Way to be Unwelcome 22nd of Spring 511 AV What is that dead thing doing here? A few days earlier... The desert had not been unkind, but neither was it welcoming. As soon as Jilitse, a Nuit searching for the history of Saghal Hrinn, and Jasa'lah, a Benshiran atoning for his mistakes, crossed the borders of Eyktol, they were met by the heat and endless sea of burning sand. Jilitse's mare, Mountain Pony, was obviously unfamiliar with the sand. Jilitse had to hold on tight to the reins and her saddle horn in order to prevent herself from falling off her horse. It was hard for her to ride, Nuits were not built to bump and bounce on top of horses. They had to travel slowly, oftentimes picking up their pace meant trouble: They made it no more than a few miles into the desert when their wagon decided to slowly bury itself in the sand. Traveling became difficult as their heavy wagon rolled deep, and they had to make a stop. Jasa'lah had been silent since they entered Eyktol, still bearing his unforgivable mistake. He came to Syliras last year in order to research on agriculture, but instead, he fell in love with a ravka, a non-Benshiran woman, called Hibby, who led him to lies and betrayal. Now he had to figure out how he would repay the money and valuables he lost, that is, if his tent would welcome him back. Jilitse rubbed her arm along MP's neck, in an attempt to comfort her mare. The horse had been burdened with the task to pull their wagon, which contained their supplies for the long journey to Yahebah. "Jasa'lah," Jilitse called out to the Benshiran, "Jasa'lah." She bid MP to stop tugging at the reins. Jasa'lah mindlessly moved forward, and it was only after a few moments of not hearing the wagon's squeaky wheel did he stop and turned. "Oh, why'd you stop Jilitse?" His face was wiped off of the stagnant worry, "You said we must not be delayed by unnecessary things." "You are correct," Jilitse answered, regaining composure and adjusting her posture on top of her horse, "But it seems you me you are too preoccupied with thoughts. I cannot let us move forward blindly, just because the guide decided to dream in the day light." The Benshiran was quick to dismiss the accusation, "We are following the right path, Ahnatep is right over there." He pointed straight to the direction they were facing. "Yes, I assume that as you know more about Eyktol than me," She tugged at MP, who seemed to be uncomfortable about stopping in broad scorching daylight. "But you look more dead than I am, and quite frankly you haven't been your jolly self since we entered the desert." She acquiesced to MP, who was edging forward. Jilitse maintained good control of their direction and MP thudded her hooves against the sand carefully. "Will it help if we started talking about what you'll do when you reach Yahebah?" "Me?" There was a good amount of nervousness in the question, "Why'd you say that?" "You still have the burden of explaining to your family what happened with their gold. You're going home with less than what they expected, and it is quite obvious that you're worried. Aren't you?" The question was flat, but Jasa'lah knew that his conflict must have been too obvious for Jilitse, who always seemed insensitive and callous when it came to other people, to make such an observation. "I... I'll admit." He said, and they continued to move forward. "The closer we move to our tents, the greater the fear in my heart." "You were the one who taught me a thing or two about faith." She said, raising her brows at him. Brown eyes met blue eyes, trying to connect on a more personal level. She continued, "Why worry now, when you've covered more than half the distance?" He paused and slumped on top of his horse, "Well Jilitse, it feels like this," Jasa'lah sometimes emphasized certain words to hint at their differences. The Nuit found herself smiling indulgently, Jasa'lah always assumed that with a dead heart comes dead emotions. "I disobeyed my father, I ignored Yahal's warnings, I placed my trust upon a human who was obviously up to no good, and here I am facing the consequences of my decision. I have decided to atone for my sins, but if my father learns that I even considered marrying a ravka, he will never welcome me back." "A ravka?" Jilitse asked, noticing that the man had revealed details that he had not told her before. She didn't want to press him, but she wondered why Jasa'lah was now claiming to have sinned. Hibby was the merchant who stole his money, was she the ravka he was speaking about? Was ravka Shiber for what word? Her eyes narrowed as she mixed the incoherent details in her mind. Jasa'lah did not respond, obviously caught unaware that he had revealed too much to Jilitse. He knew that the Nuit had excellent memory, and would catch the tiniest of his lies. He had previously omitted details about his mistakes in Syliras, details that were too important to let a stranger know. He didn't want to part with his secrets, not just yet, not until he finds himself worthy of forgiveness. Jilitse caught his hesitation and told him, "I will not ask no more if it is not for me to hear." She requested, "I only would like you to concentrate on your job for once." She reminded him, "I paid you to get me to Yahebah, after all." Jasa'lah gave her a frown, which turned into a laugh, "I apologize, I forget sometimes." Jilitse was a customer. But being around her, though she might be reserved and somewhat disconnected from the world, had made him feel at ease. Perhaps too comfortable. He guessed it must be because of her mark from Priskil--if an undead could hold onto hope, then why couldn't he? |