His mouth was sealed by the man who had given him a mental start. He didn’t dare speak through the hand but listened to what the mage had to say. The man excreted an aurora of confidence and made practically everyone respect him without even knowing the person, before he even opened his mouth to speak. He followed the logic up until the mention of fear of others. That couldn’t be furthest from the truth at least for him.
Guilt! The emotion pierced through his head. He remembered the feeling of infamy but wasn't sure why it had manifested at such a great level, one generally reserved for his pets and not common humanoid. But as Shroud began to speak once more, a spark suddenly ignited in his head as realization came. His eyes shifted toward Shroud as he spoke, “it seems this night has grown a bit more interesting. I need to remember this face.”
Xavior eyes turned back to the center of the table. Mind wandered in and out of the current conversation and his own self reflection. He didn’t fear much of anything. But as he sat and wondered what exactly it was that he feared the most. “Men fear others, things they do not know, their gods, but what do I fear? I do not fear death, I have no god to fear only respect. Man I do not fear because they are the bringer of their own destruction. How could I fear something as stupid as a race that kills itself?” His thought process paused as the heated conversation and projections of personality continued. “Will I really be returned to Ukalas as a faithful follower of Leth? What have I done since I came to this forsaken city? I’ve killed a man, my drinking habits have gone through the roof, I’ve been in several fights, I haven’t been nice.” He paused a moment more as the conversations continued he remained silent through it all.
“But I suppose I have done much in my times that have been good. I helped my family grow closer than ever before. I gave inspiration to live to a lowly beggar and created a great friendship with him. I’ve shown people both the light and dark of the moon. I’m just second guessing myself, I think I am doing fine.”
When the interlude of powerful words and potential life altering possibilities finally came to a conclusion. Xavior turned toward the female sym. He didn’t know how but he felt more at ease with her acceptance of his apology. He could care less about the others, but perhaps Chamaeleon could feel the same sorrow in the man. Xavior didn’t know it, but they shared a common bond that went beyond mortal understanding. Their bond was brother and sister like, yet they didn’t know it. But like a close sister separated by distance, her words had more worth than anyone at the table to him.
“Thank you. I just wish we both can make a safe journey back to our homes.” He paused and wondered why he said that, but someway it made sense to him. Regardless, he gave a nod to Roka, [colors=white]“I agree. But then again, I suppose a bit of attention to us is a good thing. Perhaps we can test my theory on myths.”[/color] He gave a sarcastic, snide grin.
The symenestra he had insulted stood and began to prattle on. His words did little to pierce the stone like exterior of his skin as he ranted and raved. When he finished and stood in wait, Xavior sat back with a huge grin on his face. “Well it is unfortunate that we do not see eye to eye Symenestra, but if you wish to cause trouble I do not seek it. I do not like to repeat myself. Since my analogy of myths seems to have not penetrated through your frail skull, may I just be blunt. Your race is held almost lower than beggars here.”
He paused as he began to have a brief flashbacks of imagery. Imagery of someone he once loved, taken by a Sym and deceived by it. Shadow's one and true love taken away by a smooth talking symenestra. All the time she had been pregnant, he thought it was his. It tore his heart out to find that she had been unfaithful from the start. That symenestra, smiling through his teeth, promised she'd be okay. Ignorance was bliss for Shadow, Xavior's past life Zith, as the deception had been completed. “The way your kind is born, it is brutal. Have you seen a woman's womb turned to slush? Skin ripped open as the baby sym is born from death? Poetic, if the woman knows what she is getting herself into, murder if not.” He paused and sighed, then continued, “you can be strong. However, even the strongest emperor of them all can be slain by the power of numbers. You’re going to have to have the strength equal to the hatred of man’s heart symenestra.”
He paused and considered what he was going to say next. He remembered the brief flashes of memories Leth had allowed him to see, the ones of the tavern and Shadow being ripped to shreds under false pretenses, before he continued, “I thought I was strong too. That is until I met man's real monstrous side. I am not man, I’ve been killed once before because of hate, prejudice and rumors.” Even though the sym might not look him in the eye, an undeniable urge to listen washed through his body. He looked up and focused his energy to resonate from the pores of his sweat glands. “Of course that is another analogy that I won’t explain, but instead leave you to wonder if I’ve actually died or if my life before Sunberth was taken away due to hatred and rumors.”
He sat back and finally relaxed his focus of his strange powers, “maybe our paths will cross again. No, I know our paths will cross again,” he paused and then nonchalantly added, “everyone dies eventually. But I wonder who will reach death first and what will be waiting on the other side for both of us.”
The pause was longer than any before Vaxes stood as well. Xavior turned to Shroud, “what was the date again?” His words had become long and drawn out again, slurred to an almost cryptic tongue. Perhaps cryptic to those who walk the land, but muddled language of the stars. He received the reply before he turned his head to look at Vaxes.
The subtle marking on his face only made him chuckle under his own breath, “did you loose a gamble?” He chuckled, louder than he should of, before that slurred wording left abruptly and his voice became clear. Hands planted themselves over the splintered surface of the table. The crossbow, hung under his cloak shifted, moved, and taped the wooden leg of the chair. The sound only punctuated his words, “if you are attempting to intimidate just know such actions brush off of me faster than Dira's embrace; same as petty words spoken from the likes of you.” His head twitched toward Davros to indicate who he meant. “What exactly has been brought on me? A rival, a hit on my head, I made someone mad at me? Leth forgive me, for I have not been faithful!” He praised the heavens with his hands before he sunk back in his seat. His arms relaxed into his lap as he took in a breath. Though his tone had much force in it, it had barely risen a single decibel, though for whatever reason his words cut through like a sharp blade through cheese. “Tsk, whatever. I've only been here for eleven years and I'm already bored.” He muttered inaudibly to himself he turned his head back up, “I'm not afraid to make enemies. If your business is finished, have a glorious night and may the light of Leth be with you now and always.”
Xavior began to turn away before he flicked a finger up. He turned back to the two syms, “If you have ill feelings, I know one of your weaknesses. But if you want to reconcile those feeling, I'll be at the rendezvous for the CE.” Xavior turned his head back to the table wile he stifled another playful jab at the syms, “that is if you haven't already lost the balls to castrate.” The line was said only in his head. He didn't want to throw more fuel onto th flames.
oocDepending on y'all, this is going to be my last post. Xavior has plans to stay within the city till day break. |
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