Fragile. Oresnya knew she was just that, but she felt no shame in it. There were so many good things in life that were. A fresh cut flower, children and their laughter, the light of dawn. Life itself was fragile.
Oresnya had had far too many reminders of that. Death was the way of life in Kalinor. In order for new life to begin, another had to be lost. Oresnya’s sisters, by birth and not but both blood regardless, had lost their lives bringing children into the world. Oresnya’s second sister had come from Wind Reach, and Oresnya’s efforts to not let Yora be forgotten had brought her to this city. And ever since her arrival, the city and its people had smothered her efforts.
It was through no grand schemes of malicious intent but rather a fundamental difference in their understanding of the way things were. In Kalinor, family meant everything. It was the most revered focus. In Wind Reach, the concept hardly existed. It wouldn’t be in Yora’s blood relatives that Oresnya would find someone to keep Yora’s memory alive. No. It would be in those who knew her, who worked with her day to day, who understood her passions and loves. But Oresnya had had no opportunities to seek those people out. Until the party. The Inclement Weather was holding a party for everyone in Mt. Skyinarta. Everyone.
It would be a good opportunity for Oresnya to scan them all for people who reminded her of Yora. Their close bred nature though would make that difficult. Every Inarta had pale skin and red hair, but Yora had had a very unique smile and a light to her eyes that couldn’t be forgotten. It was the little things that Oresnya would watch for, specific subtleties in the face and the right mannerisms. The latter of those would be the most telling. Those who spent the most time with Yora, the ones most likely to have cared for her, would be the ones who had picked up those mannerisms from her or given them to her. Oresnya knew she had.
So earlier that day, she had prepared herself for the gathering. In eavesdropping on Felicity and her apprentices, Oresnya had learned that attendees were to be on equal footing. No caste mattered, because no one was supposed to look like themselves. If she understood the rapid fire Nari correctly, everyone would be in white, and everyone would be masked. Oresnya had neither, and she knew anonymity would be close to unachievable for her. She could cover herself from head to foot, hide the color of her skin and her eyes and her hair, but she couldn’t change the length of her limbs and her fingers. There was nothing wrong with Symenestra limbs. They were perfect length, but everyone else’s were too short.
Still, Oresnya didn’t wish to insult anyone by not observing the rules of the party. Being what she was, a Widow, had already removed her from everyone’s good graces. She didn’t need to make that any worse, so she had purchased several long strips of white cloth, some narrow and some broad, from Felicity as well as a pair of white leggings and gloves. Felicity’s price was fair. She saw no need to coddle the Chiet under her but no need to cheat them either. The several jars of face paste she bought though, she knew she deeply overpaid for, but it was worth it for the opportunity to see everyone in Wind Reach.
At home, she had covered any bit of skin that would be left showing by her costume tonight, including her lips and around her eyes, her midriff, and her feet and hands. Then, she had braided small locks of her hair haphazardly about her head. She hadn’t had the funds or the time to find a mask, so she wrapped one of the small strips of cloth around her head, pulling the wild braids through. The final effect made her cobweb-colored hair appear as if it were part of the headdress. The wider cloth, Oresnya wrapped around her chest, creating a makeshift vinati with a small bow at the nape of her neck. Several more strips made wraps around her forearms and calves. She left her feet and hands uncovered and, newly disguised, stepped out into the halls, following the general flow of people to find her way to the club she had never been to.
As Oresnya drew closer and closer to the venue, the halls became more packed with people. Crowds were not Oresnya’s place of comfort. The Symenestra frame was more fragile than most. The jostle of a normal crowd could break bones. A wild crowd could be fatal. Never having attended a Wind Reach party, Oresnya didn’t know what to expect, but at the sound of the music coming from within Inclement Weather, she guessed parties weren’t usually mild-mannered affairs. To avoid being bruised and battered, she let the current crowd pass her by and, using the opportunity of their absence, scaled the wall quickly to the ceiling. In the act, she knew her anonymity was broken, but the position offered her a better view of everyone’s faces, at least what little bits she could see. Still, there were smiles on the eyes and lips of the anticipatory crowd that remained only half-hidden by masks, and in some of them, Oresnya found familiarity.
Once she had neared the doors to the club, she attempted to turn herself over to gain a better vantage, but the motion was a clumsy one. It seemed like the long year away from the silk streets of Kalinor and the season away from the riggings of a ship had dulled the naturally acrobatic edge her race had. Oresnya had to swing her arm backward several times to finally catch the wall, the hooks in her hands holding her in place as soon as contact was made. All about her, the people and the crowd seemed to pulse with excitement to the music that emanated from within.
The throb of the beat aroused her, and Oresnya was reminded of her loneliness, her desperate need for human interaction. In Kalinor, she was surrounded by family and love. Here, she was a pariah, an outsider, Widow. But the throb of the music was familiar in a way as well. She was reminded of the single time she had been taken on a hunt and been allowed to deliver the killing bite. Her uncles had found her small prey, cornered it, and wounded it. The throb of the music was like the throb of blood in the creature’s neck just before her teeth sank deep into it. A myriad of feelings had accompanied that moment. Power, lust, hunger. Shame. Oresnya had vowed never to take another life again. At that thought, she couldn’t be sure whether it was hunger or arousal, Oresnya felt her venom glands quiver, and a dot rose to the tip of each fang.
It didn’t take long for Oresnya to recognize the process in place for selection for entry to the party. The figures in black held all the power here. Even the Endal were stripped of their rank, and for a moment, Oresnya smiled, feeling safe behind her mask until one of the figures in black looked up and matched her smile. Immediately, Oresnya’s smile left her face, and she sent a silent prayer to Viratas, begging not to be chosen. She had come to the partying hoping only to observe, then slip away unnoticed. A small part of her, that part being every fiber of her being, wanted to run away, to go hide in the safety of her home.
But she saw in the chooser’s eyes a smile she had not seen in its exactness since the day her sister had passed. So she stayed and prayed once more that she would not be chosen, the hope of that fragile in her mind.