The festival had become somewhat of a surreal experience for Abashai, as he found himself holding Nya close against him, dancing. Everything else seemed to fade away as they swayed slowly to the music. Ever since the bond first took place, over two seasons past, the man had tried to define his feelings for Nya, understand what their relationship was, and what he wanted it to be. But the one thing he had very carefully avoided was getting too close. It was a part of his extensive emotional defenses that had kept everyone a safe distance from his feelings, secrets and fears. It was not that he did not find Nya attractive or desirable, it was that he would not allow himself to see her as such. Avoiding such emotions meant that he could keep both of them from getting hurt. It prevented him from falling into temptation and taking advantage of her, and he did not want it to interfere with what their gods were doing. There had been a woman once that he began to fall for, and he chose to part ways with her for that very reason.
But that changed the day that she went missing. When Abashai thought that he might lose Nya, his defenses crumbled and he came face to face with the truth, he loved Nya. He found her beautiful and exciting, a wonderful friend and already tightly entwined with his heart. He found that he wanted her close, and she knew that, the bond had deepened to the point that they could not conceal their feelings.
So Abashai had lowered his walls, began reaching out to Nya with his affection. It had been scary and exhilarating, and comforting. He had never been so close to anyone. Now, dancing with her filled him with an incredible happiness. Then she spoke, softly in her alto voice.
Nya's parents were a bonded pair who fell in love. Abashai did not know that she had wanted a relationship like Zilvia and Ulvic, but it helped to explain some of her reactions over the past couple seasons. But he was not sure exactly what his bondmate meant, and what that meant in light of how he now felt about her, but he knew thatthe last thing both of them would settle for was a hollow life.
Then the forest cat looked up at him with warm moss green eyes. He realized, for the first time since fleeing Yahebah over a decade ago, that he was truly content, that large holes in his life were filling in, and he thanked Yahal. They had plenty of time for their own brand of love to form. He returned her smile and squeezed her gently.
The music picked up in pace, dissolving the ethereal moment, and the konti approached. Still caught up in all the excitement of the festival and the dance, Abashai decided to let the woman read his hand. Nya excused herself and headed for the beverage table. Somewhat hesitantly, the benshiran extended his hand to Sondra, the dark Shiber character of Yahal's marking clearly etched in his palm. He then looked into the pale face of the roguish Konti.