43 Spring 513 AV
Twenty more days before the next passenger-friendly ship left for Sunberth. Marion was already losing her mind. Twenty more days, the sailors told her whenever she harassed them. Tomorrow would be nineteen. But today was twenty.
She'd spent the day on the docks, trying not to get knocked in the water while she wove her way through burly men with foreign accents. Every now and again she would find them lounging on railing or against unloaded crates, occasionally alone but usually in pairs or groups of three, laughing among themselves. Marion didn't know if they were dodging their work or if they had the go-ahead to laze around. She didn't particularly care either way.
It had been just past nine bells when she'd approached the first men, early morning by her standards but they'd obviously been toiling away for some time already, their skin sunburnt and reeking of fish and sweat. Throughout the day, she floated from man to man and group to group, trading their tales for carefully coquettish grins and promises that all parties surely knew she had no intention of keeping.
With her prodding curiosity they spoke of monsters, creatures hidden in the endless churning emptiness of the ocean. There were boasts from those who claimed to have encountered hordes of half-man-half-fish demons, beasts of deceptive beauty that stripped the skin from anyone they could lure into the water. Others only whispered of eldritch creatures, colossal and otherworldly, they had glimpsed far below, their shadows spanning miles. There were tales of sharks that could swallow ships whole; leviathan serpents with spines like sails; hulking, many-armed beings that could capsize fleets and crush islands in their palms. And still others, though far fewer, with wide eyes and breath faintly reeking of fear, spoke of horrible and malignant creatures with a thousand stabbing fingers, who captured men live to use as bait for their sport-killing.
Most of the stories were either embellished or plainly false, Marion figured, since the many of the men were singularly incapable of providing her with the details she sought of each creature, and those that did often disagreed or outright clashed with other given descriptions of the things. What about their anatomy? she had asked. Were their arms humanoid or fleshy and flexible? Were their tails thin and whip-like or wide like a paddle? Was their flesh smooth or scaled? There were discrepancies even in these simple facts. It seemed the more questions she asked the less eager the sea men were to answer them, instead relapsing to descriptions of more mundane beasts.
"If you're so interested in sea creatures, missy, start small," one fisherman had said after Marion prodded him about the "feathered whale" he'd claimed to encounter. He then slapped a fish into her hands with a raucous laugh and motion for her to pay him. She did so without thinking, and he sent her on her way with a hard pat on the back. It was five chimes too late before Marion fully realized what had transpired, and that she'd traded two whole gold mizas for a reeking slab of scaly flesh.
It was getting dark now. The clouds that had been hovering on the horizon for the earlier parts of the day had blown in on the easterly evening winds, smooth and grey, bringing promises of rain. They blanketed over the sun and cast a jaundice glow over the bay. Marion sat on the edge of the pier, legs swinging lazily above green water and one hand braced against the wood. The docks were largely abandoned at this point. Any ships coming in to harbor had already taken in lines, their crews shuffling off to nearby taverns to commemorate the end of another day. It was rare quiet moment. Marion might've even gone so far as to call it peaceful.
But there was a restlessness stirring in her bones. It was an itching sensation, a feeling that her body had some place it needed to be, while her mind had no clue where that was or how to get there. It threatened to tear her apart from the inside. (And she still had twenty days to go.)
She'd decided to heed the fisherman's advice. The fish she'd inadvertently bought sat in her lap, slender and silvery, while her free fingers traced along its flank, up and down, in time with the waves. She was sure the smell of it must've seeped into her skin by now. She didn't particularly care. Everything smelled like fish here. What she did care about was the shape of the thing's scales, their arrangement, the way they tapered around the tail, they way they laid against the skin. Smooth one way, rough the other. Her motion was repetitive, meditative, almost hypnotic.
The fish was a simple creature, nothing so exciting as the monstrosities she'd thought would keep her imagination occupied. But there was something alluring in that simplicity, something raw and formidable. Its was sleek and powerful, twelve inches of pure muscle, in a compact and streamlined body that Marion was sure once cut through water like a knife through butter. It was almost a shame to see it limp and rotting now, but there were, quite literally, more fish in the sea. This one just happened to fall prey to a more intelligent predator. But that didn't mean it was somehow inferior, did it? The human form was soft, fleshy, and slow. Imperfect. The only things humans really had going for them, Marion reasoned, were their capacity for improvement and the intelligence to realize that potential.
That was the real beauty of morphing, she thought, not the artistic hokey her father had gone on and on about. Applicable knowledge was the real art of it. And the pursuit of perfection. There was a singular form to be pieced together that would outweigh any nightmares of the imagination. Marion was sure of it. She would become it, limitless, everything -- she owed Ssena that much. And she would unleash that world-ending shape. It would the the paramount truth, undeniable and, unlike those monsters she'd heard so many tales of today, horrifyingly real.
(A girl had to have goals.)
But today the simple fish was enough.
Wood boards groaned under shifted weight as she laid the fish beside her feet and stood, motionless, pale eyes scanning the empty and churning horizon. She could see the edge of the world from here. What waited there?
After a few ticks, she shuffled backwards a couple paces and began working at the strings of her shirt, pulling it over her head and exposing her arms and bare midriff to the buffeting wind. The air off the bay was cool, threatening to raise bumps along her skin and only getting colder while the sun sank behind dark clouds. She spared only a moment to fold the shirt and drop it to the ground before kicking off her boots and trousers, positioning them in such a way as to minimize the chances of them being blown into the water.
If some far-off stranger saw her, half-naked in the breeze, they didn't make it known. Marion closed her eyes, a hum playing at the back of her throat, a soft string of noises that helped to aim her focus as she shifted through her consciousness. She probed with a mental hand, pulling her djed forward, a bundle of icy cords that held together the fabric of who she was. She brushed against it gently, feeling it tremble against her mind, bending in anticipation of her will.
And at her will her djed swayed and shuddered to life with a sick joy, twisting itself around Marion's gut and weaving into her veins. There it pulsated, filling every crevice of her body with its icy tendrils until it was no longer her body but the physical manifestation of potential. It was anything she had the will to become. She could see that body in her mind's eye, doughy and pink, with soft lines and and bouncing blonde hair. Next to it the form of the fish rested like living metal, all silver scales and hard muscle.
An intoxicating sense of power blossomed in her chest, and under her command the fabric of her being was altered, like a stroke of new color across a canvas. Fat shrank and hardened, compacting on top of and supplementing already existing muscle. Hair melded with flesh to create a smooth surface of skin. A prickling sensation spread across much of her body -- back, chest, shoulders, scalp, thighs, shins -- where small and curved flakes of skin peeled upward. They were delicate at first, like butterfly wings, but soon hardened into some semblance of the smooth scales by which her fingers had been so enraptured just moments ago, though these looked more like fingernails than anything else.
It was then that the sky, roiling with dark intent above, decided to fall and a single heavy drop of rain splattered against her newly formed scales and slithered down her back. Marion's eyes jarred open at the contact, and after glaring a moment at the clouds, she stooped to grasp the edge of the dock and lowered her body into the water. Waves lapped at her back, clinging to the hardened flesh there just as she clung to the wood, and she was grateful for the strength of her added muscle that kept her from being swept into the tide. Going in feet first was an uncomfortable sensation, with water pushing against the grain of the scales. Marion fought to maintain a separation between the mind and the body amid the unpleasantness of it.
The transformation wasn't complete, but to finish it she needed to be free-floating in the water, unanchored. The thought wasn't entirely appealing, considering she'd never truly swum in her life, and especially not in open waters. Her bells spent in the Sunken Conundrum as a child didn't count -- that had never really been "swimming" so much as floating and flailing around. There had been no sense of urgency or risk of danger there. But here, in this water, there were no illusions. If she tried breathing this water, she would die.
Of course, that wouldn't stop her. Marion knew what she wanted to do, and she was going to do it. Fear would not hamper her.
She let her hands slip from the wooden edge of the dock.
She'd spent the day on the docks, trying not to get knocked in the water while she wove her way through burly men with foreign accents. Every now and again she would find them lounging on railing or against unloaded crates, occasionally alone but usually in pairs or groups of three, laughing among themselves. Marion didn't know if they were dodging their work or if they had the go-ahead to laze around. She didn't particularly care either way.
It had been just past nine bells when she'd approached the first men, early morning by her standards but they'd obviously been toiling away for some time already, their skin sunburnt and reeking of fish and sweat. Throughout the day, she floated from man to man and group to group, trading their tales for carefully coquettish grins and promises that all parties surely knew she had no intention of keeping.
With her prodding curiosity they spoke of monsters, creatures hidden in the endless churning emptiness of the ocean. There were boasts from those who claimed to have encountered hordes of half-man-half-fish demons, beasts of deceptive beauty that stripped the skin from anyone they could lure into the water. Others only whispered of eldritch creatures, colossal and otherworldly, they had glimpsed far below, their shadows spanning miles. There were tales of sharks that could swallow ships whole; leviathan serpents with spines like sails; hulking, many-armed beings that could capsize fleets and crush islands in their palms. And still others, though far fewer, with wide eyes and breath faintly reeking of fear, spoke of horrible and malignant creatures with a thousand stabbing fingers, who captured men live to use as bait for their sport-killing.
Most of the stories were either embellished or plainly false, Marion figured, since the many of the men were singularly incapable of providing her with the details she sought of each creature, and those that did often disagreed or outright clashed with other given descriptions of the things. What about their anatomy? she had asked. Were their arms humanoid or fleshy and flexible? Were their tails thin and whip-like or wide like a paddle? Was their flesh smooth or scaled? There were discrepancies even in these simple facts. It seemed the more questions she asked the less eager the sea men were to answer them, instead relapsing to descriptions of more mundane beasts.
"If you're so interested in sea creatures, missy, start small," one fisherman had said after Marion prodded him about the "feathered whale" he'd claimed to encounter. He then slapped a fish into her hands with a raucous laugh and motion for her to pay him. She did so without thinking, and he sent her on her way with a hard pat on the back. It was five chimes too late before Marion fully realized what had transpired, and that she'd traded two whole gold mizas for a reeking slab of scaly flesh.
It was getting dark now. The clouds that had been hovering on the horizon for the earlier parts of the day had blown in on the easterly evening winds, smooth and grey, bringing promises of rain. They blanketed over the sun and cast a jaundice glow over the bay. Marion sat on the edge of the pier, legs swinging lazily above green water and one hand braced against the wood. The docks were largely abandoned at this point. Any ships coming in to harbor had already taken in lines, their crews shuffling off to nearby taverns to commemorate the end of another day. It was rare quiet moment. Marion might've even gone so far as to call it peaceful.
But there was a restlessness stirring in her bones. It was an itching sensation, a feeling that her body had some place it needed to be, while her mind had no clue where that was or how to get there. It threatened to tear her apart from the inside. (And she still had twenty days to go.)
She'd decided to heed the fisherman's advice. The fish she'd inadvertently bought sat in her lap, slender and silvery, while her free fingers traced along its flank, up and down, in time with the waves. She was sure the smell of it must've seeped into her skin by now. She didn't particularly care. Everything smelled like fish here. What she did care about was the shape of the thing's scales, their arrangement, the way they tapered around the tail, they way they laid against the skin. Smooth one way, rough the other. Her motion was repetitive, meditative, almost hypnotic.
The fish was a simple creature, nothing so exciting as the monstrosities she'd thought would keep her imagination occupied. But there was something alluring in that simplicity, something raw and formidable. Its was sleek and powerful, twelve inches of pure muscle, in a compact and streamlined body that Marion was sure once cut through water like a knife through butter. It was almost a shame to see it limp and rotting now, but there were, quite literally, more fish in the sea. This one just happened to fall prey to a more intelligent predator. But that didn't mean it was somehow inferior, did it? The human form was soft, fleshy, and slow. Imperfect. The only things humans really had going for them, Marion reasoned, were their capacity for improvement and the intelligence to realize that potential.
That was the real beauty of morphing, she thought, not the artistic hokey her father had gone on and on about. Applicable knowledge was the real art of it. And the pursuit of perfection. There was a singular form to be pieced together that would outweigh any nightmares of the imagination. Marion was sure of it. She would become it, limitless, everything -- she owed Ssena that much. And she would unleash that world-ending shape. It would the the paramount truth, undeniable and, unlike those monsters she'd heard so many tales of today, horrifyingly real.
(A girl had to have goals.)
But today the simple fish was enough.
Wood boards groaned under shifted weight as she laid the fish beside her feet and stood, motionless, pale eyes scanning the empty and churning horizon. She could see the edge of the world from here. What waited there?
After a few ticks, she shuffled backwards a couple paces and began working at the strings of her shirt, pulling it over her head and exposing her arms and bare midriff to the buffeting wind. The air off the bay was cool, threatening to raise bumps along her skin and only getting colder while the sun sank behind dark clouds. She spared only a moment to fold the shirt and drop it to the ground before kicking off her boots and trousers, positioning them in such a way as to minimize the chances of them being blown into the water.
If some far-off stranger saw her, half-naked in the breeze, they didn't make it known. Marion closed her eyes, a hum playing at the back of her throat, a soft string of noises that helped to aim her focus as she shifted through her consciousness. She probed with a mental hand, pulling her djed forward, a bundle of icy cords that held together the fabric of who she was. She brushed against it gently, feeling it tremble against her mind, bending in anticipation of her will.
And at her will her djed swayed and shuddered to life with a sick joy, twisting itself around Marion's gut and weaving into her veins. There it pulsated, filling every crevice of her body with its icy tendrils until it was no longer her body but the physical manifestation of potential. It was anything she had the will to become. She could see that body in her mind's eye, doughy and pink, with soft lines and and bouncing blonde hair. Next to it the form of the fish rested like living metal, all silver scales and hard muscle.
An intoxicating sense of power blossomed in her chest, and under her command the fabric of her being was altered, like a stroke of new color across a canvas. Fat shrank and hardened, compacting on top of and supplementing already existing muscle. Hair melded with flesh to create a smooth surface of skin. A prickling sensation spread across much of her body -- back, chest, shoulders, scalp, thighs, shins -- where small and curved flakes of skin peeled upward. They were delicate at first, like butterfly wings, but soon hardened into some semblance of the smooth scales by which her fingers had been so enraptured just moments ago, though these looked more like fingernails than anything else.
It was then that the sky, roiling with dark intent above, decided to fall and a single heavy drop of rain splattered against her newly formed scales and slithered down her back. Marion's eyes jarred open at the contact, and after glaring a moment at the clouds, she stooped to grasp the edge of the dock and lowered her body into the water. Waves lapped at her back, clinging to the hardened flesh there just as she clung to the wood, and she was grateful for the strength of her added muscle that kept her from being swept into the tide. Going in feet first was an uncomfortable sensation, with water pushing against the grain of the scales. Marion fought to maintain a separation between the mind and the body amid the unpleasantness of it.
The transformation wasn't complete, but to finish it she needed to be free-floating in the water, unanchored. The thought wasn't entirely appealing, considering she'd never truly swum in her life, and especially not in open waters. Her bells spent in the Sunken Conundrum as a child didn't count -- that had never really been "swimming" so much as floating and flailing around. There had been no sense of urgency or risk of danger there. But here, in this water, there were no illusions. If she tried breathing this water, she would die.
Of course, that wouldn't stop her. Marion knew what she wanted to do, and she was going to do it. Fear would not hamper her.
She let her hands slip from the wooden edge of the dock.