Timestamp: 83rd Autumn, 510
If travel had given her anything more than callouses, it would have to have been access to information. What she had been unable to ask while pregnant was now offered, often without her asking. She still found the process difficult, often torn between thankfulness and annoyance, depending on how the assistance was given or pressed upon her. Women who would have once left her alone for the most part now seemed to consider her one of them, albeit one without a husband and thus of a slightly lower, sadder stock. This, she was used to. It was just slightly less avoidable than before.
The experience was strange, she often did not feel any different than before. The only thing that had changed was her number of relatives and the number of people she cared for. She had been told that motherhood was transformative but she still felt as foolish and stubborn as she had when her son and daughter had been but a twinkle in her eye. Some days she felt as if she were perhaps worse than she had been because that illuminating candle remained unlit and if she was unchanged, did that mean there was something wrong with her? Was she a bad mother, if she felt overwhelmed? She would have wished for a book on the subject, save the fact she could not read.
She would have dreaded her return to Endrykas, were it not for the fact that she knew people there. Well, that in itself was reason to worry. She was not worried about seeing her friends, at least. She longed to see Khiara again and hear her stories, she wanted to sing with Hel and Kayiri, if he had the time.
She let her legs dangle over the edge of the caravan she sat upon, knowing she was almost at Endrykas, finally. Travel was not so enjoyable with children, though admittedly, she was letting someone else's child ride her horse for practice. She was not sure Pon was going to forgive her for it anytime soon. He was not used to hooning around in the grass, even if he had enjoyed it for the first few days. Ever since meeting Mao, excitement had become anathema to him.
Dhanya closed her eyes, Ouin swaddled up safely and Katya at her breast, breathing in the scent of grass and horses. Though they had not enjoyed their first few days of travel, time among the grass seemed to calm them. Truly they were children of the Sea.