69 Fall, 511AV The time spent in the chapel, speaking with the shadowy Veldrys had stuck with Seodai more than he had imagined it might. The resounding truth of his words was something the young farmer couldn't seem to escape, and while he was hardly ready to change his approach to life, it bothered him. He spent more than a few nights staring at the familiar ceiling in his familiar room, wondering how much of his misery was self-inflicted, how many of his own wounds he had caused. This sort of revealing was not a comfortable one, and so Seodai would arise with Syna and attempt to push it aside. He would labor in the work he had spent half of his life doing, the work he loved. He would smile, and it wouldn't be until shadows fell and sleep approached that he'd think again. Worry. What if he could have changed it? Eventually his thoughts became more than errant musings. Seodai made a conscious effort to do better. It was tiny things that no one would likely notice. He tried to force himself not to retreat so viciously on the inside when someone wandered up to the farm. He'd make his smile more sincere, his politeness more than requirement. It would have been invisible to anyone else, this attempted reworking of his approach to things. When Seodai awoke in the later part of fall, and found that the sun was not shining at all, it did impact the choices he made for his morning, though. He dressed, ate, and after tending to the animals, decided to neglect his farming for the day. It wasn't as if it needed constant care, especially at this point in the season. With said justification in mind, the Denvali youth trailed the muddy road that led towards the center of town and, ultimately, the Lyceum. Seodai had spent many hours inside the stone walls, learning to read and to write. He learned basic mathematics, and about philosophical ideas. Seodai had been even more awkward as a child, though, and it had not been the happiest of times for him. Children tend to poke fun at that which is different, at that which they do not understand, and so Seodai had learned the art of hiding in these halls. Both literally, having to be found and dragged back to instruction, and emotionally. He reached the point where he sat impassive, as if he did not even hear their jokes, their laughter. And eventually, he did not have to go back. He had sworn he never would. Such thoughts gave him pause just at the threshold of the main entrance but, recalling both Veldrys' words and his own reason for coming, Seodai entered nonetheless. It was rather anticlimatic, really, because nothing at all happened. A few students shuffled past but paid him no mind, and the Lyceum went on as it always had. He was in just a contemplative enough mood to consider that, just maybe, he made things much bigger than they really were. Having broached the interior, Seodai wound through familiar halls, asking after his friend. He was told that the Vantha was working, but that did little to aide in his locating the smiling artist. Eventually he found someone who did know precisely where Seo might look and, a few moments later, Seodai found the classroom where Syllke had last been spotted. Inside there was a huddled mass of humanity in the form of Denvali children. They had proper seats with pads and instruments to write with. Those were discarded, haphazardly in some places. Instead of sitting, orderly and properly in the chairs, the children had somehow fallen into a giggling mass of limbs at the foot of the stool Syllke perched upon. Whatever class was supposed to be taking place here, well, it wasn't. Instead, Syllke was weaving his spell over the children in the form of words. One of those fantastic stories even Seodai loved to hear held them spellbound, and he could only watch with a warm sort of admiration. He was glad to have Syllke as a friend, and doubly so in his thoughtful mood. He might have stayed for the entire story but, before Syllke could even notice the other presence shadowing the doorway, he was called away. Small talk wasn't his forte, but he did his best. A friend of Theo's, inquiring about the harvest, the plan for the day, and specific fruits his wife liked best. Though Seodai knew little of the personal lives of many of the Denvali, he generally knew what they preferred in regards to the food coming from his farm. A simple way he was tied to the land he lived and worked, even if it didn't take the form of traditional gossip. He even knew which children were allergic to strawberries, made ill by mushrooms, and the like. Seodai considered these things with every planting, trying to ensure that the produce that came from Theo's farm would be enough not only to help the Denvali survive another cold winter, but to please them as well. By the time the conversation had taken it's course and he was free, the classroom was empty. The farmer considered simply heading back to the farm, to his solitude and peace. He'd given it a good go, right? The image of Syllke smiling so indulgently at the littlest of Denval was stuck in his mind though, and he had an inexplicable desire to see that smile directed at him. It seemed worth staying for. Seodai had to search the Lyceum over and again to find Syllke, in what amounted to little more than closet space. It was entirely open on one side, though, and thusly well lit. The Vantha was without a top, though the day wasn't as warm as the ones that had passed, and working feverishly over something Seodai couldn't see. The Denvali leaned against the doorway, crossing his arms over his chest as he waited to be noticed. Apparently too engrossed in his work, Syllke didn't turn immediately, giving Seodai the opportunity to observe him. How often did he have this chance? Syllke was like a droplet of Syna, sunlight come to life. No matter what they were doing he was constantly vibrant, distracting Seo even from considering him too closely. Now the golden haired farmer could survey the slender tuck of Vantha hips, the lean strength of exposed back, the careless fall of dark hair. Syllke seemed so human. Seodai hadn't really realized, before then, that Syllke was sometimes bigger than life to him. Tireless, passionate, curious, a veritable whirlwind of living and breathing and sensing. The profile that Seodai could see now seemed both boyish, innocent, quiet and also focused in a way that was familiar to Seodai. He had watched the artist work well enough to know that face, but he was most often the subject and would get scolded for changing his position enough to warrant a good stare. It was a rare opportunity, then, to watch Syllke in his element. They almost always existed in the realm of Seodai's world. It was... nice, this change. After a few long moments, Seodai succumbed to a selfish jealousy he'd never really known before and, therefore, did not recognize as what it was. He had tired of standing outside the circle of Syllke's enjoyment. He had become so accustomed to being the center of the artists attention when they were together that, really, he was spoiled for it. Watching Syllke work was enjoyable, but listening to his smooth voice tell stories and laugh and such was all the better. So, Seodai pushed off from the doorway and took the scant two steps it took to reach his friend. Striving for the humor Syllke exhibited so effortlessly, he stepped forward until his chest was only a breath away from the bare back of the Vantha. Still unnoticed, Seodai was amused enough to laugh silently as he lifted one arm and, remarkably quick, crossed it across Syllke's chest in front so that his long, calloused fingers could curl about the ivory column of that throat. All it took was a tug and he'd pulled the slender frame into the shape of his own body. His head tipped aside and, entirely teasing this best of friends, he spoke in a voice that was low enough to be a lovers caress. "Your obsession is dangerous, Syllke. You could get hurt." Seodai, of course, referred to his art, and how easily he had crept up on him. |