was here. “Petching cunt,” he repeated, and then, “petching weeper.” Spitting into the wind, he gathered up the frayed rope and returned to the ravine where he’d erected a rough lean-to amidst the toppled boulders and patches of furze. It was a wretched existence, but at least he was safe here. He’d scarcely returned to his rat-infested tenement before an enforcer had shown up to settle the debts that weren’t his, but that he’d damned well better pay if he didn’t want to be separated from his cock. If threats weren’t enough, the man had removed a pair of shears from his sash and a desiccated piece of flesh that had once, most certainly, been used for pissing. Ulric didn’t wait for the others to come knocking. His bowels watery with fear, he’d paid a boatman to smuggle him from Ravok under the cover of darkness, and fled to the desolate coast. Dropping his burden, Ulric knelt and blew upon the embers of his fire, sending up a haze of smoke and swirling ash. He added a few sticks and a handful of beach grasses, and then settled back on his haunches, regarding the half-woven net he’d draped over a shelf of rock. So far he’d subsisted on fish, mussels, and a few roots and berries he’d manage to scavenge from the forest, but it wasn’t nearly enough. Ulric suspected that his luck had begun to run out. Heaving a sigh, he scratched at his patchy beard and reached for the old, dented pot that hung from a length of twine. He strode to the stream that snaked its way to the coast – axe in one hand, pot in the other – and then returned to camp. It didn’t require a great deal of skill to make a pot of fish stew, which in Ulric’s case was a good thing. He set the pot above the embers, adding flakes of dried mackerel, a few mussels and clams, and a chopped root that, while bitter, didn’t seem poisonous. After stirring the contents with his knife, he added a pinch of salt and left the pot to simmer while he went to retrieve his lines. Ulric strode along the shore, retrieving the double-weight cords he’d tied to rock outcrops and stakes driven deep into the shingle. It hadn’t taken him long to isolate the finest spots. Even now, his dark eyes scanned the shore, drawn to areas where the waves broke upon sand, rock, and broken shell. Under these roiling waters were sand bars, and beyond them deep cuts and sloughs that were imperceptible except in lower tides. Lacking a boat, and thus the means to longline for more substantial catches, Ulric targeted the waters between bar and cut, hauling in snook, redfish, mackerel, and a half-dozen other species. Most were small, but he’d had a few decent catches so far – enough that he’d decided to remain here for the time being. Ulric moved from one line to the next, scowling at missing bait and snapped lines, removing hooks, a few sinkers, and the rocks he’d used in their stead. H waded back to the shore and walked further down the coast, where a sheer, barnacle-encrusted shelf of rock had formed a sort of bulwark against the waves. He scrambled up the slope, sliding occasionally on its slick surface, until he reached the toppled menhir in whose shade he’d fastened the remainder of his lines. Here the sea had carved an overhang whose submerged base was pocked with crevices that offered some refuge to fish. Ulric tested his first line, found it empty, and moved to the next – where, to his chagrin, all he’d managed to snare was a clump of dark, slimy kelp. By now, he was soaked through with spray. It plastered the hair to his skull and trickled down the small of his back, lending him the appearance of a half-drowned rat. Cursing under his breath, Ulric crawled to the third line and hauled up a good-sized bluefish. It flopped from side to side, forked tail slapping at the rock, exposing a white underbelly beneath grayish, blue-green scales. Ulric stomped on its head, feeling the bones snap under his bare heel, the squish of brains. He threaded a bit of cord through its gills, coiled up the remaining line, and returned to camp as the first clap of thunder resonated in the distance. |