Pawn... You are a pawn... Nothing but a pawn... A piece of meat to be used and discarded once you have served your purpose... Despite her momentary immobility, Cassandra's mind worked furiously - studying and analyzing her situation, her environment, her present condition. Gifted by her benefactor and manipulator, the puppet master pulling her strings, while Ravarisk was using her to achieve its own ends, it also gave her mortal mind the ability to process information faster, allowing her to understand just exactly what she was to it. Pawn... Take pregnant one to po-! Pawn. Pawn. Pawn... KILL EVERY-! ...pawnpawnpawnpawnpawnpawnpawnpaw- She knew she was dying, burning up her own life force even as her mind worked overtime to piece together everything to lead her to this conclusion. She was strong - powerful! - she'd be able to do anything she wanted, but at the cost of losing her will. And in the end, Cassandra knew, she would still lose it all. A means to an end for the Ravarisk. In the part of her mind still uncontrolled by the Relic, a small voice cried out in supplication to her patron goddess. Free me! Her goddess...was it Priskil - the the kind and generous one she had always prayed to since she was an innocent little girl living in Zeltiva - or Krysus, the one who had chosen her and, in essence, saved her from being victimized by a lustful man in Syliras? Cassandra never knew who it was that answered her prayer, though from the way it was answered made her think it was the latter. Excruciating agony lanced through her brain, the need of her mark to inflict pain on others making itself evident on her body. Even the ability to ignore the pain of her injuries, granted to her by Ravarisk's blood, could not make her immune from the effects of the divine mark. Whether it was truly Krysus herself who had triggered it, or a side effect of the crimson fluid accelerating her body's functions and inadvertently setting off Vexation's signal to hurt others, Cassandra would never know. Pain is your freedom. She only knew that that brief stab of pain in her brain temporarily freed her from Ravarisk's desires, allowing her to focus. Kindred spirits they were, Ravarisk and Cassandra, both looking for a way to survive. But when one came in conflict with the other - such as now - Cassandra had to prioritize herself over the Relic, even with his now-tenuous control over her. It was simply a natural instinct for every living being. Cassandra fought through the numbness of the suvai's poison, the rapid beating of her heart purging it from her system all that much faster, inching the point of her dagger to her palm. Self-mutilation? No, she was trusting her instincts, trusting that the goddess of murder and pain would save her. She maintained her concentration even as the chaos exploded all around her, from the encroachment of the others infected by Ravarisk to the shifting of one of her targets from human woman to giant eagle. The thin blade pierced her hand and the dark-haired woman let out a sound that was both a cry of pain and a sigh of relief. Was she freed from the Ravarisk at last? The goddess had promised! Or was it only her own deluded mind that had said that? But there was clarity in her thoughts now that hadn't been there earlier. Her mind was clear, but she could feel that her body was broken. Survive. She remembered one of the women - a healer! Cassandra flung her pierced hand up just as the giant eagle took wing, and it lodged itself, dagger and all, between one of the bird's taloned feet. And then she was airborne. There was still hope. She had to hang on to that. |