50 Summer 521
The second the door shuts behind them, Caspian feels the tension fly from where it had been building up in his shoulders. It had started well before he’d left the cottage, where privacy was nonexistent; had only swelled when he realized, that for no reason in particular, he was walking rather faster than he needed to; stuck fast in his throat when he saw that Rohka was not only early, she’d beaten him here.
And changing money and receiving keys from the keeper of the inn?
It was asking for an implosion.
As they took the staircase to the second floor, passed down the sun-strewn hallway, he became possessed of the sense that they were doing something they shouldn’t. But in the best way – the same feeling he gets when he nicks something from a market vendor as if he owns it, when he palms a purse off someone’s unsuspecting belt. It might have something to do with how it’s still light out; just as much to do with how many lies he told his sister and everyone else in the cottage about where he supposedly is this afternoon. But the thrill is what it is, ratcheting up his heartbeat. It’s not an unwanted sensation, and at the end of it they’re not actually doing anything wrong. Ever since they had made plans to meet, it had taken up so much real estate in his mind, the anticipation driving him to distraction. And now they’re finally here, and he can’t help but wonder -
Does she feel that way too?
She’d been perfectly cheerful to see him. But it could have been any other day, and they may have been absconding to do any other thing, so enviably casual and at ease had she been when she’d greeted him.
But they’re alone in their room now. It’s a valuable lesson. When you have money you can buy space, and time, and Rhysol willing, it can be yours as long as you like.
When he shuts the door behind them, turns the key, he takes her gently by the hand. Spins her slowly, to a waltz only they can hear. Pulls her to his chest.
“Hey,” he says softly. One of his hands drifts up to her face – hesitates, tucks her hair behind her ear. “I just wanted to say – that, ah, I’m really glad we’re – “ But he makes the mistake of looking into her eyes, and the speech he had prepared himself to give – though speech is terribly formal, as is announcement, almost as bad as a declaration – dies in his throat.
He stops overthinking it. When he kisses her he feels the world shift, interlock, fall away around them. Pulling back, he looks into her eyes again, though he knows that for him it’s a dangerous proposition. If she looks unhappy – it hadn’t felt that way, but if sees a shred of misgiving in her now, it would mean no small amount of heartbreak. He might never do it again. But if there’s a spark of something, a kindling to match his own, then –
Clearing his throat, he pulls back. Puts a semblance of a respectable distance between them, though he can’t help his hands resting on either side of her hips. “We don’t have to do anything,” he says. “Honestly, I – “ He looks towards the bed. Leaves her to sit on the edge, unbuttons his suit jacket, pulls off his boots. Lies down and sighs. It’s not a bad sound, and there’s space beside him. “Is it alright if we just lie here for a bit? I’m just glad to be out of the cottage. It’s turned into an absolute madhouse. Did I tell you there’s a kid living there now? Shiress has a nephew, turned up out of the blue.”
And changing money and receiving keys from the keeper of the inn?
It was asking for an implosion.
As they took the staircase to the second floor, passed down the sun-strewn hallway, he became possessed of the sense that they were doing something they shouldn’t. But in the best way – the same feeling he gets when he nicks something from a market vendor as if he owns it, when he palms a purse off someone’s unsuspecting belt. It might have something to do with how it’s still light out; just as much to do with how many lies he told his sister and everyone else in the cottage about where he supposedly is this afternoon. But the thrill is what it is, ratcheting up his heartbeat. It’s not an unwanted sensation, and at the end of it they’re not actually doing anything wrong. Ever since they had made plans to meet, it had taken up so much real estate in his mind, the anticipation driving him to distraction. And now they’re finally here, and he can’t help but wonder -
Does she feel that way too?
She’d been perfectly cheerful to see him. But it could have been any other day, and they may have been absconding to do any other thing, so enviably casual and at ease had she been when she’d greeted him.
But they’re alone in their room now. It’s a valuable lesson. When you have money you can buy space, and time, and Rhysol willing, it can be yours as long as you like.
When he shuts the door behind them, turns the key, he takes her gently by the hand. Spins her slowly, to a waltz only they can hear. Pulls her to his chest.
“Hey,” he says softly. One of his hands drifts up to her face – hesitates, tucks her hair behind her ear. “I just wanted to say – that, ah, I’m really glad we’re – “ But he makes the mistake of looking into her eyes, and the speech he had prepared himself to give – though speech is terribly formal, as is announcement, almost as bad as a declaration – dies in his throat.
He stops overthinking it. When he kisses her he feels the world shift, interlock, fall away around them. Pulling back, he looks into her eyes again, though he knows that for him it’s a dangerous proposition. If she looks unhappy – it hadn’t felt that way, but if sees a shred of misgiving in her now, it would mean no small amount of heartbreak. He might never do it again. But if there’s a spark of something, a kindling to match his own, then –
Clearing his throat, he pulls back. Puts a semblance of a respectable distance between them, though he can’t help his hands resting on either side of her hips. “We don’t have to do anything,” he says. “Honestly, I – “ He looks towards the bed. Leaves her to sit on the edge, unbuttons his suit jacket, pulls off his boots. Lies down and sighs. It’s not a bad sound, and there’s space beside him. “Is it alright if we just lie here for a bit? I’m just glad to be out of the cottage. It’s turned into an absolute madhouse. Did I tell you there’s a kid living there now? Shiress has a nephew, turned up out of the blue.”
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