Sometimes she felt she could not be around humans. They were specimens to be study not creatures that made any sense and yet she could not leave them alone. And now she was suffering the consequences of being able to empathize with their pain. She felt lost and though it was a comfort to have something known near it did her no good right now. It once more brought up her welling panic. A sudden tensing in her stomach and clenching in her throat, locking away all sounds. For a few moments she stood there stupidly, staring at nothing and holding the damp rag. Finally and stiff like a corpse her body was forced into motion by the sudden bustle in the building. During her stupor the controlled chaos in the building had doubled and now there were more helping but unlike her they moved about. Looking around in a frenzy of need something, anything, to do Ndale remembered her previous question to Elem and proceeded to grab a small bowl of water off the nearest table. Both items in hand she trailed in the general direction she remembered spying Elem go in. She did not find him though and instead found people grabbing at her, begging for immediate attention. Their faces, words and feelings seemed to be her own, threatening to drown her and she found herself once more standing and doing nothing. Her body itched to move, to flee but outside it was worse, so much worse. Still the foolish bird found herself going to the exact location she had been told not to. The courtyard was somehow better and worse. She had seen more disturbing things outside but to see everything piled up so...it was wrong. So very wrong. She wanted to retch again but didn’t have the strength. Ndale didn’t have the strength to do much of anything. The sight of all the bodies, animal, human and anything else seemed to slap her. Water sloshing and dipping the rag half-heartedly Ndale fled back inside, gripping the first person she could and forcing them onto a nearby bed. “I fix.” The young girl only continued to wail under Ndale shaky and sometimes painful cleaning of the wounds. They were light she thought. Not painful but frightening. Maybe. Should she get help? Turning in a circle she once more felt the imaginary weight press. She could clean them, watch them, bother them but she could not heal them. “I will find…fixer.” Patting the girls head awkwardly Ndale tottered off, looking a bit like a lost drunk. She needed Elem or someone like him to check the girl. It was then she seen the young woman rush by. A shock of white hair and a very red face. Assuming her to be someone in charge Ndales course changed route to follow the girl, her fingers reaching ot to grab at her shirt. “I need fixer checker!” |