You're supposed to hate Tevon Blackwell. I created him that way. And should you stumble upon him in the sort of bar you'd never hoped to find yourself in... well, you'll probably hate him, too.
Problem is, I love him.
Enough rambling.
Interview with Tevon Blackwell: Part 1
"Don't you believe in love?"
He replies with a smirk, a scoff, and a sneering, “Loving someone.” A long pause. “Is the most selfish thing you can do.
“My mother loved my father. Loved him right into the grave. He’d go out drinking, come back all his sailor’s wages blown, and beat her. Sometimes if he wasn’t too drunk to stand he’d beat me too. When I got older, I realised that if I let him beat me he wouldn’t hit her. So did I sacrifice myself? No. I sat in the closet, cringing, while she screamed and begged and told him that she loved him. I told her she should leave him. Move away or something. She smiled and shook her head and said, “That’s just his way.” When he left, she’d smoke herself into someone else and sit there, staring at the wall. Sometimes he wouldn’t leave us with enough, and I had to pick pockets for money to feed us. Had to shovel food into my mother’s mouth while she sat there, too f**ked up to do anything but wait for him to get back.
“I always thought that one day, when I was big enough and strong enough, I’d make him regret ever hurting her. That one day I’d stand up to him, tell him everything he’d put us through, and beat him until he didn’t get up again. So did I? No. I let him beat my mother until one day, he left. Left and never came back. My mother killed herself once she’d realised he’d gone. Left me to clean up the mess.
“I hate her. Once I pitied her, but now I despise her. Hate her for being so weak. For not taking care of me. For loving him.”
He sits back in his chair, throws his head back, and laughs. “That’s love for you. Love someone? Even I’m not a bastard enough to do that.”