The cool of the coming night restored his wits. Syna's gilded face dipped below the horizon, dyeing the broad expanse of the sky with dusky oranges and yellows. He watched in awe, as if he had never seen a sunset in his life. The girl, still beside him, crossed her arms in a peevish motion and leaned back in her seat. He still held her canteen.
He drank again, and drank in the night air after that. He could smell water on the breeze, though he could not see it. With a wary concern for his arm, he offered the container back to her.
“Just drain the rest. We're almost there.”
“Where...?” He croaked. If she was surprised that he had finally spoken, she did not show it.
“Ahnatep.” Raising her arm, she motioned to the top of the dune they climbed, the caravan stretched out over the hillock of sand before them. In a short span of breaths they crested it themselves, and there, standing tall over the surrounding desert, perched on the edge of a vast estuary that reflected the heavens, was the city fabled as the jewel of Eyktol.
He choked. Shudders came, unbidden. It was just as he remembered. Outside the city's walls, the dunes sloped and flattened into hard earth, and earth became fields, riddled with irrigation canals, the green growth of crops, and farmers' pavillions. Great sandstone fortifications rose where fields met town, ringing an impossibly beautiful height of painted pillars, monuments, and temples. Gold flashed in the dying light. Obelisks wore the colors of the setting sun. Riotous plant life bloomed around the central spring, the Eye of Syna, and the celestial white palace of the pressors floated amid calm and distant waters. Surely no other city in the world – nor any product of his meager imagination – could rival it. Ancient grandeur gleamed from every spire, every polished brick.
Hot tears flooded his eyes, spilled over sunken cheeks. Only now did he remember that he had been told where they were going, when they had first hoisted his wasted frame onto this stinking beast. All this time, their footprints had traced back the searing trail he had walked in his youth, the trail that marked the beginning of his condemnation and offered him the first draughts of bitter despair. He had never thought he would see this place again.
Memories assailed him. He wept. He cackled with hysterical laughter, the kind that cracks and bleeds out madness and pain. He raged and cursed, flailed and spat. The girl and the riders in front of them eyed him with shame and derision before looking away. Some made superstitious motions over their breasts, invoking the protection of their god. The gates of Ahnatep loomed ever closer.
As they crossed into farmland, he quieted. The fit ended as quickly as it had possessed him. Silently, he straightened his dishevelled robes, the clothes he had been given, and fastened the loose end of his turban across his nose and mouth. Better to be just another nondescript desert traveler; to draw attention meant death. He groped again through the saddlebags he could reach, swallowed a mouthful of panic when he could not find what he sought. But he could not spare the time to look. Not now. Anything could swoop out of the growing dark to gut him at any moment.
Heart pounding, he studied the surroundings and passers-by with a tense, hawkish scrutiny. The road opened wide before them, bordered by fields where highwaymen could lurk. A furrow lay twenty paces ahead, deep and dry enough for hiding. Three dangerous Eypharians stood sentinel at a guard post, all wielding khopeshes. A scrawny boy, weak and unprepared to kill, trudged forward with buckets in hand. An abandoned wagon with a broken wheel still held several crates, but was too visible for safe scavenging. A trail of errant, fist-sized rocks at the edge of the path were good enough for cracking skulls. Neither the riders ahead, the girl, nor those they passed seemed interested him. He would have thanked the gods if he still had the ability to believe.
Soon, the leaders of the caravan halted in a sprawling, open forecourt surrounding the gates. Camels sat, riders climbing from their saddles; animals were herded into corrals to await the trip to market; people discreetly relieved themselves in latrine ditches. The girl waited only for the return of her canteen before disappearing into the crowd. Not knowing how to control his own beast, he slid clumsily down its side, dropping onto shaking legs. His backside ached as he huddled against the animal for shelter.
The press of people threatened to overwhelm him. There were too many bodies to watch at once. Shadows and flittering robes played at the edges of his sight. He could not smell anything besides sweat and droppings. He jerked at sudden noises, startled by piercing laughter or loud cries in Arumenic and Shiber. But no one accosted him. In time, he acclimated to the movements of the crowd, cautious but secure enough to divert his attention towards the city. To Ahnatep, the place he had once called home.
Atop the gates before him, he saw a broad stone arch, carved with old glories. Its paint had long since flaked away, worn by time. Below it, a panel had cracked and fallen, destroying what had once been an inscription. His blood chilled in memory of another such inscription, at the only other city gate he had ever stood beneath, so many years ago. The words were hewn into his soul as deeply as the warring pressors had been chiseled into Ahnatep's walls.
BEYOND ME THE TORTURED CITY
BEYOND ME FEAR AND FIERCE PAIN
BEYOND ME THE PATHS THROUGH THE FORSAKEN
DEPRAVITY BUILT MY FOUNDATIONS
AND PRIDE MY WALLS
AND ALL THE DESPERATE WICKEDNESS OF MAN SUSTAINS ME
PRISKIL WILL NOT TREAD HERE
Tossed into the pit and dashed upon bloody stone, those words had greeted him when he found his feet. They had rumbled in his mind as he wound down twisting passages into the bowels of the earth. Paths had forked before him, each offering a choice, but all leading to grottoes of misery and vice, cloistered in darkness.
This is no different. Ahnatep is the same. The realization knocked his heart like a thunderclap; the force of revelation stunned him. But he did not break as a stream of emotions flooded free. They washed about him in a torrent, shaking him, but he did not feel. Lucidity grounded him, if only for this single, transient moment.
Passing beneath these gates, he would have to choose. A million paths began at this spot, each step and choice leading him towards a future he could not fathom. And yet, they very well may all lead to the same places: Suffering. Emptiness. Regret. Longing. Wrath. Revenge. Death. He could not know. Which way was the lesser of evils? Which would he walk?
Searching his heart, he found no clear answer, save one.
He would survive.