The revelations about Sorian's past made a lot of sense to Akela, though she was surprised by her blunt admission that she had offered herself to him and had been turned down in a most... unusual manner. Still, she felt she had some explaining to do to her sister. She could see that Kavala also had a compulsion to heal, to mend others any way she could, however that came with its own downsides, namely, you couldn't really make others at ease if you weren't at ease yourself.
Akela couldn't help but smile at her sister's difficulties to come to grips with her request. It was, in part, exactly the reaction she wanted to elicit. Kavala needed to be shaken up somewhat, and the Konti was entirely aware of that. She was allowing herself to fall into a self-destructive spiral of sorts, one that Akela viewed as a unhealthy version of her own. Every time Akela shook her sister up, it was a little jolt of life getting into her, which Kavala needed so badly before she consumed herself in her work, healing and self-deprecation.
There was the security of familiar routine. And then there was Akela.
She grinned slowly as Kavala articulated her reply, filled with her proverbial intelligence and common sense. Kavala had always been the one grounding her plans in solid thinking. We do this, then this and that and this and that, in that order, and it will take us X time and it will cost us Y money. Kavala was the dependable one, probably because her older sister had never wanted to fill that role. Akela, while admiring that about Kavala and even being a little jealous of her ability, just couldn't reason that way. Consequences were faced as they occurred. Trouble was fun in moderation.
"Don't you faint on me or I'll have to call for a healer," she laughed, sitting on the edge of the tub near her sister, but not touching her, "I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, or maybe I did, who knows? It's not always easy to tell my will from the mark's. I wasn't even thinking you'd consider being my... sistress, to be honest. Maybe I was just teasing you. Maybe."
"So, let's have it your way, Kavala. Let me explain how this gnosis works. Right now you want me to tell you about how this works, which makes me want to be chatty and never shut up." She was speaking fast now, faster than usual, as if wanting to fulfill her sister's desire as quickly and efficiently as possible. "As I said, I can be anything my 'master' wants me to be... beware, though, lies are not going to work. If you tell me to do something but deep down you want something else, chances are I'll ignore what your mouth says in favor of your heart."
"As for how far I can go," Akela said nonchalantly, "it's as far as I have to... as far as I physically can. I can be sweet radiant dark cruel mysterious open shy sincere feral and whatever you'd like me to be. Once I have a master I feel no guilt for serving, though I can still think. What the master likes, I like. Hobbies, activities, and yes, tastes too." Said the one who'd been enslaved to the Zith. "I can switch masters - I did kill my old one - though it's a bit uncomfortable at first. I can push back an urge too, it just feels like... an immense waste, that's the only way to describe it. Like spilling your only waterskin on the desert sand."
"I can do that, though," she smiled, leaning closer to send a hot whisper in her sister's ear, "you know it's true. I have been pushing back the urge to cut you up nice and slow, the way you like it... just fast and deep enough for your healing to keep up..."
She jerked back and stood on the bathroom floor all of a sudden. "Uh, sorry, Kavala," Akela apologized, "I guess this is a hands-on demonstration of how my mark works. It was different with Sorian, though. I felt no strong physical attraction to him, which means he's not really ready for that kind of thing, not yet at least. If anything, I think you are the one he wants on a deeper level. Which reminds me, you basically told me you wanted to take him to your bed to 'heal' him, right? Well, that sounds like pity to me, and probably did to him as well. His problems are deeper than that. You can't patch up a soul in one night."
Akela shrugged, still making no move towards any form of clothing. "This may look like a curse to you, Kavala, but to me it's a deep, beautiful gift. I can look at people for what they are, without judging them on some skewed moral system. I can see their needs... acknowledge them, respect them, and fulfill them. Sex is only one way to express a need... yes, even the Zith are more layered than that. Navis needs my laughing at him and calling him names just like you need someone disrupting your predictable quiet routine."
"I have enough sense left in me to take some measures, though. Getting a master is one. I don't want to cause too much ruckus in here... especially with us looking almost identical, can you imagine how confusing it could get? I don't want to get pregnant either, and the Akalak here want exactly that. It wasn't a problem with the Zith since they can't interbreed, but it is now. I will admit, serving you would go a long way towards helping me keep things in check. It's your choice. If anything, I can keep Vanator busy with my sword and buy some time while you run away." She smiled at Kavala, the earlier high-on-weed grin replaced by a much more familiar sisterly smile. |