Well, right now I can't focus on anything. Maybe if I rant a bit, I'll be able to get a few things done.
So today, so many people have let me down, I can't even express how sad I am. My sister won't come to my graduation in December. That's the biggest thing. And geez it bugs me so much. It hurts. I've cried about it many times. She says she'll "compromise" and visit me for a random weekend while I'm in school, but I'm sorry, that's not the same. The only reason she's trying to do that is because others are making her feel bad. I'm only going to be graduating once. She can go visit her in-laws for Christmas ANY other time.
So I've decided my graduation is going to be kickass. I'll wear an adorable dress. I'll spend the time with my friends and family that I love. There will be fun and pictures. Oh so many pictures, and then I will have a job and I'll support myself.
I'm not going to do what she did. I didn't get married when I was 20. IF I ever get married, I'm not going to stop work and doing the things I love.
I'm going to be me. I'm going to do my art. I'm going to keep writing. I'm going to be happy. And on top of that, I WILL NEVER MARRY A CONTROLLING JERK. Cause right now, I'm going to blame him. Why? Cause it wouldn't surprise me if he's the one convincing her not to come.
I mean, Christmas is EVERY year. This is something that only happens once.
On top of this, where I work is going to Hell. I'm not even going to try and sugar coat it. Pennies and cockroaches in lasagna. No clean silverware/dishes, management that cries, etc, etc, etc. I'm so glad I didn't work last night, if I did I probably would have lost it. My friend wanted to walk out twice. I'm glad he didn't, but if he had, I probably would have just quit because, I've had problems and he's served for many years and the fact that he had never dealt with that before, REALLY bothers me. I had such a bad feeling about that place when I was trying to get the job. It was horrible. I regretted it. BUT...
See, I met Brandon. He's so awesome and he's an artist, which makes it so much easier to connect with him. I REALLY like him. I like spending time with him. I like talking to him. I just wish I wasn't so shy all the time. Personality wise we are COMPLETE opposites. Seriously, he's an extrovert and I'm so introverted. And it's so obvious, but I think that's why we enjoy spending time together.
Well, that's a good thing going down.
ALSO, not that anyone reads this or anything, but I thought I'd give a shout out about it. I got a 3DS XL a while back and I have a few games: Tales Of The Abyss, Animal Crossing: New Leaf, and Kingdom Hearts 3D: Dream Drop Distance. My friend code is: 0920-0382-0284
And now that I've spent some time ranting and then being all giddy, I'm going to get some things done. Yup.
Yup.
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