51st of winter, 515 a.v.
early morning
They awoke before dawn, scattering dirt and mud into the remainders of the bonfire and then leaving the scraps of the previous night’s feast to be consumed by the jungle. It was a short affair, and they were on the move within minutes of waking up; the forest was still dark and foreboding, but the Myrians navigated it as if nothing was different.
Shahar felt sick. It wasn’t the same as scurvy, which made his bones ache and his stomach turn; there was no physical ailment that was making him feel unwell. It was last night that made his throat tighten. It was his mind that was sickened by what had happened, not his body; his physical stomach felt stronger than ever, filled with the first meat he’d had in what felt like years. Meat was strong food, and he had recovered enough to stomach it––crave it, even. His body was thriving on last night’s feast.
But his mind was screaming at his stomach to vomit, to rid himself of what he had done. It is meat, his body said, and there was no reason to let it go. But it’s human! his mind repeated, over and over.
His body did not listen. His body did not care. The Myrians would glance at him occasionally, questions in the lines of their body, and would try to hide their amused smiles. They could tell that it had been his first human flesh. They were wondering if he could keep it down.
They reached the village just as the sun was staining the sky gray. Most of the villagers were still asleep, but the hunting party seemed not to care; they all split up to find their various tasks, because he was learning that while Myrians were many things, they were not lazy. There were always things to do, even in the morning.
And he had his own tasks to attend to. He hadn’t planned on staying out all night; the traders would be leaving today with the horses, and he needed to go with them. Shahar was good with horses, and they knew it; he would be paid for keeping their merchandise under control until they reached someplace called “Taloba,” which was apparently a great city that lay deep in the jungle. He needed to get to the horses and rouse them for the journey, and he needed to gather the others. There were so many things he needed to do, and he shifted all of his focus to what lay ahead.
If he focused, he wouldn’t have to think about what he had already done.
early morning
They awoke before dawn, scattering dirt and mud into the remainders of the bonfire and then leaving the scraps of the previous night’s feast to be consumed by the jungle. It was a short affair, and they were on the move within minutes of waking up; the forest was still dark and foreboding, but the Myrians navigated it as if nothing was different.
Shahar felt sick. It wasn’t the same as scurvy, which made his bones ache and his stomach turn; there was no physical ailment that was making him feel unwell. It was last night that made his throat tighten. It was his mind that was sickened by what had happened, not his body; his physical stomach felt stronger than ever, filled with the first meat he’d had in what felt like years. Meat was strong food, and he had recovered enough to stomach it––crave it, even. His body was thriving on last night’s feast.
But his mind was screaming at his stomach to vomit, to rid himself of what he had done. It is meat, his body said, and there was no reason to let it go. But it’s human! his mind repeated, over and over.
His body did not listen. His body did not care. The Myrians would glance at him occasionally, questions in the lines of their body, and would try to hide their amused smiles. They could tell that it had been his first human flesh. They were wondering if he could keep it down.
They reached the village just as the sun was staining the sky gray. Most of the villagers were still asleep, but the hunting party seemed not to care; they all split up to find their various tasks, because he was learning that while Myrians were many things, they were not lazy. There were always things to do, even in the morning.
And he had his own tasks to attend to. He hadn’t planned on staying out all night; the traders would be leaving today with the horses, and he needed to go with them. Shahar was good with horses, and they knew it; he would be paid for keeping their merchandise under control until they reached someplace called “Taloba,” which was apparently a great city that lay deep in the jungle. He needed to get to the horses and rouse them for the journey, and he needed to gather the others. There were so many things he needed to do, and he shifted all of his focus to what lay ahead.
If he focused, he wouldn’t have to think about what he had already done.