Timestamp: Autumn 33, 518 AV
The sky held scars. They were thick jagged stretches of lights that would appear and disappear within seconds of each other offering flashes of light that illuminated the otherwise Stygian atmosphere.
Zuhre was reaching for the stars that surrounded her, trying to lure them closer to her. They resembled fireflies, turning on and off their glow, twinkling in rhythm with every breath she inhaled; every breath she exhaled.
Some of the stars had started to draw closer to others until they were almost in contact with one another. They started to make up a thick mass much like a stream of water if every particle of light was like a molecule of water. No one star twinkled at the same time, sending the stream into a sort of glittering effect.
Zuhre was mesmerized. She dared not to blink, her focus captivated by the show being performed before her. She felt like she was floating, like she really was swimming in a stream, a stream of stars.
One particle of light soon began to grow, sending off heat waves that kissed her cheeks. It quickly shot above her head, and tore through the sky: another thick scar marring the darkness. As it reached a point too far for her to see, it suddenly exploded, sending sparks flying in all different directions.
She felt at home up in the sky. She felt like she belonged here. The stars were surrounding her, comforting her, hugging her at all angles. They made sure she felt safe. But they soon become suffocating. The blanket of light wrapped around her too tightly, pushing out all the air she held in her lungs. It was all too much. What was happening? Why was her home suddenly feeling too small, too tight, like it was telling her something?
Like she didn’t belong anymore?
Zuhre was no longer swimming in the stream, and there were no more bright lights igniting the space around her. It was dark. It was so dark and so quiet. Her own thoughts sounded like waterfalls expelling thousands of gallons of water from their peaks. And she still couldn’t breathe.
Water was filling up her nostrils, and her mouth sucked in litres of icy cold water. Panic began to set in, clouding her mind as all but one thought was picked for her undivided attention.
She was drowning.
Zuhre started to claw at the water around her in any and all attempts at trying to find the surface. There was nothing to base her position off of. There were no lights, there were no shadows, there was nothing. There was just her and the bleakness encompassing her.
And her lungs continued to burn something awful. And her eyes started to grow heavy. And her cheeks bulged so far out from her face that the pain became too excruciating and she opened her mouth. Water filled her body like thick tendrils of fate, consuming her life force until there was nothing more than just an empty shell in a capacious space of black.
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Her heart raged, striking the inside of her chest as it pounded up and down, up and down. She tried to breathe, raking in the crisp morning air, finding it a challenge to consciously understand that it was air she was trying to inhale and not water.
She propelled herself up from her bed, throwing her legs over the side. She placed her hands on either side of her body for stability, still under the impression that if she didn’t, she would surely start drowning again.
She hung her head and her eyelids fell gently to a close. That was the second nightmare in a row and they didn’t seem like they were going to stop anytime soon.
Zuhre tried to picture herself back up in the sky, past the clouds, past the sky and into that realm of stars and streams and surrealism. It was a picture, a snapshot of time that yet, still moved seamlessly for a short period of time as though it was on a loop.
Envisioning this masterpiece gave her some sort of solace, some sense of belonging. It also calmed her breathing, and relieved her heart from its astonishingly fast thumping. Altering her focus from the image to her surroundings allowed her to transmute her awareness, to bridge the proverbial temporal gap between the real world and the world she had created.
As she opened her eyes, she was not welcomed by the glow of stars, but neither was she met with complete and total darkness. The room that presented itself to her was just as she had left it the night before, only a small streak of light had filtered in from the window adjacent from her, illuminating the unit like the stars in her dream ultimately had.
She may not have been in the safety of the celestial realm above, but she was safe here. And ‘here’ was good enough for her.