When was the last time he had fallen so utterly in love?
It takes a moment to think back, that thinking back an uncovering of something he’d interred now some three-going-on-four-is-it-nearly-five? years past. It might have been, perhaps, when he’d first walked unimpeded into Ravok, into the city proper, onto the Docks and passed through quite fairly on accident to the Merchant’s Ring, stumbled inwards in aesthetic escalation to the Noble quarters of the city, from which he’d taken a ravosala nowhere in particular, just because a driver at that moment had prompted. The vessel had turned and on the new bend of the canal another ravosala had approached, lithe and languid, bearing a masked woman in a dress constructed of flurries of hammered satin and strewn with jewels, like a rose in bloom, laden with dew. Flanking her on all sides were three male companions, all also masked and in sleek suits of black, the only variance between them the colored cravats at their necks. They were in no hurry, the party goers, nor was their driver - it was as if the ritual necessitated this, the promenade, the display of the body and in turn the mind, even the interims of their night a cause for celebration.
Ravok had been a moment - but it had not been so all-encompassing nor so mindless as what’s come over him now. Going deeper, then, past the iron and bedrock, to an old, dormant core - and he remembers, suddenly, a time when he was 20 and a Sunberthian scoundrel had distinguished himself above all the rest. Of all admirable traits, Halston Grimes had a fair hand at burglary, a fairer one at cards, and to look upon had been quite fair himself. In retrospect, Halston’s qualifications for the level of devotion Caspian had poured into him had been quotidian at best, making the memory all the more - not exactly regrettable, but too keenly representative of how addled one might be if 20 and in love.
Caspian supposes it was the mandolin and the occasional crooning that had won him over.
Here and now, then - is it the euphonious timbre of The Voice alone that so tightly seems to grip him by his throat?
The story of The Voice’s coming to be are a funeral dirge, two thousand years’ worth of unabated verse and refrain. In two thousand years, does the memory get any easier? Or even just the retelling?
Would he have poisoned his stepfather Taaldros? He hadn’t, though, really hadn’t even tried, had gone so far as to imagine skulking into his room and slitting his throat, swiftly enough that the deed would be done before the creaking floorboards could give him away. But he hadn’t done that either, had only scrounged enough desperation to run away some small handful of times, and one of those would have been deadly if not for Shiress. So he admires The Voice ever more now, though trepidation creeps silently upon him - for one can love and fear in equal measure.
The sudden mention of Taldera, though, is The Voice’s grip leaving his throat, only to plunge a dagger into his heart.
Countless nights in Sunberth, he’d shut his eyes against the moonlight and tried to conjure up the visage of his father Haalram in Avanthal. It had been easy at first, something to reach for when Taaldros had been ghastly, when Zhassel was transfigured into a contorted snarl, when the brutes ransacked the rum on the floor below and even Taalviel had presented to him an expression unreachable and seemingly of love devoid. But as the years passed it became more difficult to remember the length of his father’s hair, his beard, his gait - and after a time, even his voice, and the degrees to which in vibrato he bent his fiddle’s pitch.
Then the time came for leaving, and instead of Avanthal as he’d first dreamt of returning -
He ended up here, in Ravok, a city gleaming with obsidian light.
He might have left any time, continued heading north and west - but he hadn’t, just as he hadn’t poisoned his stepfather, or ended his life as many might have agreed he deserved. In Ravok his life was filled with parties and plays, gavottes and gowns, sugar and steam and all else besides - why leave what he could and can see, in favor of a great unknown?
The idea that he might suddenly be whisked away to the place he spent years declaring he’d return to after violently being ripped away, then years no longer declaring but instead dampening, has him reeling.
“Where-“ Caspian’s voice cracks. Reddening slightly, he coughs and clears his throat. “Where in Taldera, exactly?”
Of course Rohka will go. It hadn’t taken the light batting against Hauk for him to know that, her devotion to the city’s theocracy written into her being from the moment they’d met. And wherever she goes - would he not follow?
Happiness is where you left it, the dice had told the both of them.
How often do fortune tellers get to see their prophecies spun out in the flesh?
It takes a moment to think back, that thinking back an uncovering of something he’d interred now some three-going-on-four-is-it-nearly-five? years past. It might have been, perhaps, when he’d first walked unimpeded into Ravok, into the city proper, onto the Docks and passed through quite fairly on accident to the Merchant’s Ring, stumbled inwards in aesthetic escalation to the Noble quarters of the city, from which he’d taken a ravosala nowhere in particular, just because a driver at that moment had prompted. The vessel had turned and on the new bend of the canal another ravosala had approached, lithe and languid, bearing a masked woman in a dress constructed of flurries of hammered satin and strewn with jewels, like a rose in bloom, laden with dew. Flanking her on all sides were three male companions, all also masked and in sleek suits of black, the only variance between them the colored cravats at their necks. They were in no hurry, the party goers, nor was their driver - it was as if the ritual necessitated this, the promenade, the display of the body and in turn the mind, even the interims of their night a cause for celebration.
Ravok had been a moment - but it had not been so all-encompassing nor so mindless as what’s come over him now. Going deeper, then, past the iron and bedrock, to an old, dormant core - and he remembers, suddenly, a time when he was 20 and a Sunberthian scoundrel had distinguished himself above all the rest. Of all admirable traits, Halston Grimes had a fair hand at burglary, a fairer one at cards, and to look upon had been quite fair himself. In retrospect, Halston’s qualifications for the level of devotion Caspian had poured into him had been quotidian at best, making the memory all the more - not exactly regrettable, but too keenly representative of how addled one might be if 20 and in love.
Caspian supposes it was the mandolin and the occasional crooning that had won him over.
Here and now, then - is it the euphonious timbre of The Voice alone that so tightly seems to grip him by his throat?
The story of The Voice’s coming to be are a funeral dirge, two thousand years’ worth of unabated verse and refrain. In two thousand years, does the memory get any easier? Or even just the retelling?
Would he have poisoned his stepfather Taaldros? He hadn’t, though, really hadn’t even tried, had gone so far as to imagine skulking into his room and slitting his throat, swiftly enough that the deed would be done before the creaking floorboards could give him away. But he hadn’t done that either, had only scrounged enough desperation to run away some small handful of times, and one of those would have been deadly if not for Shiress. So he admires The Voice ever more now, though trepidation creeps silently upon him - for one can love and fear in equal measure.
The sudden mention of Taldera, though, is The Voice’s grip leaving his throat, only to plunge a dagger into his heart.
Countless nights in Sunberth, he’d shut his eyes against the moonlight and tried to conjure up the visage of his father Haalram in Avanthal. It had been easy at first, something to reach for when Taaldros had been ghastly, when Zhassel was transfigured into a contorted snarl, when the brutes ransacked the rum on the floor below and even Taalviel had presented to him an expression unreachable and seemingly of love devoid. But as the years passed it became more difficult to remember the length of his father’s hair, his beard, his gait - and after a time, even his voice, and the degrees to which in vibrato he bent his fiddle’s pitch.
Then the time came for leaving, and instead of Avanthal as he’d first dreamt of returning -
He ended up here, in Ravok, a city gleaming with obsidian light.
He might have left any time, continued heading north and west - but he hadn’t, just as he hadn’t poisoned his stepfather, or ended his life as many might have agreed he deserved. In Ravok his life was filled with parties and plays, gavottes and gowns, sugar and steam and all else besides - why leave what he could and can see, in favor of a great unknown?
The idea that he might suddenly be whisked away to the place he spent years declaring he’d return to after violently being ripped away, then years no longer declaring but instead dampening, has him reeling.
“Where-“ Caspian’s voice cracks. Reddening slightly, he coughs and clears his throat. “Where in Taldera, exactly?”
Of course Rohka will go. It hadn’t taken the light batting against Hauk for him to know that, her devotion to the city’s theocracy written into her being from the moment they’d met. And wherever she goes - would he not follow?
Happiness is where you left it, the dice had told the both of them.
How often do fortune tellers get to see their prophecies spun out in the flesh?
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