Winter 1st, 511 Half past four bells. Laszlo hated the cold. He associated it, of course, with the day of his "birth". It had been his good fortune, or perhaps Syna's design, that the young daughter of a Syliran fisherman had found the Ethaefal washed up on the shore of the Suvan Sea, naked, freezing, and barely conscious. And, recalling distant memories belonging to Vethis Orthilia replayed in his dreams, he could almost recall that dying must have felt even colder. Siofra would know, her soul free now to find new purpose. The beginning and the end, why were they both so cold? Sopping wet, Laszlo stumbled along the dark Alvadas street, his soaking cloak clinging to his back and legs. Both arms were crossed tightly over his chest to cradle what little warmth he could keep as the rest of his body shivered madly. Every shred of clothing he wore was heavy with salty Suvan water, savagely stinging the gash along his side, though Laszlo was too cold to care. The gravelly road under his boot heels seemed to mock him, rolling and rippling like the surface of the ocean, but still as hard as the earth. Laszlo could barely concentrate, his mind numb from the shock and the cold, and aching from trying to keep his teeth from chattering. It was all he could do to focus his halfway open eyes on the movement of his feet, trying to keep himself conscious as he prayed for Ionu to bring him back to the tavern. The cool winds that licked at him through his clothing brought muted groans of pain from the Ethaefal, but he kept moving. His only other choice was to collapse here in the street and perhaps die. He didn't want to die. Goddess, he just wanted all of this to become memory. Adding to his silent prayers to Ionu, he mumbled pleas to Syna under his breath, pleading with her to guide him home and promising to be a better person. To be honest, Laszlo wasn't sure why he so desperately clung to life when Siofra was so ready to throw away hers. He had told her several times: we are the same. She always insisted they weren't. Maybe she was right. It didn't matter. He couldn't think about that now. All he wanted was to get back home. The toe of his right boot caught on the road, and Laszlo tripped. Uttering a soft grunt, he fell first onto his knees, and then his hands—one of them flat and the other balled into a fist. The cold ground was unforgiving, rough, and painful against his skin. His body quaked in what might have been a sob. "Gods," he muttered through his teeth as he painstakingly pushed himself back up to his feet. "Please… let me go home…" If I die, let me die in my home, his tired mind pleaded, consciously irrational and overdramatic, but not caring. Let someone be there with me. I don't want to be alone. Laszlo dwelled on that for a moment, listening to the shuffling steps of his waterlogged boots. Forgotten. The indigo sky was turning grey with the promise of dawn by the time Laszlo found the Sun and Stars Tavern, nestled snugly between two much larger buildings. Shouldering the cold just a little longer, he staggered up to the front step and reached for the handle. Locked, of course. The tavern was closed, and Laszlo hadn't brought his key out with him when he stepped out for a breath of fresh air. The façade of the tavern somehow became unwelcoming, trapping Laszlo outside in his soaking wet clothes and leaving him to shiver. Bam. Bam. The side of Laszlo's fist shook the door, striking it a little harder than he had meant to. He couldn't quite control his muscles and make them do what he wanted them to. It didn't matter, as long as someone heard him. Laszlo tried to dig into himself, to draw out his djed and compel his housemates with a dose of hypnotism, but he simply didn't have the energy. "It's me," the Ethaefal shouted (or came close to it) through the door, his tongue flicking through two fangs. He was still Symenestra, but he'd be his more natural horned self again within the hour. He banged on the door again. "It's Laszlo. I don't have my key. Please let me in. Please. Seven? Victor? Either of you." Giving up quickly, the Ethaefal shut his eyes and leaned against the cold, hard door. His wet cloak provided zero protection against the cold air and the sting of his freezing clothing, but he huddled under it anyway. The trick was not letting it touch his skin. |