OOCSorry, I've been a little tied up the last few days. I'm going to try and post as much as possible from now! Oh, and I think I might've typed this post 3 different ways before it came out this way.
Derric hardly blinked as he walked through the door. He'd all ready gone past being surprised. He had all ready gave up hope that some place on this petched-up ship would turn out to make sense. Sure, he'd been expecting a room, not some seemingly infinite expanse of land, but when it came to this ship, the two were really the same. He looked out at the desert that suddenly unfolded before him. For the first time since boarding the ship, the illusion, despite being the most extravagant yet, failed to captivate the performer. Rather, his eyes almost seemed to show disinterest, his face was, in a way, impassive. At last, after a few moments of saying nothing, he grinned. As the other's began to speak, Derric just sat in place, smiling and altogether uninterested
Of course, his obvious disinterest could have seemed insane to the other people standing nearby, but Derric couldn't care less. What they thought didn't matter. Nothing did, really. They could die right there, right then. Maybe it was the heat, maybe it was the stress and utter confusion of the last, god, who knows how long, of having his perceptions tricked. Quite possibly, Derric had just lost his mind. Suddenly, he looked towards Senessa. The insane grin on her face, the mad glint in her eyes. How she just sat there not caring. Was this how she'd become so crazy? Was she an example of what they'd all be turned into over time?
All the logic in Derric's mind struggled to regain control. No, they wouldn't. They couldn't end up like that. He blinked, his entire face changing as if the real, non-insane, Derric had simply returned and re-assumed control. He continued staring at the Symenestra as he spoke, his voice kept so low that the woman might not have even heard, "This is what it's like, isn't it." Suddenly, Derric began to sympathize for her, as though he'd reached a new level of understanding. "All of this," he said, motioning to the illusory scene around them, "is what caused you to be the way you are. That's right, isn't it? You seem not to care because, to you, it doesn't matter any more. There is no reality in that twisted head that your mind calls home. Tell me then, is it worth it?" Only a little while ago, Derric had felt the need to gain mastery over illusions. He'd thought nothing of the consequences, only of the advantages that the skills would bring him. But, where those benefits really worth going insane? Could anything be worth becoming something like the Symenestra seated before him?
For the time being, Derric pushed the thoughts aside. The threat of going insane, and the dream of becoming an illusionist, were worries for another time. For right then, however, all that mattered was getting out alive. Because, that did matter. Not dying was a priority, even though it might not have been one for the Symenestra. Completely ignoring the actions of Pain, and the revival attempt on Curn, Derric thought back to anything that might help them get out. The immediate, blatantly obvious solution was to imagine it all away. The performer quickly plopped to the ground, closing his eyes in the process. The key, he said to himself, is to believe. If he could convince himself that none of this was real, why wouldn't it go away? It was just like breathing underwater; the illusion could only affect him if he let it. Right?
In an almost meditative state, Derric began picturing a simple ship cabin in his mind. He tried to focus on every detail, making it look as real as a thought possibly could. He pictured a bookshelf in one corner, completely filled with supplies and other tools. On the other side, he envisioned a cot where a sailor might sleep. Moving away from the visual details, Derric focused on the other senses. Trying to replace the soft, burning hot sand with the cool, hard surface of wood. He thought of the smell of the sea. Of the aroma of salt water from below deck. It was all of these things that Derric tried to bring together in his head. And, once they were there, he tried to believe that he was there with them. As he did this, he added more details to the imaginary scene. He could almost hear the clatter of dishes and the noise of chatter as the crew dined somewhere else. In the black canvas that was the back of his eyelids, Derric painted out the scene. Focusing on every detail until he had completely zoned out. He did it until, at last, he actually believed that he was sitting in the cabin. Finally, almost having completely forgotten the desert, the performer opened his eyes, not at all certain of what he'd find. But, then again, it wasn't like either situation could be any more surprising than what they'd all ready been through. |