3rd Day of Winter in the Year 517 AV
Having just recently established a place to live and even a way to earn an income, Ialari took some time to do, as she'd witnessed so many others in Syka doing, a bit of relaxation. Stretched out on a hammock hanging from the overhang over the deck of her ranchero, she looked out over the water and sighed.
Thinking to herself, something that was almost a hobby for her, she pondered her presence in this odd place called, Syka. Alright, so I've made it here. The feeling that called to me has faded a bit but is still there. Now what? I've traveled to the far east coast only to be led back almost to the point where this all started. She thought of the long journey from the Kingdom, across the Suvan Sea, through Syliras to the Island of Sahova. Her quest for the answer to the question of who she was and why she felt so "not right" led her then back to the east through Nyka then to Riverfall and now to Syka. It even led her to the Ukalas itself and still she searched. With each new location, there was always a purpose as well as a new piece to the great puzzle.
Yet now, as she lay in the hammock, the warm breeze blowing in from the water, she felt at a loss for how to proceed. Somewhere in the tropical paradise around her lay the source of the odd feeling that called to her as if there were somehow a piece of her buried somewhere in the surounding jungle. The feeling however was too vague to describe and there was no real direction now to follow to continue the search; it was as if she had ran into a wall at the end of a long hallway with no other place to go.
How do I find the source of this feeling? It's not like I can just walk around asking the people here if they have a similar feeling when I don't even fully understand it myself. Could the source be a person? If so, do they have the same feeling? If not, how can I find them if they aren't even aware of what is going on? If it's not a person and instead an object or place, how would I even know where to find it or how to identify it? As was common when she talked to herself either aloud or in her own head, there was always another voice. It was the voice of her inner self, the same one that had been given manifestation within her Dominion. The spiritual remains of the ancient, long dead wizard, Amir Berliotz who had invaded her broken soul in an attempt to rip the secrets of Dominion from her. No longer a separate entity, Berliotz now existed as a culmination of shattered memories and muted feelings blended with her own psyche; he was a representation of her deepest thoughts, feelings and desires.
Although this inner self only manifested within her Dominion, the shade of Berliotz would often speak within her own mind. Even though it was essentially Ialari having a discussion with herself, the shade often helped her to interpret and understand her own thoughts and helped her work through problems. Thus it spoke to her again.
Perhaps you aren't approaching this from the right perspective. The voice said to her. You don't know who or what you are looking for, right? Maybe then focus on a way to get them to look for you.
Ialari considered the words for a moment, And just how would I do that? If it is a person and they, like me don't know the source of the feeling, how could I bridge that gap. Plus, what if they are unaware of anything at all and don't feel what I feel? How do I open them to it? If it isn't a person, this whole line of thinking is pointless to begin with. She knew talking to the shade was the same as talking to herself but she couldn't help but think of it as a separate person. It made the whole thing seem somehow less insane.
This isn't as difficult as you are making it out to be, Ialari. How did Kavala help you open up to this feeling to begin with? The shade pushed her to think harder.
Ialari frowned as she became more irritated. I am not a Dreamwalker, nor would it help anyway since I don't know who or what to even attempt it on if I was marked in such a way.
The voice of the shade, ever patient as it also represented Ialari's sometimes muted sense of isurian calm tried again. You are not thinking fourth dimensionally. Kavala helped uncover a tiny piece of a past incarnation that was hidden from you. She did this by helping you open your mind to what you would otherwise not be able to comprehend. Have you not done something similar on your own? Think of your Dominion. Think of how you were able to anchor it within the Ukalas and claim it as your own. Think of how you established your connection with it, your bond. Then think of how you expanded on that bond and were able to bend it to your will.
I focused on a certain goal, cleared my mind and allowed the Dominion to fill my senses while at the same time giving bits of myself to it. What the shade was trying to get her to understand was beginning to dawn on her.
You cleared your mind and allowed yourself to see the connection between you and your Dominion. What if... The shade was interrupted by Ialari.
What if I were to help the people here find a similar state of mental clarity; help them to see that connection between all things living and not. If the source is a person, maybe this would help them to open themselves to the feeling and thus bring them in search of me just as I search for them. It was becoming clear for Ialari what she needed to do.
The shade continued her thoughts. And if the source is not a person, by opening up the people's minds, perhaps you will find someone who has an idea on what the source could be and where to find it.
A smile finally crossing her face, her frown and irritation vanishing, Ialari turned her thoughts to what to do next. I could craft an item that would act as a focus for meditation. It could allow others to find the right meditative state and experience a similar sense of the interconnectiveness of all things. Not only would it help enhance the feeling of peace and serenity that this place gives off but it would open the people up to all manner of mental and spiritual awakenings while providing me with, if nothing else, a possible direction for where to go next. Perfect.
The shade did not speak again on the matter as Ialari finally realized what she had to do. She would craft an item, impart upon it her ability to find mental clarity even through the harshest of situations as well as her altered sense of her surroundings granted through her bond with her Dominion. It would be a taxing process but in the end would accomplish several things at once.
Sliding out of her hammock, she went inside to gather her things before going for a stroll. She would need to find just the right material for crafting the physical object to be imparted on.