4th Bell of the 1st of Summer 517
Following the events of Rose Colored
Following the events of Rose Colored
She was drowning in a sea wild and angry. Arms struggled against the waves, pumping and reaching for anything that might help her break the surface. Lungs ached desperate for air. Her mouth opened, body ready to betray her despite knowing if she did it she would die. A part of her knew it was senseless to struggle for life. That the surface was too far, the waves were too angry, and there was nothing but a vast empty ocean surrounding her. Her mind cried for her to just give in and take a breath. Lungs would fill with water and she would die from the inside out. Pass without anyone knowing she had ever existed.
She wandered so close to death. So close to giving up, but her heart was in living. She gathered what strength she had left and kicked hard while pumping her arms up with fingers splayed towards the sky. A strangled cry, a desperate plea, was released into the unforgiving depths. All she had left was given up and she watched as the darkness swallowed her whole. No one answered her cry.
Black. The color of darkness, the absence of all light, surrounded her.
She was unsure how she remained aware. How her mind processed thoughts at all anymore. Death had come to claim her had it not? Flashes came in reminder of the water pulling her under. Down and down she went after finally giving her lungs what they had so desired. If it had had time the salt might have killed her first. There had been so much of it threatening to consume her the long way. Perhaps she had been lucky that the liquid worked faster. It had flooded in and choked out all of the remaining life within her. All the light she had possessed, snuffed out before getting the chance to shine.
“Rina! You are here! You came!” nameless was the child who cheered.
The Ethaefal cringed back with terror and confusion as the girl came and wrapped her arms around her. The girl looked different than Taurina had ever seen her before. Her hair went unbound, not a wrap or knot in sight, and her eyes were blue. So blue.. Like the ocean that had just consumed the one she now embraced. That gaze that tore out secrets and destroyed souls had always been blue, but blue like the daytime sky. Now it was blue like the night. A shiver rippled through Taurina.
“Where is here?” she asked, her voice reaching out like an echo into a space void of all things.
“It is where I live,” the child spoke as if it were the most real and normal thing in the world.
“But you… you are nothing..” Taurina’s voice shook that time, unsure as something invisible gripped her.
Fear. The emotion that most frequently drew the little nameless child out of the deepest corner of the Ethaefal’s mind. A shiver spread through her once more. This was her greatest fear. To be trapped in an empty eternity with only her inner darkness for company.
“That is not true. I am not your greatest fear,” the child’s voice had turned cruel, cold.
Taurina balled her fists tight as if she was going to fight, but her heart thundered with the terror that filled her. She wanted to go home. Where had her family been when she was drowning? Why had they not saved her?
“They could not hear you Rina,” it was not the child’s voice that spoke, “you are ours now.”
Taurina felt her body go rigid at the sound of that voice. Male. She had heard him before. When she dared to look she saw the face of the one who had threatened her. Who had thrown insults into her face after taunting her throughout the day. She had not given him what he wanted and now.. now she feared he was going to take it anyway.
“Go.. Stay away,” the Ethaefal’s voice was quiet and weak.
A cruel smile curled on those lips. The male came forward and closed the gap. He reach out and captured her hands within his. Though she tried to yank away, she could not. She was frozen. His fingers were running over her palms, the backs of her hands, and lacing with her own.
“Such gentle hands,” his words were cold, calculated, spoken with anger.
The male was not trying to woo her this time.
“Let me go,” the Ethaefal’s voice failed her.
“No.”
A squeak made its way out of her before hands were suddenly all over her. His hands. Ripping and tearing clothe to reveal flesh as an invisible force rendered her powerless to do anything. He was moving on her, against her. Preparing to take all he desired that had not been given to him. His revenge for her refusal the first time. He shoved her down to the ground. The Ethaefal felt herself falling until she hit something hard and cold. Hands came down on her again, this time finding her throat.
“You will not force me away again,” a command growled by a voice so cruel and drunk on the power its owner wielded, “You. Are. Mine.”
~
“No!” Taurina woke with a shout.
The Ethaefal clutched her chest as breaths came in ragged gasps. Her heart was beating like the thundering hooves of a thousand stampeding striders. Sweat could be felt sliding down the sides of her face and pooling near the bottom of her spine most, but it covered every inch of her as she shook from her terror. She wanted to cry. She did cry. Whether it was from fear of the nightmare or from relief that it had only been that was unclear even to her. She felt like throwing up. If this form had had food within its stomach she might have done just that.
Taurina was not even aware of when she had allowed herself to fall asleep. It was so rare that she slept during the night. She remembered returning in the evening of the day before after that miserable afternoon at work and crawled into her section of the Stormblood home. Like she had been daydreaming during a majority of the too hot day, she had unclothed herself and rested against the floor of her area aimlessly sketching out some remedial figures as it was all she had felt she could handle after the day’s trials. Even after washing her hand at least half a dozen times she had still been able to feel the remnants of him on her skin. She wanted him gone, all memory of him erased, but her mind was cruel to her and did not care for her wishes.
That same hand gripped the Ethaefal’s chest now as she struggled to breath. She did not cease to shake or to cry. She just wanted to forget. Forget and never see him again. The thought of him coming back to get the fade job repair completed sent a wave of strangled sobs from her throat. What if he came and did not respect her wishes next time? What if he made good on his threat that it was not over between them? What if the nightmare became reality? What if what he did made the nightmare look like a pleasant dream?
Taurina moved her blanket away from where it was tangled up between her legs and drew her knees up to her chest. She clutched them close, making herself as small as she could in her taller, celestial form. In this form, she knew she could not just go unnoticed. She was taller, but not only that, she was beautiful. Her body forged by those who were not of this world. When she was out under Leth’s light she even had an almost opalescent glow to her that reflected her god’s domain. It just made it harder to be small, invisible. She did not normally desire to be, not in this body, but tonight she did. Tonight she wanted to just fade out of existence.
Tangled tendrils of ink black hair stuck to her unclothed body and snagged on the horns that grew from her temples that were now a green ombre. Summer had come, the change of the season had happened and her form simply reflected it. Summer. The season of her fall. Taurina gripped her legs tighter. If the male had not been enough.. she had that to remember as well. Tomorrow. She would let herself remember that tomorrow. Tonight she rubbed her swollen eyes and covered her miserable face. Another sob ripped through her. Manners about not wanting to wake anyone slumbering in the pavilion forgotten in this moment of grief and fear.
The Ethaefal’s imagination ran wild with her. Playing out all of what he might do to her and reminding her that there were things she likely did not know of. Horrors even she could not bring herself to dream up. Another tremor of terror. How was she going to keep it from happening? When he returned for that blasted work to be finished, how was she going to ensure he left without touching her again? How was she going to get away if he did take hold of her and decided her hand was not enough? She did not know the answers. That was what scared her most of all.
Common | Pavi | 'Thoughts'