Oddly enough, she enjoyed the time playing with the sand and stretching the proverbial legs of her powers. Nya was done, by this time, sculpting the hills and valleys. She didn't quite have the ability to carve trees, so instead she gathered little bits of seaweed and flotsam that had washed up at the foamline and planted them in the ground around the tower. Then she moved around behind it and began carving on the back side. Shai wouldn't be able to see what she was doing from where he was, but Nya had a plan. With the completion of his city gates, she knew she couldn't compete. So instead, she diverted, going off and doing something she'd always wanted. She hollowed out the tower from behind so she could make the actual rooms in the tower like some sort of sandcastle dollhouse. Nya had always wanted a dollhouse when she was smaller, but her father had thought it too human and her mother thought it something she'd outgrow too fast. Both were probably true in their thinking - but she'd still wanted one. She hadn't even known what they were until her mother had unearthed an old one, crumbling, at one of her research sites. There were dolls for it too, crumbling faceless things lost in the rot of time. The one her mother had recovered had been to fragile to play with, but in Zilvia's patient studious manner, she'd explained to Nya what it was with a sigh. The Kelvic had wanted one ever since. So she carved out the back of the tower, carefully forming the rooms and the staircases, leaving out the inner walls unless they went perpendicular to the back rather than parallel to the back. The truth was Nya couldn't figure out how to make them properly... though the staircases weren't hard - just uneven. As she molded out the rooms, she thought about the memories in them. Some made her smile, and others made her soft moss colored eyes darken with pain. There was so much she hadn't told Abashai. She knew they had a lifetime to share memories together. Some, she hadn't told him because they just seemed unimportant. Others, she hadn't verbalized because they were potentially too painful. Some of them - she just wasn't sure how too. One of those surfaced and bubbled out of her lips - almost unwillingly. But Shai was Shai... and he'd tell her straight. It was something she'd always wanted to know, even if it was going to hurt her. "Shai, before I left Lormar, something had changed. It was... I've talked about this before... but it was like they were afraid of me. My mother and father were always close. I've talked about it before... close like we are." She moved closer to him, to settle at his side for a moment, taking a break from making and using her Res to carve out the inside of the sandcastle tower. "They enjoyed touching too, a great deal, for my father was always willing to go further as is the nature of a stallion. But before I left, something had changed. He was still protective, still often close, but I don't remember him kissing her, touching her.... like they normally did. Zilvia had gotten sick, Shai... more than once. I had asked her if she was okay because she ate almost nothing and if she did she threw it up. I... had that incident, before the herbs, and they locked me in the tower because of Ulvik.... but I didn't understand what was happening. When things were better and they let me out they told me I had to leave. I upset my father and they said I was dangerous. But I never tried to hurt them. I always bowed to his will." She always had. Her father was a formidable male, in either form, and she'd always been respectful. Nya rubbed her cheek against his shoulder, glanced up at him, and asked the question that was on her mind. "Her scent had changed. I don't know what was different about it, but I think it affected my father. Do... you think they made me leave because Zilvia was with child again? That they were afraid I'd hurt her of it? She said she wasn't sick, but I kept watching her get sick.... it doesn't make sense to me otherwise. Because she didn't look ill. She looked healthy, like she was carrying a secret close to her heart." She asked softly, a tiny bit of hurt creeping into her voice. Nya's very human tongue, though Abashai knew it was only a ruse, flickered out and ran up the length of his arm. She nipped the skin there and licked where she nipped. His sleeveless tunic gave her access to his skin and he knew she was tasting him, gathering his scent, calming herself from inner turmoil. Shai knew the problem with Nya, most of her problems in fact, stemmed from the fact she didn't view the world as a human would. Instead she viewed it as a forest cat. They were sociable creatures, prone to take mates for life and to keep their offspring around for years as they matured to help hunt for the kittens. She didn't understand family or even a herd like her mother and father did respectfully. Nya's world included all that Abashai cared for - his friends, his horse, even his things. Her definition of pride was loose, open, willing to be fluid. And she was confident in the ability to protect things within the pride as if they were her own... because in fact they were in a way and in her mind. Her folks wouldn't have seen things her way, regardless of how smart they were. There was no way for them to understand that a young Nya was less capable of jealousy than most - especially for an offspring of her parents. Mates were different. Far far different. |