It was akin to reaching out in a world without light. Nimvahlis sifted blindly through the chaos, searching for something, anything to latch onto and rip from the mass. His brain buzzed with the effort of order, so unaccustomed as it was to the notion. Frantic ideas raced down electric highways to uncertain destinations- Nim could not find a clear answer. Heavy eyes alighted upon himself, entirely unable to aid the physical fight. The only battle he could entertain was one of the mental. Yet, how did one combat something that epitomized the bedlam of Rhysol? Ten thousand answers manically swarmed his head, none of them proper ammunition. Frustration welled up within him, and his eyes attempted to focus on the djed eddying around the adumbrative entity. Nimvahlis had not the slightest as to what information he could ascertain, but spontaneity dominated in this instance and he leaped for the first definitive answer with his auristics. It soon after that pages began turning in Nim's mind of their own accord. The Ethaefal spent much time exploring his mind, as he had little other stimulation when encased in his solitude, as such this entity was quickly noticed. This presence had announced itself like a man calmly walking through a world of hornets, obvious and tranquil among the unceasing noise. Nimvahlis was unthinking in his defense, inverting his focus away from the shadow beast and onto the mental assailant. He willed his thoughts to calm, not an easy or successful task given the circumstances. A great blankness spread itself before Nimvahlis' closed eyes, white and serene. It was the first step of what may be a long battle, but it was where he would begin. Each breath was loud in his ears, resounding and total. Nimvahlis commanded himself to focus solely on the inhalation and exhalation of air, though he found his thoughts straying back to the struggle outside of him and the entity within. Nim caught himself each time he drifted too far though, rebuking all else with renewed vigor. I am alone. The curt reminder of his complete solitude accompanied each return to the deep breathing. Would that this mockery of concentration could dispel an entity that Nim would oft times embrace... But nobody toyed with his mind, this entity would be driven out one way or another. Nim found himself unable to maintain such an empty state. Beneath the blank facade he writhed and churned in the white space, emotions erratically breaking through despite his concentration. Nim was faltering, failing before the unseen being combing his brain. He clutched his head, as if raking out the silver strands would exorcise the assailant. The presence was wrong, the turning of pages was wrong, the approach was wrong- this was not Nimvahlis. A small lance of emotion broke through the trembling white veil, and Nim almost sighed in the relief. Such suppression was so painful, and proved to be ineffective. The blankness began earnestly dissolving in the colored lights that burst through, Nimvahlis had found his approach. He recalled the strands of bluish tranquility he had wrapped about himself in Abura, the dimly glittering melancholia he had so embraced, and the inky depression of the days before he had discovered Leth. Each of these he surrendered, real and visceral as they were, to the entity. The emotions flickered through his brain at break neck speed, Nimvahlis rapidly perusing the familiar thoughts and barraging the entity with each. A flaring light, fallen stardust, a frigid reality and the sanctuary within the confines of his mind- all foisted upon the assailant. There was hopefully no easy perusal as Nim continued, but the weariness that gnawed at him threatened to change this. |